Myth or Reality? The Truth about Heroin Addicts



This post, while acknowledging certain truths, puts pay to some frequent misconceptions surrounding heroin addiction. All in all, Heroinheads are quite different from their stereotyped portrayal in the media.

(If your looking for an answer to a specific question check out the following link which is a selection of questions I've been asked via email: Memoires of a Heroinhead  - Heroin Questions)


Heroin addicts are thin with black eyes.

MYTH. It is very difficult to spot a heroin addict from sight.The common physical stereotype of an addict is a media invention, a visual aid to immediately inform the viewer of a characters most basic of motivations. If heroin addicts really looked like that there wouldn't be any of us left. We'd all be constantly stopped, searched and arrested in the streets. It's often easy, in retrospect, to see some giveaway sign in an addicts behaviour/physical appearance, but before knowing for sure if someone is an addict or not those characteristics could be the sign of any number of problems: mental illness, depression, cancer, liver disease, prescribed medication or just life itself. Not even addicts can spot other addicts with any degree of certainty, though there are a couple of reliable signs that can allow an experienced eye to spot another injecting drug user. Also, keep in mind that for every addict who may show some visible sign of his/her addiction there are just as many who show no outward sign at all. Thinness and black eyes can occur in an addict after severe and repeated bouts of withdrawal, but usually, someone who looks like that is a gothic. In fact, many addicts, especially long-term users, tend to be overweight and have a bloated, heavy appearance. With the weight gain brought about through methadone maintenance (a weird, thick fat which builds up around the face, chest, abdomen and thighs) and often problems with the liver, addicts tend to have a look more similar to diabetics than what is commonly thought of as a 'typical heroin addict'. Young addicts going through their first severe bout of addiction (and struggling to maintain it) do often lose weight, but it's due to not having finances to eat, and not a direct side effect of heroin.

You only need to use heroin once to become addicted

Myth.... and a crazy one at that. If anyone ever claims that they became physically or psychologically addicted after trying heroin the first time they are lying and scare-mongering. Addiction to anything is not a quick process, and no matter how highly addictive heroin is, you can only become an addict if you use the  drug repeatedly and daily over many weeks. Many addicts experience a gradual slip into dependency, using recreationally for months or years before finally becoming physically dependent. The actual time it does take is uncertain (and depends on the person) but one thing is clear: you CANNOT get addicted from the first, second or even tenth time of using. My personal experience is that I used heroin two or three times a week, for almost a year, before picking up a habit. And even then, that habit only came about because I started using daily. It's the same story for many others. If you were to somehow go from never having used to using everyday it would still take weeks to form a habit. The amount of heroin that a first time user needs is so small that it wouldn't  be enough to sustain an addiction. That's why addiction often follows a period of recreational use, during which a user's dosage increases, until finally (if progressing to daily doses) they are using enough to sustain an addiction. Psychological dependency can happen before physical dependency, but even psychological dependency takes time to acquire. If there are some people who try heroin and go on to become addicts, well, there are just as many who try it, don't enjoy it, and never touch it again.

Most heroin addicts are untrustworthy.

REALITY... by nature, no; by addiction, yes. The heroin addict needs money daily and as the day wears on he/she will consider more and more desperate means to get it. Stealing from the uncautious is an easy solution, though the addict will often ask before taking. Going on sheer logic, that says that it is not the addiction which dictates if someone will steal or not but rather their financial situation. A millionaire addict will not steal your purse or handbag - they have no need to. In regards to  lying,  most addicts, to hide their addiction (or to get what they want) will lie. But that is not behaviour unique to heroin addicts: most of us lie to cover up certain things in our life, or when the truth will not necessarily get us what we want.

Heroin addiction is expensive.

MYTH. Heroin addiction (at least in the UK) can cost less than someone who has a 2 pack a day cigarette habit.  Many addicts subsist on a bag a day  (£10 - $15). The average is 3 bags a day (£25 - $40). In London I was doing eight bags a day which cost me £50. It can get expensive, but not how some claim. When you read in a paper, or hear on Oprah: “I had a $1000 a day smack habit.!” It’s a lie. The person was probably never a heroin  junkie at all. On the other hand, a crack cocaine addiction can run into thousands of $$$'s a day.

The heroin addict is weak willed.

MYTH. This is probably the greatest myth of them all. Heroin addiction is not about lack of willpower or strength – it is a matter of science: if you put this drug in your system frequently enough the  body will begin to need it, and finally will not be able to function without it. The strongest willed person in the world will become an addict if heroin finds its way into their system often enough: addiction isn't a choice. Of course, there is a choice whether or not to take the drug so frequently in the first place, but the concept of 'physical' addiction (before you have experienced it) is so abstract and hard to comprehend that even most users go into this thinking addiction is about will-power and strength and believing they will be the one who'll be strong enough  to control it. It's only when we learn just what is meant by 'physical addiction' and that it is a biological process and not a mental one that we realise just what little chance we stood. Even those users, like myself, who saw their parents or family members brought to their knees by withdrawals, we still imagine it is somehow a put on.... a weak cry for drugs and not a biological need for them. It's only when one experiences physical dependency first hand that you realise how powerless you are. So when initially using heroin (not understanding and being sceptical about 'physical dependency') there is no urgent need to show restraint or in trying to be strong. You believe using will always be about choice, that you'll use when you can and want to, and when you've had enough or don't have much money, then you'll not use. Only all too often, by the time the user reaches that crossroads, it is too late as the body has by then become physically dependent on the biological changes the drug has brought about.


Heroin addicts are mostly homeless.

MYTH... though many do beg to get their dope money. Heroin addiction does not suit a life on the streets. To find a vein and enjoy the benefits of the drug you need light, heat and comfort; real homelessness just doesn't  sit well alongside the life of addiction. Still, there are many homeless addicts but they are a huge minority. Many other addicts are in 'Homeless Shelters and Hostels'  (so yes, 'officially' homeless) though not without shelter.

Heroin addicts are mostly male?

REALITY. There are 3 times as many male to female heroin addicts.

Heroin addicts are suicidal.

MYTH. If addicts were suicidal they could end it all very quickly, very painlessly and very easily. The addict is normally seeking some sort of attention for their pain, as well as an escape from it. Addicts often suffer from some trauma, though I don’t say depression. In many ways addicts are the opposite of suicidal: they want to live! This is why they're using heroin in the first place: to block out  pain or trauma and allow themselves to live some relatively calm and peaceful days. Often addicts play up to this suicidal tag and are often the worst proponents of the myth, same as they often help to falsely exaggerate the dangers of using heroin. Being thought of as 'suicidal' and 'suffering', being 'reckless' and 'self-destructive' are myths and stereotypes that many addicts enjoy. They are tags which add to your 'cool' stakes and which many addicts enjoy being seen in that light. But acting suicidal and depressed is no different to sitting on  a train with a book about philosophy or advanced chess tactics and purposely making sure everyone sees what you're reading... it's about getting a desired image of yourself across to the world you live in. Never-the-less, that most addicts are suicidal is a huge myth.

A quick check of the arms will always give away the injecting heroin addict.

