tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post2395917241674014219..comments2024-01-29T03:08:22.174+01:00Comments on - Memoires of a Heroinhead -: The Thinman AffairMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comBlogger43125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-29674218891022968412017-08-18T08:35:19.122+02:002017-08-18T08:35:19.122+02:00This is brillIant, Mr.Levene, Your tales of debauc...This is brillIant, Mr.Levene, Your tales of debauchery and realism allow me the pleasure of being able to dip my toes into the occasionally warm and inviting waters of heroin use without drowning! Thank you.<br />The working class hero.The working class herohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18018047787702712996noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-6827235231935842982016-02-02T23:28:07.421+01:002016-02-02T23:28:07.421+01:00Wow!!!! Ok perhaps I never worded my text right, f...Wow!!!! Ok perhaps I never worded my text right, for that I apologise, I meant that in the world I grew up in and my experiences as a child/teen then I would of been a perfect candidate as a heroin user, I chose a different path, so no I don't blame society, I blame the person. Yes often I have wanted an escape, would love to shut my brain off from the constant shit that runs through my head and doesn't switch off. You don't know what I have went through in my life, you chose to share I don't. I also never stated that you glorify I said sometimes I feel like you glorify it. That's the impression I get, like through your art work, some young kids may stumble across it and think that it's cool, and am not slating your art work at all here neither!!<br /><br />I had been on your site years ago and read your blogs but after things were sorted for years I was able to break away from that world and then came crashing back into it, I came on hoping that maybe you yourself had managed to steer clear, and maybe that was a little bit of hope. But to slate me as a mother, that is a low blow. I don't take drugs, hell I hardly even drink, I cook, clean and clothe my children, when I pick them up from school/ nursery, I ask them how there day was. You put your life on here for people to comment on, you write blogs telling of experiences you have had so you've put yourself out there for people to comment on and if you don't like someone's else's opinion you hurl abuse and spit your dummy out. Fair enough we are from different generations, my fear is for the next generations which will be my children's.You can that I was here criticising you all you want when all I was after was a little more understanding and perhaps more hope that people can stay off.Mohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16172683314592330667noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-40681582321468172152016-02-02T02:04:06.637+01:002016-02-02T02:04:06.637+01:00You're talking in absolute and idiotic cliches...You're talking in absolute and idiotic cliches. If you think you know why people continue to use then you are a fool - not even the user understands why he/she continues to use and billions are spent throughout the entire world trying to figure it out and no-one can... but you have. Well done. You've obviously read absolutely nothing of my writings here, and you've obviously not even read this text you're posting under as the descriptions of the addict are anything but glorifying: one almost shits his pants and squirts out liquid diarrhea behind a bush and the other one is wasting away in hospital with wound botulism. But of course you haven't read the text, it is a good twelve pages long and people like you can only skim read for 30 seconds before typing out your ill and preconceived ideas. You think you know what every addict is going to say, but you got it completely wrong this time and every commenter here will be sniggering at how utterly foolish you look. Take your cliches elsewhere. You know fuck all about heroin addiction. You say society cannot be blamed, that it's not a social problem, and then in the next breath admit that your poverty stricken council estate had a fucking heroin epidemic. So what the hell is that then? Why are there not heroin epidemics in Oxford or Wimbledon or the great mansions along the river? <br /><br />What you want is everyone lying and writing up anti-heroin propaganda. But that is false and is more damaging than anything. The truth is that many people get a lot of relief from heroin and so when I write about that and why, it is not 'glorifying' it but telling the truth and shitting on the myths. If it was as bad and as dangerous as you would want to have everyone believe then no-one would fucking use it. That you admit there was heroin all around you must surely tell you something? People are getting some release from this drug. The real question is why do they need relief? What are they trying to escape? They are trying to escape their environments, the hopelessness and psychological pain. And until there is a far more just world, where people are not exploited and hammered down into the ground and abused for 9 hrs of every fucking day, heroin will always be an epidemic in poverty stricken places. You've proved you know nothing of the social nor psychological reasons why many turn to heroin (or any drug). You have come to the most childish and naive conclusions based on your own experience, because that is the only reference you have. It's an extremely disastrous methodology to reach any conclusion on. I'll not be replying nor reading anything else you type. You're obviously totally brainwashed by the system and the media. My mother was an outrageous drunk, but I'd rather her as a mother than you. I can see two children with a very very bleak future brought up under your tutelage. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-69907574816655486982016-02-02T01:37:12.205+01:002016-02-02T01:37:12.205+01:00As someone who is very close to a heroin user I fe...As someone who is very close to a heroin user I feel that sometimes you glorify using!!! I have read up on so many sites and in general most of it is negative on people getting clean, like there is no hope. I find it upsetting, I have been lied too, stolen off and have a fear of never seeing a loved one again, that knowing one day I shall perhaps need to cut all ties and wait for that knock on the door!!