tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post2706989208425296174..comments2024-01-29T03:08:22.174+01:00Comments on - Memoires of a Heroinhead -: Dear Aunt Agony... How Long Can My Heroin Addicted Relative Live For?Memoirs of a Heroinheadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comBlogger36125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-18593507169409097302018-08-01T07:53:59.051+02:002018-08-01T07:53:59.051+02:00Sometimes it's less of a "my life has fal...Sometimes it's less of a "my life has fallen apart to shit" "rock bottom" situation, and more of one where you have something else you want much more, and continuing to do dope interferes with it. A lot of people seem to age/grow out of it. That isn't to say it's that simple and aren't bumps in the road, but those factors seem to crop up again & again. With methadone or Suboxone (which blocks it) then at least there's not wretched withdrawal involved with quitting heroin. Yeah, there are its own issues involved, but at least it helps. The heroin - you'll have to stay out of contact with users, not make/have friends at the clinic, or needle exchange (or stop going there if you do.) Throw out your paraphernalia. Delete your dealer's number. All these little things that make it so it's a hassle to do, not easy to get. Consider moving if that's possible. To somewhere you don't know where to get it, then don't establish relationships/contact with people who do. Where you don't have all these memories entwined with drug use around town. Then fill your time with something else. Work, hobbies, volunteering, non using friends. Create more in your life that drug use would interfere with. Your partner seems supportive. Do you trust him? Maybe have him save money for you that you'd otherwise use on drugs, then spend it on other things you want, other things you want to do & places you want to go, to make new experiences and memories that heroin is not involved with. It's a little bit different for everybody, but hopefully some of that helps you. Addiction and continuing to use when you don't want it & it makes you unhappy, it's a miserable place to be. eyelickhttp://eyelick25.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-32342298889501102462018-05-21T12:31:57.886+02:002018-05-21T12:31:57.886+02:00Mr Anonymous... Yep, you're absolutely correct...Mr Anonymous... Yep, you're absolutely correct my friend and I'll remove the post. It was written over 15 years ago and has no bearing on anything that is going on today. Though, I must add, it was concerning a very specific situation: i.e an IV'ng drug addict, with Hep c & HIV, who is still maintaining a daily habit. The majority of people in that situation are not sticking to their treatment plan (many taking no treatment at all)in addition to not living not the most hygienic of lifestyles and introducing harmful bacteria into their systems on a daily basis. For those people, if not changing their lifestyle, the future is very bleak. Just look at the stats compared to HIV+ people who are otherwise living a clean and healthy lifestyle. The injecting drug community is still in the midst of a huge epidemic and it's on account of the lifestyle which undermines much improved treatments. So that was specifically what I had replied to 15 years ago. But anyway, read today (2018) and I agree with most of what you wrote. Please let me know when you've caught this reply so I can remove the post.<br /><br />Hope you're well and thanks for your comment and opinion. All My Best, Shane. XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-37145035005916968922018-05-21T08:11:44.164+02:002018-05-21T08:11:44.164+02:00You are a talented writer but your health predicti...You are a talented writer but your health predictions are kind of naive and idiotic and really serve to keep some inaccurate suppositions about hiv and other health conditions going. I am not sure how someone so seemingly self aware has the hubris to make predictions like this, and while i understand the reality of expectations for active users, just saying a clean hiv positive person will only live a decade is inane. Do yourself a favour and educate yourself on life expectancy reports in scientific journals for people with hiv, it is commonly known that with modern medicine, hiv positive people live on average, maybe 5 years less than the average population. Something like 76 years vs 81 or thereabouts. <br /><br />I dont think you understand how your commentary and this type of uneducated thinking promotes the kind of passive discrimination against people with certain illnesses. It is forgiveable because there is a lack of awareness, but the fact is you can have a hiv positive partner who you have regular unprotected sex with, and provided they take their meds and both take pRep, you have a high chance of never contracting it in your lifetime. I understand the point of your post but really, it is kind of sad someone like you would write what you did.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-10769560964967739852017-09-09T06:30:35.593+02:002017-09-09T06:30:35.593+02:00James,
