tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post6652804409777912798..comments2024-03-28T11:19:25.795+01:00Comments on - Memoires of a Heroinhead -: Hope for the HopelessMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comBlogger63125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-62304382377664089282011-01-16T16:57:45.755+01:002011-01-16T16:57:45.755+01:00Hiya Shane,
Great writting. Sure this year is yo...Hiya Shane, <br /><br />Great writting. Sure this year is yours! <br />Hope it's mine as well... for now it's beginning fine.<br />Speak to you tomorrow.<br /><br />Mary xxxMomIChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06783748026536284499noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-9961860052103822402011-01-10T18:12:51.972+01:002011-01-10T18:12:51.972+01:00LizzyDripping,
Oh... and I thought we were gonna ...LizzyDripping,<br /><br />Oh... and I thought we were gonna put on a show!!! <br /><br />I'm not easily seduced... it takes at least £10... triple in times of drought. <br /><br />But if you don't want to dance, I suppose I've no choice but to waltz alone...<br /><br />XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-43839314004487559052011-01-10T18:06:21.609+01:002011-01-10T18:06:21.609+01:00Hiya Helia...
How and maybe why did she/he do tha...Hiya Helia...<br /><br />How and maybe why did she/he do that? <br /><br />My friends always kill themselves... I'm seriously thinking of not making any more. <br /><br />Send me a mail if you don't wwant to talk about it here:<br /><br />myheroinhead@gmail.com<br /><br />Love and Thoughts, Shane. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-12992617712149193722011-01-10T18:00:12.581+01:002011-01-10T18:00:12.581+01:00my seduction is futile
:)
L Xmy seduction is futile <br />:)<br />L Xlizzydrippingnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-59989436611839361382011-01-10T13:28:50.745+01:002011-01-10T13:28:50.745+01:00Hi Shane
Love you dude.
My friend killed herself...Hi Shane<br /><br />Love you dude.<br /><br />My friend killed herself Saturday night.<br /><br />love <br /><br />heliaUnknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09579884801728017812noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-33076290957939422132011-01-09T23:59:52.777+01:002011-01-09T23:59:52.777+01:00Hiya Ruby,
Yeah, you're on the Russian perrie...Hiya Ruby,<br /><br />Yeah, you're on the Russian perrier again I really dunno what got into me being all positive...2011 is gonna be the lousiest of the lot.<br /><br />Love as Ever, Shane. XXXMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-20615515777785292282011-01-09T23:54:35.005+01:002011-01-09T23:54:35.005+01:00Lizzydripping... that's a bit naughty, god!!! ...Lizzydripping... that's a bit naughty, god!!! You made me blush....<br /><br />Not really...<br /><br />We can fuck right here in the comment section if you're up for it? <br /><br />You first... you've gotta seduce me...<br /><br />XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-68736718590233849882011-01-09T23:40:02.073+01:002011-01-09T23:40:02.073+01:00Happy New Year Shane.. This is going to be a very ...Happy New Year Shane.. This is going to be a very good year.. I can feel it in my water..or is that the Vodka..?? <br />Either way we are still here and that has to be a good start <br />Lots of love Ruth xxRuby Tuesdayhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15363324397629901056noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-9567878559637388102011-01-09T22:53:02.222+01:002011-01-09T22:53:02.222+01:00hurrah! i've been watching and waiting and now...hurrah! i've been watching and waiting and now your back,great post shane, <br />for what its worth i would happily make love to you instead of you making love to yourself<br />L x <br />shit never been such a slag before!lizzydrippingnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-43206352757126056862011-01-09T12:53:45.513+01:002011-01-09T12:53:45.513+01:00Gledwood,
This evening I'll email you photos ...Gledwood,<br /><br />This evening I'll email you photos of french stuff. It looks almost the same as UK stuff but is much more porous, often darker (but not always) and crumbles easily.<br /><br />No it doesn't burn at all.. never. I think it needs no citric because there's so little fucking heroin in it!!! <br /><br />I'll send you pictures of everything:<br /><br />The gear<br />Cup<br />Boiled water<br />Dropping gear in<br />Stirring it to a paste<br />(you can boil it to liquid but it then constantly blocks the barrel)<br />What it looks like in the works<br />Whats left in the cup<br /><br />You asked for it!!! lolMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-79550065693221926282011-01-09T08:53:37.003+01:002011-01-09T08:53:37.003+01:00Hiya Kympton!!! It's been a while. I hope you&...Hiya Kympton!!! It's been a while. I hope you're well and that you're getting on OK with the fake leg. Hows the other one? Didn't you then have a problem with that? Or am I remembering things which never happened?<br /><br />But even with only one leg, a furious habit... and whatever other handicap someone has, there's still the small chance that the world may pay-out in some way. What I know is that it will never pay out to the hopeless... it can't. So keep your head up and concentrate on whats coming and not what's gone.<br /><br />All My Thoughts, Shane.Memoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-39742810345383708362011-01-09T08:48:27.960+01:002011-01-09T08:48:27.960+01:00Gled cont'd...