<br /><br />I have even come to an understanding, I understand why they continue to use, but what I don't understand is why take it in the first place? I was born and raised in a council estate, heroin all around me, society can not be blamed!! I never had the perfect childhood, many problems there but I chose to stay away, I chose to have the life of working to make other people rich, although yes that bothers me but I grin and bear it like most. I heard about heroin, was warned about it, not as much as I feel should be but still enough to stay away! Everyone knows it ruins life and when you see a heroin user and know one, what possesses people to go yeah, that's the life I wish to live? <br /><br />I have watched so many documentaries on this. Sometimes if I am honest I feel scared after watching them, as a mother with two young children I fear for their future, I know all I can do is my best and let them live their lives but to me that's not good enough!<br /><br />Mohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16172683314592330667noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-32731579105266542952015-12-08T22:16:22.097+01:002015-12-08T22:16:22.097+01:00Awesome read, you are very talented Shane. I'v...Awesome read, you are very talented Shane. I've been on-off-mostly-on with H for 5 years. Hold down a stable job, but I love the occasional too. I'm on mmt, 35ml a day. Despite having access to strong brown, I rarely feel it due to the meth. I smoke it mostly as I am shit at hitting myself. Do you have any suggestions for getting high while on a script. I know 35ml isn't a huge dose, but it certainly dulls the high. Keep up the great work Shane, a true pleasure to read you.Jonathannoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-35023351598155451652015-11-09T20:50:04.635+01:002015-11-09T20:50:04.635+01:00Hey Zac...
My vocabulary choices are often based ...Hey Zac...<br /><br />My vocabulary choices are often based on sound and rhythm and what is required or serves best the feel and flow of the sentence. I sometimes use very familiar americanisms to avoid repetition of vocabulary where there are no other (or poor) alternative synonyms on offer. restroom was used for that reason as if I recall I had already used the wword toilet a couple of times in that passage and another repetition I felt would kinda kill the prose in an amateurish way. 'Booths' I used in the opening paragraph as the sentence at that point required a single not double syllable and the poetry of the opening paragraph far exceeded any other considerations. We also use the word booth in the UK and so it's an absolute valid choice even on that basis. Thinman talking of dollars... just common street talk. People in the UK often talk in terms of dollars and bucks, just as much as they may say quid or cash. Certainly in London that's the case, anyhow. But the real reason I used it in this piece is that it was written for an Australian magazine and of course the Aussies have dollars over there and so it was the best choice all round. In more general terms concerning modern writing I think we are so used to reading/hearing both American and English English that the very common Americanisms are absolutely valid to use in one's prose and allow for a richer choice of words. Writing online makes it even more valid as the writer's audience is multi-national which contrasts greatly against a small book released solely in one's own country amongst one's own countrymen. As a writer the last thing you want is confusion over your words and their meanings and so you always have to be a little careful with such things and not overdo it. <br /><br />Music... yes I love music but am very fussy and it's not easy to find new stuff. When I like a band I obsess about them and it becomes a life long love. The Tindersticks... The Smiths... Morphine... The Pogues... Leonard Cohen... Nick Cave... there's a few more, and I love all the early punk stuff and what was happening in London and New York in the late 70's and early 80's. The Heartbreakers and Television... Patti Smith and Talking Heads, etc. Was just a very special time for art and music and culture. Though I'm always on the look out for new and interesting bands and music to listen to. I like searching out new stuff and new art and new writing and music, etc. It's very rare I find anything decent but I look on regardless... an artist's time can be anytime and they usually appear just when you're on the verge of giving up the ghost. XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-57139056832335727932015-11-09T19:44:46.143+01:002015-11-09T19:44:46.143+01:00Hello Shane just want to say I do appreciate your ...Hello Shane just want to say I do appreciate your work and loved receiving the book, just nice to own the physical copy like still buying the occasional CD and nice to know your supporting the artists. <br />What's with Thinman talking dollars? And telephone booth and restroom doors?<br />Seems odd for an Englishman to say these words? Maybe.<br />Also I think if you ever make any movies or videos, the sounds of King Krule would be quite fitting. <br />Do you like music much? <br />Look forward to the next piece,<br />Cheers Zacnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-85567989299355834262015-11-07T17:25:20.539+01:002015-11-07T17:25:20.539+01:00Great story, but also sad. One thing that struck m...Great story, but also sad. One thing that struck me while reading is the fact that us addicts are some of the biggest liars on earth. However, survival lies as I liked to think of them as being. But, when we are honest we are brutally honest. An honesty that turns people off just as much as our lying does. And that makes me angry. It seems people claim to value the truth, until that truth is something they cannot handle. Then they would love for us to remain mute. Glad you wrote this!!! It was Profound Truth!!! I am sure non-addicts have no idea what I meant, but I am sure every addict will. This is some of the best writing I have ever read about addiction.TWISTED THOUGHTShttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05258969107009595065noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-41986144494526472982015-11-04T21:44:00.700+01:002015-11-04T21:44:00.700+01:00Hey Matthias... I'm still on methadone (been o...Hey Matthias... I'm still on methadone (been on it over ten years now) and wouldn't relish transferring to subutex. I started my opiate addiction on buprenorphine (subutex) and though never found it a speedy opiate I now have a huge immunity to it and it just doesn't seem to work on me as it should. So good luck going that route. Usually they taper you down to 5ml of meth a day and then ween you off with sleepers or tranquilizers for a week. Seems the best way to me... but I always was too logical to be a doctor! Let me know how you get on... XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-22835563946950249512015-11-04T20:46:11.665+01:002015-11-04T20:46:11.665+01:00Hey AustinTX...