MYTH. The veins in the arms don’t last most addicts too long and so clean arms only means that there has been no injections in that area or that there are no veins left to inject into. Also, don't forget that injecting heroin is not like in the films and very often the site of injection doesn't even bleed let alone leave huge ugly sores and abscesses. Also, keep in mind that mid-arm injections (which they always show in films and pictures) is a very time limited injection site and you'll be much more likely to find needle marks in the top sides of the hands than there. Still, if an addict tries to prove abstention by  rolling  up his/her sleeves, ask him/her to drop their trousers.Marks, bumps and lumps on their legs will immediately  tell you if they've really been keeping clean or not. If after checking the arms, hands, legs, feet, stomach, chest and neck  you still haven't found any tracks or traces, bend them over and  look deep inside the anus with a magnifying glass.... maybe you'll find a needle mark or abscess there.

Heroin addicts don’t wash.

50/50 this one... though if I had to generalise I would say REALITY. Heroin addiction changes one’s priorities. Washing first thing in the morning is no longer the most important thing -- getting your morning fix is. Heroin addiction also takes up a fairly large amount of time to sustain, and after   running about all day, struggling to find money and to score, a shower before bed often doesn't feel like a great idea. Then there are some addicts like me who wash only when they are dirty, and sometimes only wash the visible parts of their bodies. It also depends if you're living alone or with a partner (especially a non-using partner). Heroin addicts still wash, but maybe not always as frequently as non-users.

Heroin addicts are sexy.

MYTH. Rotten teeth, dirty fingers, hepatitis and swollen, bloated limbs are not sexy. Someone masquerading as an addict may be perceived as sexy, but real hard-core addicts rarely are. For the addicts who show little or no physical signs of their addiction, well, they can be no sexier than anyone else. If someone does (and many do) have a penchant for addicts... for their seemingly wild, vulnerable, reckless, self-destructive nature, then that perceived sexiness is a passive one heaped upon them by the admirer.

Most addicts want to quit.

REALITY: The percentage of addicts suffer terribly (many going to the grave) with their addiction. For most it is a lifelong battle to quit and stay clean. There are not many who don’t want to quit, or have never entertained the idea. Even I thought about quitting... once.

It is easy to overdose.

MYTH. It’s extremely difficult. It takes 10 times an addicts normal dosage to be anywhere near fatal and one experiment showed quite astonishing results: that it'd take 50 New York bags of average quality to kill someone .There are many top doctor and opiate specialists who don't believe in heroin overdose.  From my personal experience, I also hold to that view. Heroin deaths are normally put down to overdose for statistical and  budgetary reasons, but are much more likely to have been due to toxic heroin or a combination of different drugs & alcohol. Overdose is very common, but FATAL overdose is not. It does exist but is not as rampant as governments and anti-drug policy and propaganda tries to convince us it is.

Heroin addicts are violent – especially when desperate for a fix.

MYTH. Most heroin addicts are very passive and peaceful. They will more than likely run from trouble than confront it. A heroin addict in withdrawal can barely walk let alone fight. Violence does exist in heroin circles but it is around the group of users that have mental health issues – they are violent even without the drug. Not all people with mental health problems are violent.

The heroin addict belongs to a specific economic group.

MYTH. Heroin addicts come from all walks of life, although there are an increasing number of addicts proportional to their poor economic conditions. Without doubt poverty and poor education does account for what escapes are on offer to us, and as heroin is an easy available 'cure all' a traumatised working class person is much more likely to spend £10 on a bag of smack rather than £100 going to see a stress counsellor or psychiatrist. But heroin addiction (or any addiction) is not endemic to any economic group. I know doctors, lawyers, artists, writers and computer programmers who are addicts.

Heroin addicts will steal the eyes from their grandmothers head.

Unfortunately REALITY... though we’ll always try to replace them later.

Heroin addicts are young.

MYTH. Heroin is normally sought by adults. There are young users, and some boroughs/places have a problem with young users, but generally the average age differs from around 24 - 31. This was one of the great surprises I had when first starting to use – the amount of mature addicts. If you keep in mind heroin is a long term addiction (on average 8 - 10 years before recovery) then you'll be able to understand that figure a little better.

Why can’t heroin addicts just say “NO!”

MYTH: They can and do. They can say “No!” a hundred thousand times... but saying “Yes” once, wipes all the “no’s” out.

Heroinheads have to type their username and password into a website on at least 10 separate occasions before  logging in successfully?

REALITY. Yes, without fail.

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'Myth or Reality: The Truth about Heroin' was brought to you by Shane X

238 comments :

kokh_adkt said...

I have never tried heroin, I cant say that i havent wanted to, but never came across it, coke is more available to me its very expensive here, anyways i have been following your blog as of recent, thanks for sharing..they myths untold was the best. :)

Lou said...

myth: heroin addict son "borrows" my car in the middle of the night.
fact: heroin addict son steals my car in the middle of the night. He calls me every couple hours for 3 days and tells me he is bringing it back "soon". Police call at the end of 3 days. Car has been found stopped in the middle of the road, out of gas. Son is nodded out at steering wheel, and goes to jail without resistance. I pay $300 to get car out of impound (police had it towed as it was out of gas).
Myth: junkies are fun to have around
Fact: junkies are a pain in the ass, and if you find my eyeballs, please give them back

Lou said...

PS I hope you know the above is an attempt at humor. I have gotten over the car:(
If you go to my blog entries of 8-08, I have a 2 part post entitled "things that make you go hmmm" which you may find amusing.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

@Kokh_adkt,

Thanks for reading, its appreciated. Yes, the price of coke!! I had a huge crack cocoaine prob whilst in LOndon... it cost me $100's a day! Amazingly, you can't get crack in France... it doesn't exist. You either have to freebase, use coke, or go without.

Whats happening on your blog? Are you still going to post or are you finished with it?

Anyway, glad you liked the post... keep reading,
Shane.

Anonymous said...

glad you put an end to those misconceptions. good job mate :)

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Thank you Grey. It's very nice of you to have popped by... Sorry there was no tea & biscuits for ya! Next time, hey? ;)

Smack Happy said...

Excellent post! Thanks for doing this. I just wanted to add that most H OD situations in my world come from addicts who have been in recovery or otherwise clean for a period of time, and underestimate their drop in tolerance when they use again. Happens way too often, sadly.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Thank you Smack Happy... it's good to see you around! And you're right... it is one of the situations where Od's are very possble. I'll put that as an add-on.

Take care my friend & keep well, Shane.

Anonymous said...

Thank you SO MUCH for the invite! Too bad u don't know portuguese , cause I actually had a blog entry talking about one of my heroes who recently died with an Overdose. Don't get me wrong but I have to ask u this: are u still addicted to heroin?

It's okay if u don't answer.
Just be careful, say No, get some help, be around people who really knowns you , supports you and that know your past...they will help!

I don't know whhat to say.
He died in October. He was 39 years old...is name? Gidget Gein (Brad Stewart). He was such a kind soul, he suffered alot..but he always, ALWAYS looked up for his friends and the few family that he had. He talked to him oce, I was like OMFG HE FUCKING REPLYED TO MY MSG! I was so excited! y hero, my all-time heroe replyed to my msg...a silly msg! Later I knew by his friends that he always replyed to his fans messages. :')
He was the former bass player of Marilyn Manson and the spooky kids...and in my opinion, MM ruined his life. But I don't what to talk about it... here, read it, if u want, it is translated by google, so...it's kinda messy, but u'll understand: http://translate.google.pt/translate?u=http%3A%2F%2Fbzombieantidote.blogspot.com%2F2009%2F02%2Fhoje-o-texto-e-grande-mas-queria-que.html&sl=pt&tl=en&hl=pt-BR&ie=UTF-8

if u need anything, just talk/ask.
take care.
vanessa mota

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Vanessa, yes i'm still a heroin addict... it's been nine years now. I had a one year holiday in 2003/04. I choose this life... my addiction isn't something that I fight against.