I hope you are still doing well. I wan...James,<br /> I hope you are still doing well. I want your advice. My son has a drug problem & we just found out he is doing heroine. We are trying to get him into a treatment center - if he will agree. I, like your mom, have a strong faith & I pray continually for him. This is my question: basically 2 types of treatment- Christian or secular. People tell me he isn't in his right mind, so he isn't even capable of making a spiritual decision. I'm told - get him healthy again - physically & then he may be capable of listening & accepting the gospel. But, sending him to a treatment center that pushes Jesus might actually turn him off at this stage & actually do more harm than good. Any thoughts on this? Of course, I will keep praying & reminding him of God's love, grace & forgiveness. This all may be a mute point because he may refuse to go - we know he needs to hit his bottom. But, his bottom must be pretty low - he has been homeless, arrested, & most recently over dosed & had to be resuscitated. One more question. We have not enabled- financially that is. We still will communicate with him, but we rarely visit him when he isn't sober. He calls or texts us pretty often. The person we are considering using to do the intervention says we should cut off all communication/relationship with him unless or until he agrees to go to treatment. He says our availability to him - even though only emotional, is a form of enabling. What do you think? angschmidtkehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07834345341331006809noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-62931251796444330812017-08-16T07:38:28.648+02:002017-08-16T07:38:28.648+02:00Wow all these stories, i feel so bad for what ever...Wow all these stories, i feel so bad for what everyone has to live with, my mother is 38 she is heroine addict, started lets say about 3 years ago.. was previously an opioid addict since like 10 years ago, on and off, clean for years then back to it, clean for months then back to it... she has 3 kids and one supposedly on the way... yep, this is my mother.. it is hard for me to wake up wondering is today the day I'm getting that phone call.. i want to cry. it hurts.. she claims she's clean but doesnt every user say that.. she has warrants, she has hep B nd i feel like she doesn't care.. she was the best person you can meet when she is sober... and now you want to not even talk to her..it came down to it i had to get a life insurance policy just in case... i just wonder how much longer she can go before she god forbid dies, she really needs help but cant do it until she is ready and thinks she has a problem, did i mention she also was a prostitute... the other part of the family doesn't want to talk to her.. and now she is living in a bad bas neighboorhood with her Black boyfriend (I'm not racist at all! forgive me) but thats her person now... i don't know if she has aids/hiv whtver STDS STIS i just hope she doesn't... well thanks for reading my story hopefully it helped Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-65072239939979895642017-04-22T03:53:12.521+02:002017-04-22T03:53:12.521+02:00Email me: myheroinhead@gmail.com
XEmail me: myheroinhead@gmail.com<br /><br />XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-31578124526754482632017-04-22T03:50:34.997+02:002017-04-22T03:50:34.997+02:00From a daughter of addict parents, please call. From a daughter of addict parents, please call. Annonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08652736514923452408noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-56883746683605342302017-03-18T02:52:45.228+01:002017-03-18T02:52:45.228+01:00I walked away 5 years ago. I gave my daughter a be...I walked away 5 years ago. I gave my daughter a better life. We were very open about his addiction and talked about his possible deatb due to the drug use. It was the best thing i could of done. Mt daughter has a very safe, stable, and happy life. She thanks me every day for leaving her dad and fighting for what we have now. She is 13 years old. He tryed to hurt us all the time cuz he was hurting. It broke my heart to see the man i fell in love with destroy his life. Everything i tried to do to help him get sober failed. So heartbreaking <br />Last month my daughter and i buried <br />Him. He was 49. <br />I have very mixed emotions at this point. Such a shame. He was broken. And alone. But i could never fix it. Never. I lost my husband and best friend the day he started doing h. Thats a sad reality. jeanine grodeskyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01825324341116331386noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-60855791387197556512017-02-06T15:53:37.787+01:002017-02-06T15:53:37.787+01:00I just returned my 4 year old granddaughter to my ...I just returned my 4 year old