Towards addicts using third ra...Gled cont'd...<br /><br />Towards addicts using third rate gear... I don't blame them. I'd do the same. I know I would (I am). It's hard not to, and even if we can have moments of logic, hope isn't logical and when the promise of 9/10 or even average pre-drought gear comes along, there's not many who'll resist.The drought is just a bizarre thing and I HOPE someone is recording it in someway so ad we have a record of it and what happened for junkies living through it at the time. In the last 30 years, maybe even longer, Britain has known nothing like that. It also shows just how fucking easy supply can be interrupted and it's not as hopeless a s everyone says. My God, last time they did it by accident.<br /><br />Anyway, you take good care and mail me whenever you like...<br /><br />All My Thoughts, Shane.Memoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-3694399977788773352011-01-09T08:40:13.300+01:002011-01-09T08:40:13.300+01:00Gledwood, you can mail me WHENEVER you like... you...Gledwood, you can mail me WHENEVER you like... you don't have to ask, mate. And if you're not so well, or having a crisis or just want to talk, especially not... just send your words.<br /><br />I don't loathe B. I've made every footstep myself that led me there. There are historical things, of course, but history has no-one to blame... it always somehow ends back up on Hitler's shoulders anyway, and even he then blames his grandad. So I don't hate heroin; I accept it as the best way to live a balanced life if the heels come off your shoe.<br /><br />That's great your meeting with the shrink finally went Ok. I know you was worried about that, and like me have a distrust and disrespect for them in the main. I've never had to go to a shrink - except when beginning Methadone maintenance. Then I had no choice, at least, not for the premier appointment. Which is something I hate... systematically concluding that if someone whacks up junk that they are mentally ill. Where actually more sane, because who the fuck would live in this world with all the injustice, lack of opportunity and hope, and smile their way through it straight and oblivious to all? So for me heroin is often a healthy reaction to the world. The heroin epidemic in Britain is a small sub-system, a hotch-pot of all the social problems that exist in our time.<br /><br />I always say it is not the addict that needs rehabilitating but the world. The world needs rehab. We need to forget about 'addiction' and concentrate on the causes behind it. Fix the world and the junkies will fix themselves. It's not 'addiction' which is a long term problem but the reasons behind that addiction.....Memoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-37250658631021756512011-01-09T08:22:11.634+01:002011-01-09T08:22:11.634+01:00Why doesn't French gear need citric?