I will read the MM story now.

Thank you for your kindness... it's nice to know that humanity still exists... you're one of the 'good people'.

Keep in touch & take care, Shane.

Raphael Armenti said...

thanks for the invite. wierd huh? everything in your life is your choice. except how you get started in it.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

yeah, it's strange that. Though not everything is a choice... it would be good if it was. Many things are imposed upon us. We do not choose our desires and fantasies, they are the product of many different elements.

Thanks for visiting Raphael, I'll be back on your blog soon. Shane.

Cinnamon Girl said...

The fact that I do NOT do heroin and yet I still have to log on 10 times....worries me :P

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Starrlight... that worries me as well! ;)

grace said...

ive been reading your blog page after page after page.. im so captivated by your words. thanks for your bravery!

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Grace, I'm glad you liked it ;)

If it was only you who enjoyed my blog.. it was worth writing.

You take care & BW, Shane.

Kenny said...

I've heard that many prison inmates who are addicted to heroin often die within a few months from leaving prison due to the fact that the heroin they take in jail is always weaker because the dealers add other substances such as caster sugar,talc or flour.So when they are released they are exposed to a purer substance which their body cant tolerate and they die out of an OD.

Kenny said...

oh and another thing, a dealer makes more money in prison than on the out.

On the outside two grammes of heroin has a street value of 80 quid. Inside prison each gramme will be converted to ten points and each point will be made into three sales.

Each sale will be one-third heroin and and two-thirds crushed paracetamol which ca be picked up by prisoner by just claiming to have a headache. Each sale is worth 5 quid so the dealer ends up with 300 quid for two grammes, almost four times the market price.

All the prices are from the year 2002. I have no idea whether it has changed recently or not.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hiya Kenny,

Thanks for the comments and excuse me for not replying to you on Blogger. I saw your message as it came through in an email, but I never log into Blogger to reply.

Addicts OD'ing on release. The addict is at risk aftr abstention, but it's very hard to OD just because of a stronger batch of heroin. Even if it is 3 times stronger than in jail, the addict would still have to take an incredible amount to kill himself. He can OD, but not often fatally. I understand what you say, and agree it can happen and the addict is at more risk than usual.

I've never been in prison so do not know how it all works there. I'm sure what you say is correct though. What I will say is that using in prison is a huge risk... there is normally only a couple of needles and all the addicts must share them. I cannot imagine an addict using in prison can leave without either hepatitis or HIV. So the risks of using in prison are in many ways more perilous than on the out.

Thanks again for your comments... keep reading and hopeflly we'll speak more soon.

My best wishes, Shane.

Cathy said...

Now why couldn't someone dispel so many of the old myths earlier than this? But I must say, about "willpower" or the lack, I think the chemical changes require a different kind of will, it's not strong it's just directed differently, and it's not weak, but as you yourself point out, you take any strong minded person and pump them full of smack for a month, their "will" weakens in the face of what this drug offers, they'll certainly walk over your dead body to get it. I know I did. So maybe our willpower, if that's the right word, "softens" more toward something else. Another myth: People will stop judging you once you're clean long enough. Reality: People judge you by the worst day of your life.

Dusty Rose said...

absolutely incredible entry.
i stopped a while back
not by choice
but by neccessity and then i got hurt cause i used again
and the necessity because nothing but certainty
you always have this incredible way of dispersing this feeling.
i think about it all the time
i'm thinking about it right now
i'm drinking bourbon and thinking about how great
it would be to fill the hidden rig i got with a big
clump of brown.
but thats bad.
and hearts,
--d.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hiya again Dusty,

Yes, it'd be great to fill that rig... but you wouldn't feel so clever tomorrow. And as you know opiates are either everyday or not at all... there's no safe middle ground.

I've been mostly on methadone these past weeks and sometimes the urge to sacrifice everything I haven't got is overpowering... I can almost feel myself slipping away just thinking of it. But at some tine we must show restraint... even if it's just to postpone it to another day (a better day). Addiction in the wrong circumstances is a hell after hell... it's not a good place to be.

Thanks as ever for reading and commenting... All My Best, Shane. x

Unknown said...

Shane,

Firstly I want to say you are not hopeless you are a man that is valuable. You are a man that is awesome. You are a man that can be anything you want to be. If you choose to be a heroin addict that is your choice. I have read your page and I hope you dont think im nosey but I just wanted to bring you words of encouragement. I am from a country that does not have heroin which is good for me. I have never touched hard core drugs and never hope to. Whilst reading your page I have noticed that you have had a hard up bring. I am sorry about your father and mother. None of that was your fault I hope you know this. can you look at your life and see hope? can you remember when you were little what you wanted to be when you grew up? surly you had something that you were passionate about that is not drugs? I am studying the brain at this current time and I know that you are what you are due to the environment you grew up in. your environment you grew up in as a little child has allowed you to have a mentatlity that drugs is your destiny I get this feeling reading your profile page. I am here to tell not only you but everyone that I have also been through one of the hardest lives I wish not to elaborate on this but I know there is hope. I know that you and every addict could be a teacher, a lawyer, a writer, a painter, a hairdresser. It not to late to enjoy the last years of your lives. I know that drugs make you smelly, depressed, sad, ugly, skinny, unhealthy and los of humanity. It takes you to the grave. You cant tell me that this is the life you want? you cant tell me that you want to LIVE HELL on earth? I KNOW YOU HAVE passions Art, literature, painting, writing, sculpture, theatre, Poetry. You can restat your life. Take small steps. You are not a priduct of your past. You can get off all drugs if you want to. why dont you want to treasure life take each day as it comes not being worried and anxious all the time? I am soo worried about you and all people who are addicts. Yes I bet I am going to get alot of abuse from drug addicts on here that tells me to shut up and go away. I know that is only becuase I am speaking hope to them and they are not willing to hear it. They want to live depressed. Yes people turn to drugs generally due to hurt and pain they want the drug to take it away. The drug not only takes away the pain that the people have it takes there life. you said its a myth that heroin uses are suicidal. I tell you now all heroin addicts are suicidal they are taking there life and handing over to a drug. You Die to a Drug. I wish I could help. I wish I could do something to take away the pain in this world so that all people could live happily.

To all addicts there is hope there are people that care about you in this world. I care about you! I dont even know you but I care. I want you to live a happy life I want you to try and strive to be the best person you can be. where there is a will there is a way. Use the will you have placed in your heart and go to someone and ask them for help beg them to help you. take small steps to get of the drug as it is not the answer. DONT LET A DRUG TAKE YOUR HUMANITY. YOU ARE worth SO much more than that. You are precious. You have abilitys and dont you dare tell me its to late. WHILE you are alive you it is Never to late.

from me

forensicjim said...

I am very new to all of this. I have never been on any type of illegal drugs at any time in my life. I have met a girl whom I care a great amount for and she is addicted to heroine. Apparently for multiple years. She did not hide this fact from me from the very beginning, the second day that I spent time with her she was very upfront and honest, telling me about her addiction. She is 28 years old and probably the kindest woman that I have ever met. She is currently going to a methadone clinic to help her with her addiction. She seems to be convinced that all addicts relapse. Any advice that anyone can give me to help me help her in this battle would be greatly appreciated. I am the most patient and understanding individual that I know, I am going to assume that I will need all of the patience and understanding the I can muster up. I will do anything I can to help her win her life back. Thanks for your time.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Forensic Jim,

That's something quite personal so mail me here and if I can offer any help I will.

myheroinhead@gmail.com

Hope to hear from you soon, all My Best, Shane.

