tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post3881509194543376361..comments2024-01-29T03:08:22.174+01:00Comments on - Memoires of a Heroinhead -: More Unchartered Heights of DisgraceMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comBlogger23125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-89676627831883481392016-09-29T01:49:13.029+02:002016-09-29T01:49:13.029+02:00Did you know that you can make cash by locking spe...Did you know that you can make <b>cash</b> by locking <b>special areas</b> of your blog or website?<br />To begin just join <b><a href="http://sitelock.syntaxlinks.com/r/AdWorkMedia" rel="nofollow">AdWorkMedia</a></b> and <b>use their Content Locking widget</b>.Bloggerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07287821785570247118noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-43899892188601953782011-02-24T01:39:45.623+01:002011-02-24T01:39:45.623+01:00Hiya Beatifnik and WELCOME: X!
What you say is ve...Hiya Beatifnik and WELCOME: X!<br /><br />What you say is very wonderful and flattering, and so: Thank You!<br /><br />I think the world is beautiful, and even the ugliness that's in it has a charm. These are memories and the days of our lives... we have to love them... to see the beauty of the pile-up. I think it's more I'm just happy with who I am today. I've no regrets nor bitterness and actually quite enjoy being ME. In that sense the past is something to appreciate and celebrate... no matter how good or bad it was. <br /><br />I'll keep writing but you'll then have to keep reading as if this stuff was for me I'd just keep it all in my head and wouldn't bother with the bore of getting it all down.<br /><br />Take Care... All My Thoughts, Shane. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-74145256606459946182011-02-24T00:40:16.030+01:002011-02-24T00:40:16.030+01:00I've spent the last two nights reading your bl...I've spent the last two nights reading your blog after following a link from Gledwood's and I am in love with this prose. You have a real talent for words, for making squalour beautiful. Stay strong and do what you have to, but keep writing. Always.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-74739838647850939382010-07-26T11:31:37.700+02:002010-07-26T11:31:37.700+02:00After reading this post; I went home and hugged al...After reading this post; I went home and hugged all four of my sons. I am not perfect but try to set a good example and live drug and addiction-free. Don't take this the wrong way, I am not judging you in any way as I've had my substance abuse issues in the past. <br />That was truly one of the saddest stories I've ever read and I believe every word is true. I imagine my 10-year old having to deal with the challenges you dealt with and it breaks my heart. That there are people out there with so little intelligence and self-control to bring children into this world and then drag them through the hell you went through astounds me. Even more astounding is the power of the human spirit to say "this hell I'm going through today is normal so I have to figure a way out of or around it." I know from what I've read on your blog you'll just say, that is what makes me, me. <br />Hang tough and I hope you kick it some day; you deserve better than the legacy and example set by your parents.Scotthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17779286188802924562noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-25896102941491499672010-06-25T14:05:13.656+02:002010-06-25T14:05:13.656+02:00So amazing that you've written this - well don...So amazing that you've written this - well done.<br /><br />I wish this was the national curriculum to explain to people the real damage of addiction. <br /><br />thanksFurtheronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11903753972242964410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-7283151645002732842010-06-09T21:14:07.512+02:002010-06-09T21:14:07.512+02:00Thank You All,
for reading and commenting, and ex...Thank You All,<br /><br />for reading and commenting, and excuse me for not having come back and replied to each of You. <br />I (hopefully...;) will in the near future.<br /><br />All My Thoughts,<br />Shane.xMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-29789628582660365102010-06-07T00:35:53.103+02:002010-06-07T00:35:53.103+02:00Shane, your words come across like a man falling f...Shane, your words come across like a man falling from the top of a skyscraper who describes his experience in real time as he falls - even your anticipation of hitting the ground lurks between the lines. Hope you bounce, mate, splats hurt. Your words will live forever even if you don't. Immortality rules. You are your own death threat, I will keep my death threats for those that need them. Be seeing youThe Total Impostorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00683193981145988402noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-22372233050496071762010-06-01T23:36:09.597+02:002010-06-01T23:36:09.597+02:00I honestly don't know what to say....I just ca...I honestly don't know what to say....I just can't believe what was allowed to happen....and we're not talking that long ago. Part of me wants to print this off and give it to my son to read. <br />Thanks for sharing....I'm speechless at the moment. xxChic Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01803588856685163353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-52219658180077604342010-06-01T23:12:43.790+02:002010-06-01T23:12:43.790+02:00dear shane,