granddaughter to my addict daughter and son-in-law after caring for her, while her parents were homeless. They lost their car, home, and sanity. They have been addicts for over 10 years. They had a brief period of freedom after going through methadone treatment, around the time they conceived my granddaughter. My question is, are they able to continue raising her, as addicts, or should I call authorities? I loathe calling, because they love her and I love them and want them to be able to raise their baby. But is she safe? I fear if I call, I will never see them or my grandchild again. But if something happens to her, while in their care, I will never forgive myself. <br /><br />Gramcrackerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14300449427298669253noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-66326219194384331912016-08-08T08:15:51.058+02:002016-08-08T08:15:51.058+02:00But you did let her know him and that was irrespon...But you did let her know him and that was irresponsible parenting ion your behalf for your own selfish reasons of being in love. You're actions have already had a terrible impact upon her (though people like you will try and blame the other parent). If she grows up to be an addict herself it'll be your fault for what you helped put her through. You took on a drug user and then are bitter because he used them and wouldn't stop. You became so bitter and jealous that you've even started imaging a brown powder or pills or a liquid as direct competition. Maybe yoy made it such hell for him that he had no reason but to leave? That your moaning not only pushed him out of your life but pushed your daughter's father out of her life as well. Then you put the blame on someone else and plead innocence, like you did nothing wrong yourself. You had kids with him knowing what you did. You willingly brought them into such a life. And how are you alone? You have your children! You see how little you think of them and put men first. If you feel alone then imagine how that coldness is for your children? get over it. Get over it and love your kids like you'd love a partner and maybe noone would feel alone or be suffering emotionally.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-84879273359005790182016-08-08T03:24:14.259+02:002016-08-08T03:24:14.259+02:00You girls need to walk away... I was in the exact ...You girls need to walk away... I was in the exact situation for 10 years. Now 8 years later I'm a struggling single mom of 2...I'm 42 and bitter and totally jaded. Realize it's not up to u to fix him and live your life. Don't end up alone Like me with an ex that left his children and wife for drugs. My daughter who's preteen suffers so much emotionally. I wish I'd never let her know him at all<br /> Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17508741230217943781noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-19607629213397512952016-07-22T04:27:05.679+02:002016-07-22T04:27:05.679+02:00When someone relapses it's much easier to over...When someone relapses it's much easier to overdose, they don't realize that their tolerance has gone way down and they dose themselves with the same amount they were using when they quit so yes that's very likely why the one person overdosed.Brittnie Kennedyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18030520660109643445noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-82692639343886835832016-07-22T04:24:25.896+02:002016-07-22T04:24:25.896+02:00When someone relapses it's much easier to over...When someone relapses it's much easier to overdose, they don't realize that their tolerance has gone way down and they dose themselves with the same amount they were using when they quit so yes that's very likely why the one person overdosed.Brittnie Kennedyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18030520660109643445noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-31127688748560493392016-06-26T05:53:53.376+02:002016-06-26T05:53:53.376+02:00U haven't got a clue, addiction is a disease, ...U haven't got a clue, addiction is a disease, if it was so damn eaay to stop, we would, u stupid mofo!!!!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15974289450115716973noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-91668179254048248592016-06-26T05:44:54.246+02:002016-06-26T05:44:54.246+02:00U haven't got a clue, addiction is a disease, ...U haven't got a clue, addiction is a disease, if it was so damn eaay to stop, we would, u stupid mofo!!!!