Anonymous said...

I have never used heroin, but I fell in love with a "recovering" addict and he tore my world apart. Three times. I always believed that people can change, but honestly I am now truly convinced that heroin addicts turn into these sociopathic zombies and it is like a train wreck set in slow motion and all you want to do is push the person that you love from in front of the train, but they can not hear you. It is so sad. They are ghosts of the person that they were. Heroin RUINS lives. You are better than that. You are strong.

Chris Pope said...

I am a recovering heroin addict and I struggle. I want to be free. Heroin is like my mistress. My woman, my love, but then oneday she nags at me and hurts me so it is time for a divorce. It is never easy and I have lost everything and I am so young, only 25. So many people judge me and call me dirty smack head but i have never robbed old ladies or done anuthing terrible to fund my habbit. I am a victim of circumstance. Email me if you can help, skinnyman_2004@hotmail.com

Anonymous said...

My roomate who is a recovering heroin addict invited his friend for the weekend. We went out drinking and after we came home the friend stole my car, credit and debit cards. When he came back after making out everything and my missing school and work he said "that's what drug addicts do". I don't know if he's using heroin, but I found a needle in my roomates bag and he said his friend must have put it there. I don't believe him and now think he was in on it. I plan on asking to see his legs like because when I confronted him he showed my his arms. Why can't I see the signs?

Lost said...

I've been thinking about TRYING heroin once or twice, is that gonna fuck me up or is it safe if its just a one time thing???

Lost said...

Im really into "outer-body experiences" but so far all I've done is hash, antidepressants, inhalants(butane, carburetor cleaner...), pain killers, and speed.

Ive been wanting to try heroin for awhile now... do you think the high is worth trying and would doing it once or twice really be as bad as people make it seem???

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey Lost,

Trying it once isn't going to fuck you up (unless you overdose and die or end up with brain damage or something). Also if you're only going to TRY it once then there's no real point... you may as well try it zero times... it's almost the same. You're an adult and you must make these decisions yourself. It fucks some people up, kills others and helps a few... I don't know what it'll do to you. If yiu can deal with life without it that's the best option. X

Anonymous said...

hi began at 19 am 53 now long apprenticeship but I am in good health use new works everytime now.In the old days used to share but since AIDS apeared no way.Got hep C of girlfriend in the 80s but did pegulated interfereon course and cleared that up.Course makes you very sick for six moths but it worked.Have always held good jobs as H is$450 a wieght gram and quality is not bad.Biggest problem is Police problem not drug problem.Had to do 2 1/2 years in jail in 96 due to growing/selling weed ,got caught selling 14oz to undercover and got 5 years on the top.Prison just a waste of time.Never stopped me using inside or out.The system just does not get it I love Herion and nothing they say or do is going to change that.Do not smoke or do other drugs just H thats why I was able to fight of ALL(Luekeamia) with massive doses of chemo(6 months in Hospital).Its funny part of the treatment was a self dosing machine to administer Fentanyl (artificial Herion) but much more addictive and far worse withdrawal.Makes you really sick and goes on for a month stay clear of this one just use once or twice do not get a habit on this stuff it bites.Anyway life goes on.

Anonymous said...

While I found your post interesting and informative, I cannot imagine anyone who would "choose" the route you've chosen, glamorize it, promote it, or defend it. I believe your years of drug abuse have clouded your judgement in that you seem to be in total denial about your own addiction and your own propensity towards self destruction. You act as if you have "no choice" in the matter, or had "no choice" at the getgo. We are all nothing more or less than the sum of our own personal choices. Choose your own path, stay with your heroin addiction if it suits you, it's a free world, for the most part. My bet would be that sooner or later, if they don't find you dead, you'll end up crying out to the universe for help.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

hey anonymous....

We will all be found dead at some point, and there's not a man or woman alive who'll not end up crying for help at some stage in their lives. You've just stated a very general conclusion and tried to make it a distinct end only for those who are addicted to heroin. You know, there are many people born with debilitating diseases who are medically prescribed heroin from birth to death. They use just as I do, only it's prescribed. Their average age of death is no different from the rest of the population and they don't end up in the gutter. Why? But of course, someone who is so straight in thought as yourself will make excuses for those who are prescribed it to ease physical suffering... you'll convince yourself it's not the same. Far from my mind being clouded due to years of drug abuse, yours is stagnant due to an unquestioning acceptance of what you're told and what you read. You also seem to have made a judgement as to how people think about their lives of addiction and pin that idea on everyone. I've repeatedly said in my writings here that I chose heroin and it was a conscious decision I made... but you're so eager to be nasty and bitter and critical that your eyes have stopped seeing anything which doesn't fit into your false idea of things. You've also made a conscious decision to ignore all the writing that doesn't concern heroin and comment on my words that are blatantly about it. You are as guilty as anyone... and you don't even know it.

Take care and I hope something or someone enlightens you before you're found dead on the toilet after having a heart-attack brought on by constipation. That's a very common end ... junkie or not. X

sheila said...

I think it's a form of denial to suppose that during the early phase, before becoming physically dependent, that a person using heroin is not WEAK. You CHOOSE to use the drug, apparently, long before it becomes an addiction. As much as I know about substance abuse, I've never been able to get past the "weakness" aspect. AS a mother, I've gone through the many, many detoxes and rehabs with my son - I drank the kool-aid along with all the other parents, hopeful that kicking it would really just be a matter of drying out and CHOOSING the right path. But, after more than ten years, I fully realize that it's a great commercial enterprise, rehab. The addicts repeatedly fail - their weaknesses surviving all else. My son tells me he'd wait out each rehab thinking ONLY of that first fix upon release. It's sad, sad, sad. Such a waste of a life.

SHEILA

Anonymous said...

Perhaps, a different perspective than most I have seen here. I am the mother of a heroine addict. She wasn't always on heroin, but from what I have learned, I presume she was born to be addictive just as some are born gay. First, it was a boottle of wine, then it was E&J, I thought she was better when she stopped drinking. She always had a job from age 16, had my grandaughter at 26, year later MS dignosis and I learned she was on Perks......2 years later, she drives 45 miles a day each way when she only works a block from her house. Crashes, tickets, borrows money, but never has diapers or gas, behind on all bills, but lives rent free with Daddy. Yes, such a good life,can't go to work without driving to get her fix. Room full of needles, bags......my beautiful daughter, lost, sad......intervention......in detox now. Baby misses her mommy and my daughter now alone and suspended from work for theft. Did I mention, she has 3 scripts that she sells to buy H.



Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Sheila & Anonymous friend!

There's been no reply to this post for months and two come in the same day both saying the same thing and trying to force an opinion by pure strength of numbers. You've seen one side of heroin addiction... you don't see the other side because it's not visible. But just because you haven't seen it don't try to drown it out with with your own biased views of it. If we all paly that silly game it becomes worthless... I'll email 50 junkie friends to leave fake comments saying the opposite of what you have.

