tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post6488096994640549125..comments2024-03-28T11:19:25.795+01:00Comments on - Memoires of a Heroinhead -: On the Autumn BlowsMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-81438003557789644182014-02-26T05:26:35.340+01:002014-02-26T05:26:35.340+01:00Loved the part about how she tried to grab the spo...Loved the part about how she tried to grab the spoon, and you end up licking the soot off her fingers to keep her from asking questions. Excellent. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02267000309768565418noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-4210142138474046412013-11-16T17:10:55.744+01:002013-11-16T17:10:55.744+01:00Hi Shane. I have found the extracts. It is actuall...Hi Shane. I have found the extracts. It is actually on blogspot. dennisneilsen.blogspot.co.uk<br />It took awhile but I found a facebook page that someone has opened about him and there was a link. Hope you are well Jo x Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-57107801185746276882013-11-15T16:29:21.542+01:002013-11-15T16:29:21.542+01:00Hey Joe... just a quickie for now as my main comme...Hey Joe... just a quickie for now as my main comment will be quite lengthy. Concerning Nilsen's release it's quite irrelevant now as in 2008 (with Nilsen having served his 25 year initial sentence and theoretically eligible for parole) two officers from Scotland Yard visited my mother in order to calm down any fears she may have had of Nilsen being released and told her that he is one of the few UK prisoners to whom "life means life" and he will never be released and will die in prison. So regardless of my view or anyone elses Nilsen will never be released anyhow. X Memoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-42677255083180388442013-11-15T13:00:12.658+01:002013-11-15T13:00:12.658+01:00Yes Kelly, the nature/nurture thing is so far unso...Yes Kelly, the nature/nurture thing is so far unsolvable. <br /><br />As to him being freed I just wonder as I say that nobody seems to have asked him if he still has those murderous urges. He has access to marijuana in jail but I'm presuming he hasn't had alcohol. Since that was always the trigger for murder who knows what will happen if he gets drunk again.<br /> JoeMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03821025539339799036noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-35530790557503201632013-11-14T23:55:16.876+01:002013-11-14T23:55:16.876+01:00The boy with a thorn in his side, behind the hatre...The boy with a thorn in his side, behind the hatred there lies... a murderous desire... for loveAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-66217096559370437252013-11-14T22:13:57.585+01:002013-11-14T22:13:57.585+01:00Re: JoeM
'I saw my grandfather in his coffin&#...Re: JoeM<br />'I saw my grandfather in his coffin'! Big fucking deal!<br /><br />My Catholic friends have all seen dead bodies in the lounge at a wake, it's a custom. But they're not all serial killers or fascinated with death. <br /><br />But that's also why I wouldn't feel comfortable being so harsh on him. This is where nature (neurology) takes over nurture (psychology). Of most things I've read about serial killers (and dictator narcissistic types) is that the part of their brain that deals with empathy and that curtails extreme (inconceivable acts) is inactive. So I find it hard to condemn someone like that for that reason because I feel they are already condemned by virtue of their nature or their lack of something. Whilst I don't always agree with laws and convention (the law is usually an ass, lol), I do appreciate we have to function sociably. But with the same token, even if it is not something they can control, for the safety of others, we have to keep them away from society. <br /><br />Of course we don't know everything and it is an area that continues to confound us morally and legally. If someone is aware of their actions being wrong but still has the compulsion to do something (because of their neurological make up), can you really not have any compassion for them. <br /><br />I'm with you on him not being freed because of that very fact. <br /><br />We all are capable of terrible things (particularly if it's sanctified as the norm by our society) or if we're in extreme situations. And most people have certainly thought of doing terrible things at some point but to actually do it is a different matter. And of course, human nature often doesn't fit into what we define as acceptable.