What col...Why doesn't French gear need citric? <br />What colour is it? Brown?<br />Is it just pre-acidified?<br />Can you smoke it or does it just frazzle on the foil? That would imply it's gear hydrochloride not gear base.<br />If you skinpop or miss or put it in a shit vein does it burn? That would imply they've cut it with vit C already.<br />You know the score. If you skinpop acidified brown you get that mega mosquito bite look at the site. Does this stuff do that?<br /><br />My Irish mate Padster says Italian gear is premixed with vit C. But it doesn't sound as dire as the stuff you're talking about.<br /><br />What on earth do you think they've done to the French gear?<br /><br />It's not Mexican Tar is it?<br />Mexican gear sometimes comes as powder, but I heard if you kept it in your pocket all day, unlike european B it will congeal into a tar. I'm sure you know about tar, it's crap because the idiots who make it scrimped on the production process and missed steps out. I even heard they use spirit vinegar instead of acetic anhydride. How pathetic is that. In compensation for the low diamorphine level it's said to have huge levels of 6-monoacetylmorphine. Problem with that is 6MAM doesn't give the lovely heroin rush when injected. The rush is said to occur when diamorph metabolizes into 6MAM... yeah I'm such an expert (NOT!) If you gave me a pingpongball molecule and said, right show me the right and left isomer, show me how it metabolizes I'd be lost. <br /><br />I could probably make you a pretty cool looking pingpongball sculpture, though.<br /><br />I used to hang out with one guy from Southern France and another from Nothern Spain. The French guy said he used to travel frequently to Spain to bring 100g back at a time, as it was way cheaper and better than the local crap. I heard in Northern France they travel to Amsterdam/Rotterdam on the same principle....<br /><br />Please RSVP re this gear. I'm intrigued as to what it actually is. Brown heroin base? White heroin #4? Tar? What...? And have you any idea of the country of origin? You said N Africa, but can you be any more specific? I'm a junkie. I'm fascinated!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-92217523078069562002011-01-09T08:09:39.446+01:002011-01-09T08:09:39.446+01:00***part 2***
Oh I don't fucking know. I'm...***part 2***<br /><br />Oh I don't fucking know. I'm just so glad I saw a shrink. I thought it was all over when I saw him but he took one look at me and said "this isn't you". I was so hyper I wsa bouncing off the walls in that appointment. I opened my gob and didn't stop ranting until time was up. He said I'd been "very helpful".<br /><br />I just want to know the nature of the beast I'm confronting. At least then I can Do The Right Thing re diet self-help etc. Some of the clinic staff want me to think it's drug-induced. That's crap. I've had depression since age 10. I had mood swings throughout my mid-late 20s. I cannot take antidepressants because they over-react on me. Last time on them I got so severely depressed I didn't even want gear any more. Now that's pretty bad depression.<br /><br />Sorry to go on Shane. It's 7am, I've been up all night. I just wanted someone to talk to and you're one of the few who seems to understand.Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-46347603259086429242011-01-08T19:18:04.379+01:002011-01-08T19:18:04.379+01:00Oh and a little crack along the way....lolOh and a little crack along the way....lolUnknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06829593900875703194noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-84234313956966651882011-01-08T19:11:07.680+01:002011-01-08T19:11:07.680+01:00Hey Shane
Sorry about the mistakes i have publishe...Hey Shane<br />Sorry about the mistakes i have published by mistake, i,m a little pissed and its been a while since i published anythin here. I hope you carry some wisdom that was gathered last year into this new one. last year was a bit fucked up for me as you know, i lost my leg, but i like to say that i just swapped my real leg for a false one. The gear in the midlands does,nt even deserve to carry the name "heroin", its shite. The benefits of bein an amputee is that i can tap my doc for heavy duty opiats due to bad phantom pains. So its been diamorphine and vodka for me these last few months. I hope your well, and as always its brill to read your words, and the opinions of the people that read them.....Love And Care...KymptonUnknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06829593900875703194noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-16726800335961542952011-01-08T02:20:11.969+01:002011-01-08T02:20:11.969+01:00Heftman, hiya! Yeah it always smells the same but ...Heftman, hiya! Yeah it always smells the same but the consistency of shit is always different. I suppose it depends on whose arse it comes out of??? Does that make any sense? It doesn't to me, but I've said it now and have a lifetime to figure it out...<br /><br />XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-48007505531502970802011-01-08T02:12:57.626+01:002011-01-08T02:12:57.626+01:00Paul, great to see, hear from you. Hope you had a ...Paul, great to see, hear from you. Hope you had a great ghristmas with the family... it's probably a nice time when you've children you love.<br /><br />Are you advising me to keep shooting? Don't know what else you could mean. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-29308659667802512912011-01-08T02:02:09.541+01:002011-01-08T02:02:09.541+01:00Hiya Georgina,