Sheila, don't be stupid to call it a weakness in the early days. Addicts don't know what's in store for them any more than anyone else does. They believe iot's take or leave and until they are addicted do not have a real concept of what addiction even is. In your scenario EVERYONE is weak: those people who first drink coffee, smoke the first cigarette, eat fatty and sugary foods, take prescription medication, go to the doctor for a pill for anxiety or depression.... all them things lead to addictions and fat and cigarettes kill way more than heroin ever has. Oh, and of course there's our old friend alcohol. So everyone is WEAK Sheila? Is that what you're tellling me? What you believe? I think you need to understand that our first experimentation with drugs don't come about through weakness but through trying to discover and try our world and all that's in it. It's an excitement to see what effect these things can have. If you continue to look at it from your tired ignorant ignorant eyes then you'll never be any help to your son because you're saying things which he knows isn't true (even if he'll nod and say "yes" just to get you off his back).

A waste of life? I suppose you'd rather your son drug free and working 9-5 or shovelling bricks (like 80% of people) and dying just out of debt? Shovelling bricks or waiting tables or cleaning toilets 9 hours a day is also a waste of life... and it also kills and makes people miserable. maybe think of what the alternatives are before condemning your lads current choices and the consequences of it.

Anonymous, you tell me that your daughter has had huge problems even as young as 16 (still a child). She must then have been very unhappy... what happened to make her need to get out her mind at that young age? Why are you so angered about heroin when it seems alcohol has also really fucked her up? Of course she sells her scripts for H... the scripts don't work! We all sall our scripts for H (if e're still using). What's the problem? Why find more fault in your daughter? If she didn't sell her script I'd have her down as an idiot. And of course she can't go to work before her fix... no addict can! Of course her place is full of needles... that's how she takes her drug. Same as a smokers flat is full of cigarette ends. You really need to find another way to try and deal with this than pouring your energy into anger and disapproval. The problems here and it'll not be helped or made better by screaming out the obvious. It's also exactly that which will push your loved ones far far away. If you was my mother I wouldn't confide in my problems and the truth of what I'm doing and where I'm at. You're giving all the wrong responses and wondering why your loved ones have become distant.

Anyway, now you two friends can tut and gossip over this response and maybe get some more parents of addicted children to post comments here.

regardless, I wish you both the best and hope you find some peace within this life... X

Arlo said...

Hi, thanks for publishing this. I've never used drugs myself, but I'm interested in understanding more about what it's like to be an addict, and I was wondering if you could answer some questions for me.

In this post, you talk about how none of us can understand what physical addiction is like unless we've experienced it for ourselves, and you also confirm that addicts will steal their grandmother's eyes, and talk about how the first thing they think of when they wake up is getting their latest fix, and so on. So it seems like in a way, you're confirming the stereotype the media has of drug addicts always being thinking about where they're going to get their next high. But at the same time, you talk about knowing addicts who are doctors and lawyers, and so on. So I'm just curious, how is it possible for an addict to function in these jobs if their mind is always on the where they're going to get more drugs? I assume you're saying there are levels of addiction, and the doctors and lawyers probably aren't as addicted as the person who steals from their grandmother?

I'm tempted to say that maybe they're psychologically addicted, but not physically addicted, but actually it sounds the opposite to me, if they're able to do their jobs while having an addiction. Is it possible to be physically addicted without also being psychologically addicted?

Also, from what I understand, a physical addiction happens when a tolerance is built up to that particular drug, and your body needs more of it to reach the same high. So theoretically, as you need more and more each day, I assume that's how it reaches the point that you're eventually stealing from your grandmother? Are the doctors and lawyers just not taking enough to reach that level?

I'm sorry if these questions sound stupid, but I know nothing about what it's like to be an addict, and I'm interested in learning about the experience. Many sites on the web give information about the basics of why you should avoid heroin use, but yours is the only site I've been able to find that talks about what it's actually like to go through that.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey Arlo, thanks for writing. It's a long, complicated answer you've asked of me and so I'll answer (in part here and another reply tomorrow or so).

The Grandmother thing was a bit of humour in what was list of quite heavy stuff. Of course it'snot true all or any addict would steal their grandmother's eyes. Addicts ONLY steal for money. If they have their own money they don't steal. Why would they? So it's very clear the only addicts who will steal are those who cannot fund their habits (which, admittedly, is quite a lot. But not all, and maybe not even the majority).

Addiction is a very difficult thing to undersatnd if you've not experienced it. To understand the concept of physical addiction is all but impossible because there's no other experience like it, where if we don't have something ourwhole physical being breaks down and malfunctions. Even starving ourselves of food isn't painful. I diodn't understand physical addiction even when i was using heroin every day. Every kept asking "but have you been sick yet?" I'd look at them as if they were talking of some myth that had been built up but din't really exist. But physical withdrawals are real and not in any way psychosomatic. It'sscience, biology... the body is going through a mighty chemical change/imbalance during withdrawal and itacts like you're in the grip of plague. It'sa sickness like no other and no-one is immune or stronger than it.

Your minds ONLY constantly on the next hit of heroin if you don't know where it'scoming from. When you can afford your habit, buy in bulk, that problem ceases to exist and you function without any trace of your addiction. It's why you don't know any clean addicts... because you can't see them. It's called being a fonctional, stable addict. And it's no great surprise they exist, tehy always have. Terminally ill patients are mostly all heroin addicts (prescribed heroin, but the same drug); cancer patients; people with long term, lifelong debilitating illnesses, etc... they are in effectheroin addicts, but because the supply is guaranteed and controlled they realize no change (other than a few side effects) in their person. They don't go out and steal, stop washing, go crazy, look like death, etc. These are all myths, which sometimes are real butcome about through the manner of living and not through the addiction itself. Out of all professions doctors have the highest rate of opiate addiction... self-prescriibed. These are facts not just hearsay.

Addiction is physical addiction. Yes we talk of psycological addiction too, but forget that because when we're talking about REAL addiction we're referring to the physical addiction and most drugs are NOT phsyically addictive, i.e they do not change you metabolism to where you cannot function without them. If you're psychologically addicted you can still function without the drug... like working but always thinking of a cigarette. But with physical addiction you cannot stop for a day, carry on as usual and grit your teeth, because you'll be on the floor convulsing and shit dribbling out your arse. Only a few very privileged people can get away with going into work like that!

Physical addiction is nothing to do with the same high. You can get physically addicted and never get high at all. If i secretly put tiny amounts of heroin in your coffee, every coffee, every day, after two months when I stiopped you'd be bedridden and would actually book yourself into hospital if you didn't know the cause. So physical addiction is nothing to do with chasing a high, it's about putting enough of a certain drug in your body frequently enough. If you do that you'll get a physical habit... EVERYONE. It's biology, no one would not pick up a habit.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Doctors and lawyers will be taking more heroin than street users becausethey have the money to pay for more and really satisfy their habits. They don't steal because they have money. Maybe reflect a little before asking some questions. Do you think people steal and then just throw the goods or money away? That heroin turns you into a kleptomaniac with no reason? Addicts ONLY steal for money, and with that money they can buy heroin. cancer patients don't suddenly all go around stealing, do they? Have you ever seen that? There is an objective to the theft it'snot done because heroin gives people some weird compulsion to take what's not theirs. Stealing is a major hassle and risk and the last thing an addict would do would be to risk their freedom (which mùeans god awful sickness for two weeks) if they didn't have to. An addict with money is as honest or dishonest as anyone else.