I always try to portray the reali...Hey AustinTX...<br /><br />I always try to portray the reality of smack addiction... the reality of life and sadness and sometimes joy and death. So many writers fall into junkie cliché and bravado, self-pity and blame. They portray a cinematic version of heroin and addiction and leave out the humanity and life. There's a small amount of truth in that representation, but the truth of addiction is neither so romantic nor so dark and depraved. Mostly it turns like any other life on the planet... only sometimes it don't. XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-43707643107276171432015-11-04T20:36:04.787+01:002015-11-04T20:36:04.787+01:00Hey ya MHO & welcome! X
Oh, there's so mu...Hey ya MHO & welcome! X<br /><br />Oh, there's so much stuff on this site now that it'll keep you occupied for some time. So, read at your leisure and leave a few words whenever you get the urge. XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-90759571008824361272015-11-04T20:33:36.068+01:002015-11-04T20:33:36.068+01:00Annastacia... thank you, Darling. You keep reading...Annastacia... thank you, Darling. You keep reading and I'll keep writing... in fact, I'll keep writing anyway - I can't stop now. X<br />Shane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-50520373765549062872015-11-04T20:31:28.185+01:002015-11-04T20:31:28.185+01:00Gray Mantis...
excuse the delay in repying...
Ph...Gray Mantis...<br /><br />excuse the delay in repying...<br /><br />Photo: there's already one up on the sidebar of this site. If you want to see the full wreck of my dispute with life then pop over to my facebook page where you can find many more.<br /><br />I use Blogger. It's free and one can get started immediately. XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-39804372364805498732015-11-04T10:54:11.538+01:002015-11-04T10:54:11.538+01:00Just found this blog & really hope you keep po...Just found this blog & really hope you keep posting more. I live in the Western States. I've been off Black since Dec of last year. I got off Methadone a week n a half ago & have been on Subutex since. I fuckn hate it. It's a hard transfer going from M to Subs. It's the "speediest" opiate I've ever tried & I hate going fast & being amped, I like to slow down bc I've always had anxiety. I've been thinking about going back on Black. Fuck. I love & hate it. My city is flooded w Mexican Black, I could get it in a sec. I'm still fighting. Just wish I could feel normal on these Subs. Nice n slow. Please post more. These posts help me stay try n stay sober.. by reminding me what life was like, heaven & hell. Now it's just hell halfway. Keep writing. PeaceMatthiasnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-11026198611821864802015-11-03T12:43:54.149+01:002015-11-03T12:43:54.149+01:00Truly amazing, not sure how I stumbled on your blo...Truly amazing, not sure how I stumbled on your blog but I am glad I did. I also do a bit of writing (all fictional stories) and I enjoyed skimming over different works you've done over the years. I liked seeing how similar using heroin is everywhere while at the same time different (external and internal factors and such). You truly are a gifted writer and I like your resistance to stereotypical societal notions on heroin use (i.e. rock bottom, it's all grey skys, etc.) I personally got busted with .02 (not .2 but 2/100 of a gram) and was facing being a convicted felon and 2-10years of prison/probation (despite no criminal record) so I was happy to see you have avoided making the biggest mistake a heroin lover can (getting caught). Anyhow ended up in drug court which is a nightmare but haven't banged in 8 months and all it has showed me is yes I do have the ability to not use, but no I don't like it or enjoy it and will always chose smack. I identify with heroin, hell it's all I think and talk about, it's my absolute most favorite thing in the world. It's a real shame I didn't chose big tits and McDonald's, pack a smokes and a tallboy, *sigh* this is just a pointless rant but all in all I like ya man and keep it up.AustinTXnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-16050429304317817812015-11-02T20:49:06.903+01:002015-11-02T20:49:06.903+01:00Wow I'm so glad I found this site. I love read...<br />Wow I'm so glad I found this site. I love reading your writing because it always seems to describe my situation with heroin perfectly. Even though I live on the other side of the world in California, I can relate to so many things you write about. I look forward to reading all your old posts<br /><br />MHOhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15668908138630178992noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-26914309402872043512015-11-02T20:47:27.830+01:002015-11-02T20:47:27.830+01:00This comment has been removed by the author.MHOhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15668908138630178992noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-67921089142856535702015-10-21T04:46:35.566+02:002015-10-21T04:46:35.566+02:00Really enjoy your writing, I've been reading f...Really enjoy your writing, I've been reading for several months. You're very talented, glad to see a new post :)annastaciahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11139089091346972952noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-89002454979167593182015-10-20T21:12:17.029+02:002015-10-20T21:12:17.029+02:00Ya know for a while after reading these I thought ...Ya know for a while after reading these I thought the author was a female because of the poetic nature of it all. Very cool to know its a man. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07655731581326210931noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-19845905016790976692015-10-20T12:25:34.932+02:002015-10-20T12:25:34.932+02:00Wonderful as always :)