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15974289450115716973noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-45737793334783457132016-04-13T18:51:25.515+02:002016-04-13T18:51:25.515+02:00I've been using heroin for 12 years I've o...I've been using heroin for 12 years I've only ever OD'd once. I started off living on the streets at 13. I started smoking crack with my mom she was out there too doing the same thing I was. we were prostituting together and eventually I started ondoing it on my own shortly thereafter. I started using heroin too. I'd be awake for about 7 to 14 days at a time out ripping" and running" trying to get money for my next " fix ". it was devastating, but I didn't care I was having fun and doing what I wanted. II didn't wanna stop using ' my ' drugs. I was in and out of jail for stupid stuff like prostitution, stealing, and other little petty crimes. Then when I was 18 I was walking down the " strip " and this guy picked me up. he gave me money so my pimp at the time didn't beat my ass for coming home with no cash. He just spent time with me and all we did was just talk for hours weand cuddled, we just clicked. I haven't left his side since. I'm 26 years old now. and we've been through a lot together he's nevmistake.n up on me. I've had two beautiful daughters with this man he's just as madly in love with me as I am with him. I stopped smoking crack shortly after I met him but I haven't been able to escape this grah grasp that heroin has on me. I want so bad just to be able to let it go. I'm currently on methadone which I'm finding out was a big mistake. but I've continued to use. I only have one of my daughters the other one I put up for open adoption. I still see her a few times a year. I used during both pregnancies and hate myself for it. I was unable to stop no matter how hard I tried. I've been to 40+ rehabs and inpatient treatment centers but the longest I've had clean was 48 hours. unless I was in jail but that don't count.) I want out of this life so fucking bad, and people say that you won't stop until you're ready, well I feel I'm ready so why can't I stop? I mean at this point I would have thought I would have hit " rock bottom " and wouldn't want to use anymore. Well, that hasn't been the case, I've almost died, I've been raped, robbed, I've stolen from the people I loved, I've lied, I've cheated, I've lost all self-respect. I'm starting to lose hope that I'll never get out of this. I don't know what to do and this looks like a good place to just vent if anybody has any advice or tips I'd appreciate it. I want a "taste" of sobriety I'm always hearing about. I want happiness, and to love myself. I want to be better for my family. I want to live a long life with them, and meet my grandkids if I get that lucky.I feel I deserve to at least give it a shot. What am I doing wrong? Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-71983839496608864092016-04-09T00:11:48.798+02:002016-04-09T00:11:48.798+02:00Anon (Dad dead from stroke)...
If someone is brin...Anon (Dad dead from stroke)...<br /><br />If someone is bringing misery and torment into your life then take control of that and clear them out of your life. The power is in your hands, no-one else's. If you do not clear that person out then it's you bringing misery into your own life (and the life of your children). Stop whining on about how rotten people are when it's you who beckoned them into your life and you who allows them to maintain a presence. If I allow a pedophile around my children, and if that pedophile then abuses them, then I would be most at fault for putting my kids in danger, allowing someone like that to be around them. And it's the same for you. If you allow your ex-boyfriend, a known addict and someone who upsets 'everyone's lives', to be around you and your children, then I'm afraid you are abusing your kids and yourself more than anyone else. Maybe think about what the hell you say before saying it... maybe observe your own behaviours and be just as critical of them as you seem to be of others. XShane Levenehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03863320007737754609noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-41539154580264613122016-04-08T20:24:29.003+02:002016-04-08T20:24:29.003+02:00I agree with you . My dad was a hard worker who co...I agree with you . My dad was a hard worker who couldn't afford health insurance and he died from a stroke. Yet my ex is a heroin addict for 10 years we have 2 children that knows he chooses drugs over them and he has medicaid and will live forever... it fits seem that they live forever bringing torment and misery to everyone's lives every dayAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-37703835447906385122016-03-30T20:47:44.375+02:002016-03-30T20:47:44.375+02:00I found this googling "are there old still-us...I found this googling "are there old still-using heroine addicts?" You say here that the likelihood of death from OD is small. Perhaps myself and the people I know have just been unlucky, then. I had met only two heroine users in my life (that I knew of) when my recent x got into it for the first time and was dead from overdose ten days later. That was 18 years ago. Last year a young recovering drug addict (but never heroine user) nanny for my kids lost a friend in his 20s to a Heroine OD. Last week one of my dearest friends lost _her_ recent ex boyfriend to a heroine overdose. None of the three of us who lost people we love