Ok, i think i may have answered in one sitting... though I feel i've repeated a lot of what is already in the post. Hope it'sbeen of some help... thoughts and wishes Shane. X

Arlo said...

Thanks for the prompt answer, Shane. Very interesting insights, and I appreciate the way you've tried to explain it.

I did understand that a heroin addict wouldn't actually steal their grandmother's eyes out, and that they only steal when they need money to fund their addiction. I think most people understand that that's the reason. It's just that, as you pointed out, most people have that view of every heroin addict alive, whereas it's only the case for the ones who can't afford their addiction.

One thing I'm still not clear on: I know you've said that the physical addiction isn't about chasing a high. But it's chasing that high that eventually gets people to the level of being physically addicted, right? So let's say one of the doctors/lawyers/etc. you mentioned has the money to finance their addiction, and they continually have to buy more and more heroin in order to reach that high. What is it that eventually stops them from injecting overwhelming amounts of heroin into their system? Do they eventually reach a point where it flatlines, so that the amount they're shooting is enough to maintain a high? Or is the only limit going to be how much heroin they can afford, so that eventually, they are going to have to go through psychological, but not physical withdrawal symptoms no matter what, since they won't be able to reach that high anymore, but they'll still be shooting enough to satisfy their physical dependency?

Again, I'm sure this question must sound stupid to someone who's had experience with drug use, but I literally know nothing about this subject. I appreciate your insights.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey again arlo, yes it'sjust the case for those who can't afford their habits, but not ALL of them steal. There are some who'll swallow their situation and lay down and be ill. Of course stealing isn"t the only way to get money, is usually a last resort. So many addicts before that point arrives will try to borrow money, get an advance or go and beg... when that falls through and illness is creeping up the and each other means to get money has been exhausted then many will turn to theft, and often it's opportunistic.

Yes, chasing the high can lead to addiction but heroin's not so much about chasing a high (though that's how the media always portrays it). Sure, after years it can get that way, but when you first start the drug is so strong that there's no chasing to be done. You use a small amount and it always has the desired effect. You must also try to understand heroin isn't a 'high as you can imagine. It's not like lacohol or marijuana or speed where you undergo a huge physical effect. Heroin makes you feel 'normal' not 'high'. It's a very subtle drug. People misunderstand that because it's regarded as the 'strongest' drug, but that reputation is based on its addictive qualities and not its effect on the person. The biggest effect it has is making you nod off for moments at a time. It's a very internal effect, an effect which isn't noticeable to people watching but which calms fears, tension, worries, etc. Another myth is that addicts are always trying to chase that fist ever 'high', but it's absolutely not true... not with heroin. The first highs are awful and make you sick, and with heroin the best high can come after 20 years of use. basically, the more worry, stress, pain you have to be relieved of the better high you'll have. Thatcan happen at any moment. It's frequent use of the substance which leads to physical addiction, but that doesn't necessarily mean chasing a high. As I said if you use in many small times a day, you never really get high but will still wind up addicted. Same as you can use just once a day, every day, only two hours feeling anything and 22 hours straight, and you'll wind up physically addicted. The physical addiction is much more in the chemical make-up of the drug and not in the user. If alcohol was so terribly physically addictive one third of our population would be rendered addicts on their present rates of consumption.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

You have to remember that the soon-to-be addict has no notion of addiction before he's addicted. he can only base his ideas on what he already knows: alcohol, weed, cigarettes, etc. So we understand addiction is possible but because all our experiences are psychological addiction and not physical we take it heroin will be the same. It's only when it's too late that we realise the huge difference in their chemical effects on the body. And no matter how many addicts with first hand experience warn you of addiction it never gets through because you cannot quite believe something that is so far from what you've experienced yourself, you think it has to be psychological and just a matter of hard restraint. Then you experience it yourself and you realise that this is a whole new level of need, and that chemicals really do affect and change the body. In that way it gives you a new found respect for all medication, and even stuff like food and air... anything which the body relies upon.

You know, even when i was getting heavily into heroin, around addicts, seeing illness, I still scoffed at it... I couldn't quite accept what they were telling me. I would be lost wondering: But if you need heroin what do you do when you sleep??? If it isn't psychological how comes you can go without it then? If you're addicted to heroin how could a substitute drug, which ISN'T heroin help? That means you're not addicted to heroin? If you were only heroin could help??? All those questions I was pondering while I was even using. On the brink of addiction myself, secondary, up close experience of it, and I still couldn't grasp what "physical addiction" could mean.. could exist. It's an easy phrase to throw about but is a very hard term for someone to understand who hasn't been there. Most drug workers (in rehabs), and even prison warders know that physical addiction is a very real and serious and sometimes fatal thing.


To simplify addiction we'll use the case of a man with unlimited amounts of cash. Yes, he will end up using a lot more heroin to sustain the same addiction as someone who doesn't have unlimited finances, but it eventually levels out to a point where you find a balance between: time between hits and amount of heroin each hit. Yes, in theory it could escalate to using overwhelming amounts, but it never happens like that. This is due to how you use heroin, the cycle of the drug on the system and also the progression of addiction and how it affects your body. It finally arrives that the addict uses just to be straight (well) and not for the other secondary effects that heroin offers (falling asleep). If we lived until we were 500 years old, sure our immunity to the drug would go out the roof, but a twenty year habit isn't enough time, even with unlimited resouces, to get you to that stage.

I'll leave it ehre as I'm way over my word quota and have even forgotten what I've typed!!! Stay well Arlo... All My best Shane, X

Arlo said...

Thanks so much for going through all this trouble to type it out so that I could understand, Shane. I understand a lot more now, and I appreciate it. Best wishes.

Arlo

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

That's OK Arlo... and if you have any further questions you just send them... it's never a problem answering if someone is genuinely interested in it. Take my email:

myheroinhead@gmail.com

And if there's anything else mail or comment. X

Anonymous said...

My question is simple...Will this ever end? My boyfriend has relapsed (yet again). He was on methadone for 5 months but because of a move and the new clinic costing 2x the old one he had to cold turkey off methadone. he used heroin a couple of times "to ease the methadone w/d". Back at it and lying his ass off. Heroin use = positive drug screen = no job. OR.. no heroin = sick = no job. I love this man.I either want to slap the hell out of him or hold him while he cries. This sucks. I feel like it comes down to me leaving OR accepting that this is the way our life is and moving forward. Are there couples out there that are successful in this situation? I just don't know if I can do this, but I can't imagine my life without him. Any advice???

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

hey Anon, thanks for your comment. You'll have to give me a day or so to reply as i've not the time right now to give a response that could be of any use or enlightenment. It's not an easy or one answer question. There are many relationships in your position which work, but there is no easy formula and it really comes down to the two people, and has nothing to do with the strength of the love or anything like that.

Give me a day or two and i'll leave you a more meaningful reply... Shane. X

Anonymous said...

Hey Shane everything you've said really hits home and I can totally relate. I completely agree with the whole concept of you choosing "this life" and embracing your addiction, although many people can't understand that which is understandable being that heroin is both a gift and a curse depending how you look at it, I love it and though I know the consequences can't imagine my life without it; life is much more stress free with this drug. Sometimes I wonder though if I embrace it only because I know there's really no way out even if I wanted to quit.