<br /><br />I don't have any answers because I'm very much a grey person (rather than black and white). I just know that he shouldn't be freed right now for the sake of future victims but I hold no ill will against him. I've not read the transcripts you speak of, who knows, maybe I'd feel the same as you. <br /><br />xCalamityK<br />Kelly Al Salehhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00824658485841463755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-56462115686640469602013-11-14T17:09:53.518+01:002013-11-14T17:09:53.518+01:00overwhelmingly beautiful and nostalgic… perfect f...overwhelmingly beautiful and nostalgic… perfect for a left strewn autumnal morning…. love it, shane as always and cheered my morning no end to have something new from you to check out. love and best wishes to you…. t<br /><br />ps sent you an emailTonyoneillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05633886026151461992noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-73667953901316390062013-11-14T15:19:26.508+01:002013-11-14T15:19:26.508+01:00Where did you find the extracts? I've been loo...Where did you find the extracts? I've been looking online and cannot find anything. Thanks JoAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-3340248789307114042013-11-14T13:54:18.132+01:002013-11-14T13:54:18.132+01:00Just read the Dennis Nilsen biography. Having mild...Just read the Dennis Nilsen biography. Having mildly disliked him before I now REALLY dislike him.<br /><br />What a narcissistic pseudo-intellectual bore. I don't know why you want to read his book- the extracts just prove what a twat he is. <br /><br />Like Brady et al they're just bad people justifying their selfishness with half-baked psycho babble.<br /><br />'I saw my grandfather in his coffin'! Big fucking deal!<br /><br />You boiled people's heads in a pot! A pot,Shane, your mother saw and walked out of the court room because.<br /><br />I can't understand why you think he should be freed. There is no remorse. No real self-awareness.<br /><br />The one question nobody seems to ask him is:<br /><br />Do you think you could do it again?JoeMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03821025539339799036noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-60743286964133917362013-11-13T06:10:33.999+01:002013-11-13T06:10:33.999+01:00Hey Shane! I liked the way you noticed how cafes r...Hey Shane! I liked the way you noticed how cafes remove all traces of you once you've left the table. This act sometimes catches me as odd too. I somehow fell that they should start the cleanup only after I am out of sight or maybe 2 min after that. And I thought I was the only one. Absolut Ruinesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02786955215978419429noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-24832395034496538412013-11-11T09:31:46.898+01:002013-11-11T09:31:46.898+01:00Great to see a new post Shane.. and what a post. I...Great to see a new post Shane.. and what a post. Im loving the melancholic vibe and the descriptive text. <br />I love autumn and the tinge of sadness that it brings. This year I was determined to hate it, but as it colours up, I find I cannot. <br />Love Ruth xxWildernesschichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00204518870992194687noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-15118135710765003262013-11-10T22:15:00.774+01:002013-11-10T22:15:00.774+01:00I think I see what you mean about the Autumnal air...I think I see what you mean about the Autumnal air! Just nipped out to Tesco and on my way took a big lungful (ouch!). It was a lovely dark sweet and deep smell. I could smell burning damp tree bark. Then a fire engine raced passed! Honest! Just as I thought of burning wood it appeared out of nowhere. I always thought England had a smell. A damp, sweet smell like old antiquarian books or books rescued from a flood and left somewhere cold after it dried. Kuwait (where I grew up) mostly smelled dry and hot, a kind of flat smell. But with that heat if any organic matter (meat, dead animals, broken down fridge with meat inside) was left out you got a different smell altogether! Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-18355926387039362472013-11-10T21:41:11.911+01:002013-11-10T21:41:11.911+01:00Well, as long as you're taking it on your own ...Well, as long as you're taking it on your own terms. It's horrible the humiliation they put you through on supervised consumption. Some places have a back room but others you have to loiter and are sure everyone knows what you're there for. Then when the chemist comes out with your dose you notice mothers pull their kids closer to them to hide their faces. And of course some chemists I swear are sadists. They like to make you wait like you're in detention (the wait increases according to how sick you are). Horrible, degrading exercise designed to send some people further into drugs to save their dignity.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-7072648901805507592013-11-10T21:39:13.266+01:002013-11-10T21:39:13.266+01:00Costello has been Palimpsested by Jab'm!