were users of it ourselves, or much involved in that scene. What's the deal? Could it be that all 3 used alcohol or other downers at the same time? In the first case, he was a novice-so maybe he just didn't know how much to take? In the second case he was a consistent user. In the case last week he'd been clean several months, so maybe his resistance was down? I read somewhere else that "hard-core addicts" tend to live for 15-25 after they start using regularly. That seems to make sense. Or maybe we were just unlucky and bet our hearts on the wrong fates. :(Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-1533598342381871932016-02-23T11:27:00.786+01:002016-02-23T11:27:00.786+01:00Brought back what? He scored during his near-death...Brought back what? He scored during his near-death experience? That's to be admired, not shouted down. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-77645341261283170162016-02-23T11:14:39.622+01:002016-02-23T11:14:39.622+01:00I wish my son would read this. He's od'd 2...I wish my son would read this. He's od'd 2 times & brought back.Fybropainhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08673853163136360032noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-88751604452448909922016-02-09T22:17:50.216+01:002016-02-09T22:17:50.216+01:00With over 30 yes of addiction myself, I will warn ...With over 30 yes of addiction myself, I will warn you to STAY AWAY FROM METHADONE, SUBOXONE, AND ALL OTHER BUP TREATMENTS. IF YOU DON'T YOU WILL MOST LIKELY HAVE A DRUG ADDICTED SON FOR LIFE. easier to quit heroin. Listen to me on this one point, don't be sorry.beentherdonthathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11254547033074224109noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-91811026378648945792015-11-30T09:22:42.057+01:002015-11-30T09:22:42.057+01:00please read this it is true
I was a heroine addict...please read this it is true<br />I was a heroine addict for over four years. I was addicted to oxycontin for two years before that. I always paid my bills but the rest of myoney went to dope. I would sell other drugs just so I had money going through my hands everyday to support my addiction and soon got tired of living life. I tried for years two years to quit on my own but the only way I could was to get away from St Louis. Every time I came back it seemed like it was the only thing I knew how to do so I was right back in the mix. Then I ended up living three miles away from my mom who knew what I was up to. I did not have a washer or dryer so every weekend my mom came to get my laundry from me to wash it. So every weekend I would get in my mom's car for about ten minutes and she would pray for me. Then read scriptures to me and tell me about Jesus. It was never what I wanted to hear and I would just say OK thanks for doing my laundry mom I'll see you tomorrow. And I know what you are thinking if you are not a believer because I lived for the world for 25 years before this. But I was not a wussy. I was never afraid of anything and people respected me for the most part. Then after three months of getting into my mom's car every weekend I woke up one day and I was scared to death. I didn't even want to go outside. I knew what I needed to do and I gave my life to Christ. I continued to use heroine for two more days and then entered a discipleship training program and fully surrender my life to the Lord. I did not even go through withdrawal's. I was not dope sick at all. It has been three years and a half years now and I have a completely different life because Jesus Christ transformed my life. He will not just clean you off. He will transform you into a new creation and I now know the gospel of freedom. I now know what life is. I am currently in my sophomore year at a Bible college and am about to finish my BA on an internship in France. If you have a loved one that is an addict then I suggest you should give your life to Christ and take authority over the death that has gripped your family and pray for them. Pray and never give up. My mom knew she could not trust me but she never gave up on me. And she never stopped praying for me. I wish there was an easy way for you to see that Jesus is real. But it takes faith. <br /><br />Memoires of over coming the heroine head mentality that doctors claim is impossible and would never believe me unless they witnessed it.<br /><br />JamesAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-48142832983094416942015-10-23T03:24:49.770+02:002015-10-23T03:24:49.770+02:00Any updates girl? I'm in a similar situation a...Any updates girl? I'm in a similar situation and its ripping my heart out. beccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06879561049972524292noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-3475426980895866962015-10-23T03:24:16.344+02:002015-10-23T03:24:16.344+02:00This comment has been removed by the author.beccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06879561049972524292noreply@blogger.com