read the correct blogs and you wo...Hiya Georgina,<br /><br />read the correct blogs and you wont need coursework. Mines not the correct one for that, but there must be one! <br /><br />I remember millenium night. Layingb there in tears while the world celebrated. If I'd had a gun I would have picked the crowd offf one by one. new Years a pretty shitty time... <br /><br />Love & Thoughts, Shane. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-65440157346454180712011-01-08T01:47:12.802+01:002011-01-08T01:47:12.802+01:00Hiya Tanja... thanks for gatedrashing my life and ...Hiya Tanja... thanks for gatedrashing my life and then ignoring me! haha<br /><br />God, these fucking junkies aren't very polite are they? Where do they get their manners from?<br /><br />Shane. XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-38743143276449304762011-01-08T01:21:31.968+01:002011-01-08T01:21:31.968+01:00Gledwood,
I'm not an expert on the traffic si...Gledwood,<br /><br />I'm not an expert on the traffic side of things... in fact I take absolutely no interest in it at all. So the base heroin may come from afghanistan but it's certainly processed in North africa and comes through via there.<br /><br />Spain has pretty much the same crap as we do here, but germany has stuff similar to that in the UK. Amsterdam gear is weird. It's kinda like UK but not as strong and burns on injecting it. We occassionally have dutch gear here and it goes at thirty quid a gram. I had some two weeks ago. <br /><br />French heroin requires no citric either and blocks in the needle without fail. Crystalizes. here you boil the water first, then sprinkle gear in. Mix to a thick paste and then draw the crown off the top. You are left with three mil of crap in the bottom of the cup. It also has the weirdest taste as it gors through you: tastes like the smell of old socks... exactly like that. It's not pleasant, except when you're half ill. And then it's heaven.Memoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-30049086708922396992011-01-08T00:14:06.492+01:002011-01-08T00:14:06.492+01:00Hiya Chrissy,
Well your stronger than me... I wou...Hiya Chrissy,<br /><br />Well your stronger than me... I wouldn't go through opiate withdrawal if I could help it.. I couldn't.<br /><br />Though I'll probably be puking and rolling around in agony next week as my only contact here has gone AWOL. i tried searching a new contact (esp for methadone) today, but no luck. If I don't tomorrow I'll ahve to sit it out...<br /><br />Love and thoughts & hope things change for you soon, Shane. XXXMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-84297451183378533732011-01-08T00:06:33.432+01:002011-01-08T00:06:33.432+01:00Hiya Joe,
Yeah I caught that spam mail but realiz...Hiya Joe,<br /><br />Yeah I caught that spam mail but realized immediately, esp as we had just spoken. But it's weird how it was your real address...stuff like that (imagine sexual content or something) could cause huge problems for people. But don't ever worry about it coming to me, I just delete them and if I'm not sure I'll always ask you.<br /><br />Do I have enemies?<br /><br />I've many and the bastards keep sending me emails telling me! I can normally spot them:<br /><br />Subject: Your blogs shit<br /><br />or <br /><br />Subject: Hiya Junkie scum<br /><br />What can you do but send kisses back? That's what I do.<br /><br />2011 will be a good one for a few of us... I'm sure of it... I think...<br /><br />XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9193316819499446317.post-67345641257176514452011-01-08T00:06:31.292+01:002011-01-08T00:06:31.292+01:00Hiya Joe,
Yeah I caught that spam mail but realiz...Hiya Joe,<br /><br />Yeah I caught that spam mail but realized immediately, esp as we had just spoken. But it's weird how it was your real address...stuff like that (imagine sexual content or something) could cause huge problems for people. But don't ever worry about it coming to me, I just delete them and if I'm not sure I'll always ask you.<br /><br />Do I have enemies?<br /><br />I've many and the bastards keep sending me emails telling me! I can normally spot them:<br /><br />Subject: Your blogs shit<br /><br />or <br /><br />Subject: Hiya Junkie scum<br /><br />What can you do but send kisses back? That's what I do.<br /><br />2011 will be a good one for a few of us... I'm sure of it... I think...<br /><br />XMemoirs of a Heroinheadhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17401281805284793756noreply@blogger.com