John...Costello has been Palimpsested by Jab'm!<br /><br /><i>John Aaron Baptist McManus</i><br /><br />I bet when he was wee they all called him Little John Aaron.<br /><br /><i>Such a lovely littleboy, he's going to make some girl very happy one day...</i>JoeMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03821025539339799036noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-20097683532125594742013-11-10T21:25:33.413+01:002013-11-10T21:25:33.413+01:00Hey Calamity... it depends what dose I'm takin...Hey Calamity... it depends what dose I'm taking as over here methadone comes in 5, 10, 20, 40 and 60mg bottles. Millilitre of liquid is the same and so the higher doses get progressively stronger and more unpleasant to knock back. So I often sugar my coffee with methadone and it doesn't seem to affect the dose in any way. Where I speak of image (above to Joe) well, as anyone who reads my writing knows, I'm not immune to that side of addiction myself and so often purposely unscrew bottles of methadone in public places and knock them back or pour them in my drink. Of course no-one knows what the hell is in the bottle i've just consumed but I suppose it gives of a general pathetic idea of how I want to be viewed in the world. But I'm not embarrassed about that and think writing of such superficial behaviours, the stuff no-one else will ever admit to, is what makes the writing here much different. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-75874746296937128022013-11-10T21:09:29.639+01:002013-11-10T21:09:29.639+01:00Hey Joe... I'll have a look at the settings. I...Hey Joe... I'll have a look at the settings. I removed my ex-girlfriend's address from the post list and maybe I accidently deleted yours (you were the only two who received posts direct from me). <br /><br />I've come to hate all the fake depression comments and writing by the majority of addicts, reading as they blabber on about how badly they want to die... when if it was the case they could've ended it all very quickly and painlessly any of the days in the last ten years that they've been beating that old monotonous drum. But it is possible that if looked at logically life is pretty useless and hopeless with only worse of the same in the future but STILL there is this beauty of living, even the worst lives, which makes us want to continue. For me it's why people use heroin.... and they admit t themselves only they don't really look at what they're saying. If you use heroin (as 99% of addicts claim) to numb the pain then it means that they want to NOT die but numb the pain or trauma enough to make life bearable. But of course, in this milieu wanting to live isn't 'cool' and so while screaming their heads off about other junkie myths they perpetrate the worst of them themselves. But some myths add to the cool stakes and others don't and it finally often does, like so many other things, come down to image. Well I think the world is pretty hopeless and I don't see anything changing soon, but I still want to live and always (mostly) have.<br /><br />I'm the same with Elvis Costello!!! Infact Elvis Costello no longer exists anymore John Aaron Baptist McManus (Jab'M) has hijacked his existence! XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-68909344304335643362013-11-10T20:21:59.236+01:002013-11-10T20:21:59.236+01:00This didn't come up on email as it used to. Th...This didn't come up on email as it used to. Though recent comments did. Hmmm.<br /><br /><i>when the colour of your greatest bruises are back in season, when the scars from old love re-open and weep</i><br /><br />I like the melancholic though ultimately optimistic atmosphere. <br /><br /><i>So once again the greatest season of all is breaking out across Europe.</i> <br /><br />I think we both agreed that Autumn/Winter is the best. <br />Everything looks/smells/feels/tastes and sounds more vibrant. I barely survived that recent heatwave.<br /><br />There was an Elvis Costello documentary on last night and they used that picture of him you photo-shopped into John. It is quite surreal how I now think of Costello as that mad freak...JoeMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03821025539339799036noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-62457270382899468412013-11-10T19:21:08.641+01:002013-11-10T19:21:08.641+01:00methadone in coffee! I used to put booze in all my...methadone in coffee! I used to put booze in all my cooking until I found out the alcohol evaporates so you're just left with the taste but not the effect! It makes an Irish coffee not seem so... well... Irish. What a waste! But clearly it's not interfered with the effects and maybe the caffeine speeds it up. <br />Re: watching the bartender<br />I love it when you observe someone and they act in a way that you can almost guess what they're thinking. My Dad took it to the extreme though, he'd gesticulate and shout at people that weren't even there so I learnt how to walk several paces ahead of him from a young age.<br />x Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com