Anonymous said...

to say dope-sickness is comparable to no other is complete debauchery, being dopesick is a walk in the park compared to say cancer or any other real terminal illness, being dopesick is comparable to a bad flu with insomnia/ anxiety/diarrhea/ sweating/chills/muscle spams and over all irritability at the idea of being alive. Luckily since heroin is a short acting opiod the acute withdrawal phase only lasts up to 10 days. Also one can completely recover from opiod dependence to their original state of being after longterm sobriety. But no matter how you look at it, heroin addiction is purely a selfish act, there is not one bit of compassion involved anything pertaining to the act of using heroin. With an addiction to opiates you will only care about your self and how you are feeling, you could give two shits if a true-friend(if you have any left) came to you in a time of need whilst you are withdrawing and trying to score, you gotta come first over all. If you're not right, then fuck it you couldn't care if anyone else is. Also it will completely strip your emotional foundation and coping mechanisms leaving you a shell of a human being.
And when you do finally clean up you'll see just how far herion has gotten you, to a hedonistic, selfish asshole, to the point where you will forget how it was to live without dope. You will realize all your true friends are up and gone and made something of themselves while you just stuck around in fear of being without. When all the miserable emotions flood in and break your shell, you know theres only one thing that'll make it all go away, just one more hit.

Peace.

-Anon

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Anon, since starting the writings here I've replied to peoples comments and gone through each point they bring up. Youa re the first I will not reply to, and i'll be honest, i've not even read past the first line of selfish crap u've written. I did however remark that while u're accusing others of being selfish you only navigated around the site of things which DIRECTLY affected you: in other words I'm saying, you're as much a selfish cunt as me or anyone else living. And when you try to bring the tears out talking about cancer patients and making some bizarre correlation between them and the addict (and most long term cancer patients are prescribed heroin addicts anyway, so you badly fail on that ignorant score too) well, i've not seen anyone more selfish than people dying who want to live. have you? But that's normal,and is not a criticism. So we're all selfish cunts, but you're just about the biggest and you're indeed so selfish you can't even see it.

Peace out ... XXX

Oh, and try to get some kind of a life, anything, just not lurking like a nazi around virtual worlds and leaving your idiotic and stereotypical shit behind.

MaryM said...

Please tell me there are those who after 1-1/2 yrs choose to detox at home, go to meetings and STOP using... Son has not used in 2 weeks.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey MaryM... I only tell the truth as I know it here, and never peddle false hope.

It's very rare someone will detox successfully at home and stay clean. It can happen though. In fact my mother went clean and stayed clean after the same period of time - although not on a home detox. Whether someone stays clean or not often depends on the REAL reason why they quit. Most junkies initially quit because they've run out of cash. That doesn't bode well for staying clean long term, and 99.9% will return to heroin once they've got a little cash again. Aside from that, it's rare any addict stays clean first time quitting, and home detox, without a substitute to help regulate the body and mind, it's even less unlikely.

But it's unlikely, not impossible. I wouldn't get your hopes up too much after just two weeks. You can still be proud though... two weeks is an achievement in itself (even if it seems a very meager amount of time to you). Most daily users would find it difficult to go one day clean. So on a statistical basis it's unlikely your son ahs finished with heroin (even if he believes he has). But there are always exceptions and maybe your son will be the one.

X

Anonymous said...

Hi' im currently struggling with heroin addiction and can genuinely relate to everything you have said shane. It seems as if no one can understand unless they have been there first hand.
I always struggled with alcohol and cigarettes since age 12 (im 20 yeers young rite now). It caused a lot of struggle and landed me on the streets. It wasnt until i had absolutely NOTHING that i picked up heroin. Been using last 2 yrs, shooting for the last 6 mnths and desperately want to stop
Only because i dont like being tied down and married to this substance not because i have anything "real " to loose, cry about my loneliness daily until i get a hit from my only friend left which is heroin
Sad
but no family or friends is a sad reality also
Can anyone relate?
-twink

Monica said...

Hi Shane.. You have a very touching story, a sad one... But very touching!
I don't do any drugs but I did go out with a (recovering ) heroin addict afew years ago.. Recovering, so I thought! He was still on methadone... Awful to see someone you care about so much turn into something totally different! I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy!
It must be hard to depend so heavily on a substance and try to function a normal as possible life!
He said he never used to inject it, just smoke so I assumed it wouldn't be as bad? Apparently not huh!
please keep safe... Xxxx

Anonymous said...

I've been clean for almost seven years. I'm currently tapering off methadone. I'm on 32mgs at present. My highest dose was 180mgs. I was doing a minimum of $150USD daily when I quit using. I used to embrace the life of a heroin user. Now I just detest it. Life is so much better for me sober. Notice I say for me. Everyone is different.

I found that treating my depression, getting counseling, ending a toxic relationship, and becoming a mother all helped me get to where I am today. I still live a life on the fringes due to having a non traditional job but life is good. I have money saved. I'm also setting aside money for my son's education. I'm in a healthy relationship. Was I a junkie or a stable addict? Probably a bit of both. I never stole or committed crimes to fund my habit. I worked. I was never homeless. Ive always been thin. I have a few scars from injecting but my body is not ruined. I'm facing an expensive mouth restoration next year but I have my teeth anx expensive partials. Looking at me you would never know my past.
J fr Seattle

Anonymous said...

After watching a loved one waste 15 years of his, my and my families life. Here's a fact about heroin: It kills you and your family. Living and feeling hopeless isnt living. Better days now. I enjoy hearing about heroin dealers that get hooked on their own supply though, ironic. I know

Anonymous said...

Hey there :-) , I'm not an addict or a user ( heroin, or crack), but I have friends that are, ( I'm an accepting person and enjoys meeting different people :-) ). Some people think "you have friends that are addicts, so you must be at risk of starting", and considering I have had a very hard life ( major abuse, unemployment, mental health issues etc), this also puts me at risk. The truth is after seeing my dope sick friends, there struggle to get there gear, and being chased by a crack addict friend with a knife, it kind of put me off lol ( don't want that to be me ). I also have major agoraphobia ( going on 10 years), I only leave the house 6 - 7 times a year ( so quite serious), I am prescribed a benzo ( which I can take twice a week, 2 times a day), but I only take them once every couple of months, as I heard how addictive they are. My friends wonder how I can be so controlled with my intake of benzos, and have hundreds stock piled up ( and not tempted to pop them all the time), considering how bad my agoraphobia is. Why can I have willpower not to start heroin or crack,and hardly take any benzos to reduce my pain, but other people can't ? ( even though I have had access to herion, and a hard quite a painful life). Also unlike what others have said, I have never been of the frame of mind that it could never happen to me ( addiction, dope sickness etc), its a weird concept to me that people think there going to be different from other addicts ( i.e not get dope sick on withdrawal, like some type of superhuman or exception to the rule). I hope this make scene as English is my 2nd language.

Ryan said...

Spot on about pretty much everything! To the one above ho made the disjointed comparison of w/ds to cancer - consider that many people come to addiction (or at minimum, dependence) via things like cancer. In my case, spinal injuries, surgeries, spinal abscesses from pot surgical infections, and the implanted hardware damaging nerves was how i came to be dependent on opioids. (Morphine, which is what heroin metabolizes into once in the brain, anyway; and dilaudid, hydromorphone - because heroin (diacetylmorphine) isn't prescribed in the US. It was only when i lost insurance, and the prescriptions that i was dependent on, and was in horrible pain and withdrawal without, that IV use occurred to me. Morphine is 4x stronger by IV, roughly. So, at first, it meant that I could make 1 month's rx last 3-4 months, and that way afford it. It didn't occur to me at the time, when getting out of the pain that made me unable to walk was all consuming, that changing the route of administration would change how it works, not just the strength. Once I got insurance back, it was very hard to go back to taking it by mouth. It takes time to start working, orally. A half hour in pain seems a lot longer than a half hour. Taking it by IV, instant relief.