I never feel that I have an...Wonderful as always :)<br />I never feel that I have anything worthwhile to comment on posts but rest assured that I devour them as soon as they go up and thoroughly enjoy all of your work you extremely talented man! <br />Vee PurdieAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-58708834494504142362015-10-20T04:16:01.937+02:002015-10-20T04:16:01.937+02:00I already asked but not sure if it went through. I...I already asked but not sure if it went through. I have two questions. 1: can you post of photo of yourself that I can see? 2: what site do you use for all these writings? And do you know any good free ones where I can share thoughts, stories, nightmares, and dreams? Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07655731581326210931noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-18033165589887215112015-10-20T00:25:17.312+02:002015-10-20T00:25:17.312+02:00Hahahaha yes. Nodding out while typing. Then yo...Hahahaha yes. Nodding out while typing. Then you snap out of it for a min, look up and that's exactly what the screen looks like! ( aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa mmmmmmmmmmm<br />NbbhbhhgghhgggbghbhhbhhhhhhhhhhhhhhAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07655731581326210931noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-80961708360399125942015-10-19T21:05:45.954+02:002015-10-19T21:05:45.954+02:00Hey Gray mantis, thanks for reading and welcome......Hey Gray mantis, thanks for reading and welcome... X<br /><br />I'll reply here and leave your other comments on the poetry site stand alone. <br /><br />I don't believe in this bullshit of rock bottom. I always say: rock bottom isn't where this thing ends; it's where it started! <br /><br />I think the idea of rock bottom forces many parents and lovers to do very cruel and harmful things in the false belief that helping someone descend to the depths will ultimately help them (when the reality is that doing that, 9 times outta 10, will kill them). So I'm against the idea of rock bottom ad have seen with my own eyes that some will get clean when they're having their second leg amputated, some will get clean when they can no longer buy their cat litter, some will clean up when they are about to lose their house and job and lover, and some will carry on, rotting away with all kinds of diseases and viruses, limbless, glued to a skateboard and shitting out a hole in their stomach and still not ever consider stopping. So the bottom is like that saying "half a hole"... there isn't half a hole, same as there is no bottom to the bottom. <br /><br />I always supported my addiction by working and nicking whatever I could from the firm I was employed to be exploited in. The entirety of my daily addiction i funded in that way. Right now I don't have a daily habit. I'm on methadone and stick mostly to that but use when I want to and can afford to which is once or twice a week... sometimes more, but never everyday. I've been using like that for the past six years now... I could never write as I do with a daily habit. Heroin is not good for writing. Not the drug, but the nodding effect. On heroin I just write pages of "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaffffffffffffffffffffsssssssssssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhh....etc to infinity) where i nod out on my keyboard. So I don't ahve a daily habit right now and fund I use through selling little works of art and little pieces of writing. As my writing becomes more and more known I get more and more offers where I can earn a little with it. Nothing fantastic but it helps keep me numb enough to want to carry on. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-52302714656087663002015-10-19T18:31:13.348+02:002015-10-19T18:31:13.348+02:00Haha ^ that's exactly why I don't write. ...Haha ^ that's exactly why I don't write. All disconnected sentences. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07655731581326210931noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-58402460154970888612015-10-19T18:19:50.105+02:002015-10-19T18:19:50.105+02:00Also, just out of curiosity. It's really not m...Also, just out of curiosity. It's really not my business but if wanna let me know how you support your habit everyday Id like to know. I began with scams of all sorts. I've gotten so good at stealing that I steal all the necessities of life and all the cash goes to dope. I don't enjoy jail or running so luckily I found a few guys that have been in love with me for years. It's a more comfortable and quiet life now. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07655731581326210931noreply@blogger.com