when i read your posts sometimes it se...dear shane,<br />when i read your posts sometimes it seems that you have had more wild shit happen to you than i have.<br />how lucky!<br />all the beast,<br />--dustydeeDusty Rosehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17536012195308741453noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-42353605529497394772010-06-01T21:30:11.257+02:002010-06-01T21:30:11.257+02:00Came by this way through Gledwood's blog. I st...Came by this way through Gledwood's blog. I started reading yesterday and couldn't put it down...<br /><br />You have a way with words.Reeny's Ramblin'https://www.blogger.com/profile/12050247389542400578noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-75352991465124009472010-06-01T15:56:30.250+02:002010-06-01T15:56:30.250+02:00Hi, lovey. Glad to find a new post here. Your chil...Hi, lovey. Glad to find a new post here. Your childhood was quite something. I can't imagine.<br /><br />You are loved.<br /><br />SBSarcastic Bastardhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17116577711704241625noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-81322790982462981942010-05-31T18:31:22.935+02:002010-05-31T18:31:22.935+02:00One of the most relentlessly grim ones yet. But so...One of the most relentlessly grim ones yet. But somehow the comedy of the situation is always there too. As in:<br /><br />Before the door even closed shut my mother was in her handbag unscrewing the cap from her half bottle of scotch. She took a few huge swigs then turned to me. “And remember Shane, if she asks am I still drinking you say “No!” If not they'll send you back to that bald cunt!”<br /><br />Ha! My mother used to call my father 'that baldy-heeded cunt!'<br /><br />There was the horrible perfunctoryness of 'the nod' which ended contact with the step father.<br /><br />The visit to the museum and <br /><br />Sadness the like of which can only ever be felt.<br /><br />I think it's interesting your mother went from alcohol to heroin. You've said yourself that alcohol does nothing for you. Maybe that's after doing H though since you mention drinking her Vodka. So you've found the cure for alcoholism - heroin!<br /><br />But it does seem that people choose one or the other. <br /><br />I think you said your mother eventually got totally sober. I imagine it's slightly weird seeing her like that.<br /><br />Look forward to your version of<br /> The Best Years Of Our Lives.<br /><br />Only you could write a story that would begin:<br /><br />"It was the start of the Good Times. Mum had just got hooked on Heroin and Crack'...JoeMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03821025539339799036noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-84721476333533276072010-05-31T12:43:30.604+02:002010-05-31T12:43:30.604+02:00It’s been a rainy weekend in this southern contine...It’s been a rainy weekend in this southern continent on which it never rains and I spent the entirety of it – neglecting my domestic duties – reading your blog from the beginning.<br /><br />I commend you on your honesty and admire your writing talent. <br /><br />From your profile I note that you are just less that a year older than I and that we have had very different life experiences. <br /><br />I briefly discussed with my fifteen year old son what I had read of you and your recent account of your relationship with your father (step). <br />With wide eyed and brutal honesty he said ‘You’re just like Shane’s step father’<br /><br />I was floored.Eleven nightshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12515683143980145020noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-78421298783750662962010-05-29T20:16:48.316+02:002010-05-29T20:16:48.316+02:00"The only people for me are the mad ones, the...<i>"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn,<br />burn."</i><br /><br />-Kate.TwistAndShouthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15405106415539199875noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-75610123523834169832010-05-29T18:44:51.817+02:002010-05-29T18:44:51.817+02:00holy crap. love that thing about the blood puddle ...holy crap. love that thing about the blood puddle the shape of Ireland. You are a terrific writer, and a survivor it seems.<br /><br />All the best to you,<br />SStellahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15220658393611971099noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-74055749890039440892010-05-29T13:24:58.466+02:002010-05-29T13:24:58.466+02:00Shane I had to wait for someone else to reply firs...Shane I had to wait for someone else to reply first as i thought it was just me being over emotional. Your post made me cry, especially when you returned to see your "Dad" ... Did you ever see him again? Did he miss you? Sounds like he did .. and the dog :( <br />Your poor mum too... I am angry at her for how she neglected you ... but.. also feel sorry for her. Life as a parent is tough you never realise until you are one just how tough. Its tough enough looking after yourself never mind dependants.. Great post though intense .<br />I dont know........ I also want to send a virtual hug xxWildernesschichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00204518870992194687noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-90448360444941008212010-05-29T10:04:11.043+02:002010-05-29T10:04:11.043+02:00totally absorbingtotally absorbingmathhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17809801402858612894noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-62256147550946639282010-05-29T06:52:14.815+02:002010-05-29T06:52:14.815+02:00Hi Shane thanks for the reply here's what I pu...Hi Shane thanks for the reply here's what I put at mine:<br /><br />I gave up posting about my drugs for ages and ages. I did mention them sometimes but mostly it was furry animals. I keep trying to convert over to Just Methadone but cannot make the transition.<br /><br />The info you read here was gathered mostly over the last 2 weeks, I was interested in how heroin addiction actually took hold across the world when on the surface this "war on drugs" "should" have killed it off ~ yet war seems only to make the heroin trade flourish!<br /><br />I didn't used to believe these political interpretations that blame America for "drug dealing" and while I don't know about that it does seem to be true that they've been more than willing to turn a blind eye when some "greater good" ~ a political one giving America more control over a region ~ is in play.<br /><br />Also I suspect a lack of political pressure over Afghan heroin purely because it is NOT, in the main, going to America. If it were, somehow I suspect the situation might be rather different.<br /><br />I very much resent being dependent on anything or anyone, but especially an illegal chemical that puts my happiness in the hands of outright criminals. I hate it and want it to stop, but I don't know how. With years of methadone as well as heroin in my system stopping is going to be a far from straightforward process...<br /><br />You should carry on posting. Your stuff is really good. [More than really good. It is unique.] You are just about the only one out there posting as you do.<br /><br />Remember the Community of druggiebloggers that built up after the Follow funciton came online?... Most of them appear to have given up [blogging]. I carried on posting but gave up too. For months I seemed to post about little furry animals and not a lot else... o man it is 5:48 am and I haven't slept, take care and see ya later!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-46551826436679006242010-05-29T03:46:05.236+02:002010-05-29T03:46:05.236+02:00Shane,
Your posts always make the 'mother'...Shane,<br />Your posts always make the 'mother' in me want to cry. No child should have to grow up like that. Sending you Mama 'air hugs' and prayers. Take care.<br />Later,<br />Debcoffeemaidenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10964899666737619285noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-23374721765841599452010-05-29T02:44:02.898+02:002010-05-29T02:44:02.898+02:00also, thank you, i have missed your posts.also, thank you, i have missed your posts.Stacyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02731385456944016340noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-29038639195840664922010-05-29T02:33:16.148+02:002010-05-29T02:33:16.148+02:00although i think i know you well enough to know yo...although i think i know you well enough to know you will say you don't need it...i have the overwhelming urge to hug you right now. that was a heart wrenching post.Stacyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02731385456944016340noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-77677076209340538482010-05-29T02:31:31.558+02:002010-05-29T02:31:31.558+02:00Shane you like your drugs don't you...(!) Well...Shane you like your drugs don't you...(!) Well I posted up a history of heroin on Friday I thought you might like it, but also tell me whether I made any howling errors...<br /><br />... also I have been looking for figures detailing world heroin and/or opium production and use but haven't found anything going further back than the 70s and 80s... you don't happen to know where I might find anything a bit longer-term do you? I've googled and googled without successGledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-340370862025310112010-05-29T02:11:50.605+02:002010-05-29T02:11:50.605+02:00fucking hell!
well I suppose at least your early ...fucking hell!<br /><br />well I suppose at least your early life wasn't boring!!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.com