I can't speak to how addiction and dependence works when it happens to someone without pain, or for those who use recreationally, the way it begins must be different. But in the end, the dependence is the same. The body stops making endorphins, as it doesn't need them (the medication/drug is providing something filling that need) and at the same time, it makes many many more receptors for them, to accomodate the external supply. There are vast changes in the brain that physically happen, and take long times to reverse.

Anonymous said...

I got hooked on crack about 20 years ago. I wound up in jail because of the stealing to support the habit. It took about a month to get really addicted. But it's not a lifetime addiction. I never used it again. It's been 20 years and I have a Sam Adams next to me. You can come back from rock bottom and you can beat an addiction. Just like when you quit smoking. You don't tell someone you're a recovering smoker do you?

Anonymous said...

I'm an Australian heroin user since the beginning of this year. It's been five months of bi-weekly use, more or less. I'm single, smoke like a chimney and feel like the biggest loser. I turn 28 in June. Heroin, ironically, motivates me to change things. I do have a job working from home a phone sex operator and am setting up as an artist. I suppose I feel guilt at never being able to hold down a regular job. Using heroin has helped me cope with past traumas due to my being diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 19. If I can sustain the use at bi weekly I feel I can go on using for a while. But I am scared of addiction. Reading the mythbusting about physical addiction and how much use is required to achieve this was an interesting point of view. Good article. Let's get married.

Anonymous said...

hello,i am a 25 year heroine user,im from portugal,i never had to roubed because i always had money to my day,i always had girlfriends with no problems or use of heroine,all my relationships have been using and all them with the same persons for long years by my side,now i am 12 years with the same girl,she is fisiotherapist and iam no job,she dont never try drugs in life,i always take ir since 14,i have a beautifoul family that support me for good and bad days,i have my friends without that problems and iam the onlyone o takes heroine,i am a normal person with a expensive days and life....heroine is a option of life,FREE HEROINE,STOP THE CRIMES FOR DRUGS,STOP FAKE HEROINES WHO KILLS MORE THAN PURE HEROINE,WHY HAVE THE GOVERNAMENT POWER TO SAY WHAT IO CAN DO,I DONT DRINK SO CAN I SAY "IS FORBIDDEN TO DRINK ALCOHOL SINCE TODAY,IT KILLS TOO...FREE HEROINE AND STOP HEROINE USERS TO GO TO JAIL,LIKE THEY DO IN U.S.A.....-GOOD LIFES TO YOU ALL..

Anonymous said...

What's up Shane my names I'm 17yrs old now and live In USA I have been addicted to herion for 3 years now and have the same story as you grew up into drugs and one of my older brothers gotten addicted to Oxys when I was 12 and I only smoked weed drinked and did extacy a couple times I hated how my brother acted and would alway be ashamed of him and get mad but always helped him and tried to get him to just drop the habbit and I always told my self I would never do opiates at 14 I was expelled from two schools and was still smoking weed and doing pills and my brother started shooting herion and at the time our relationship was shit during the summer I decided to try it and it was the best feeling from a drug I ever tried in my life and right then and there my eyes opened about the drug it's self before I thought it was a crazy drug and it was so dangerous and not able to handle urself like everyone else ignorant to it and now saw how harmless the high is and able to function after that I kept smoking for a year and stopped a few months for out patient treatment to get into school and after started using again and that's when it got bad and started to get the weak withdrawals u get and progressed I ended up working over the summer and ended up selling herion because of my drug selling past and ended up getting worse but still never stole shit from my family like my brother and ended up using a lot it's crazy hearing all the prices from people around the world around here u get a gram and a half of pure for 85 dollars and I get 6 grams for 350 to sell everyday to keep my habit and this year I have started shooting because smoking wasn't gettin me high fast enough and it's something I swore I would never do and saw that wasn't as bad as I thought and now I'm here at 17 shooting herion and selling to get my fix which is THE BEST DAMN WAY TO DO IT. Because either way if u want to make money good but if ur the person to not and just want the fix u just put up money as an investment and boom u have herion for the whole day and that money is going in a circle and coming back to pay for the next up ! Anyway I never understood my brother when he was sick and didn't get it just thought it was all an act but now I see how bad it is people dont get how bad it is and are so ignorant to it ! I don't choose this life an dont want it at all but am forced by physical dependence to keep it going so I don't feel the pain of being tired and wanting to die ! I know u are totally not trying to glorify it and ppl will look at your post and assume it but I totally get that you're only trying to make it understanding to the people who don't know and maybe going through it with family your info is spot on and ppl need to listen if u want to help a herion addict all a person can do is give their help not judge not beat them down and say they're worthless or be mad at them this make them want to use more and will lead to use you have to give them love and help a person who uses will not get clean unless they choose to for themselfs and for a reason anything else in a likely relapse ! People on this always deserve a second chance and deserve the help and thanks Shane I loved the post it was awesome I have so much in commen with your life have a good day!

Anonymous said...

IM in the same boat as you with your partners addiction,IM married to a h addict for five yrs two of them years he was clean things were great on and off marriage meaning when it gets bad I leave to live with friends fr a bit and end up going back we love each other and can't live without each other I've been learning to accept this but sometimes I just want to run away far far away his addiction daily use 100a day gets out of.control.sucks everything away from me money, sex etc and quality time cause he's a zombie at times but like I said I live him but I know I deserve alot better,only time will tell to where enough is enough,today we live in a sober house till we get a apt fr the fifth time in four years crazy shit this life but learning to see it's a desease his disease and I can't nag him to stop till he's ready I could help him and encourage but he needs to stop.good luck with your man and be patient but don't wait to live life neither cause life if to ducking short to be with someone that nods and sleeps most of time but plenty of alone time fr us too :-)

Anonymous said...

Very accurate! You obviously know what yu are talking about and I think people need these myths debunking.I was a heroin addict in the 70s, although I transferred my addiction to something called palfium which was much more easily obtainable but very short duration. I was lucky/unlucky enough to begin my heroin use with 98% pure Thai heroin. I had never felt anything so wonderful when I snorted it. Then when I took my first injection it even beat the best orgasm. Life was also completely worry-free while high. That is very short-lived. On Palfium my life gradually reduced to injecting every 30 mins. over 40 shots a day and at its worse nigh on 100. I never slept or washed. I just sat, preparing my shot, shooting up and nodding off with the TV on in the background. I only got up out of necessity...to eat, go to the toilet, to score. Very little else. Rarely washed or changed my clothes. I was not on the street and I come from a nice, middle-class Jewish household. While cocaine addiction is devastating heroin (and similar) is a whole different ball-game with its additional obstacle to sobriety....the very harrowing withdrawal symptoms. i eventually cleaned up and never used opiates again until a few years ago chronic, nagging pain got me prescribed codeine. Of course, i became physically addicted and grew a tolerance rendering its analgesia non=operational. Tried several cold-turkeys but kept going back. I've more or less maintained a dose, have never taken a stronger opiate and live a completely normal family life, The only effect of the codeine is it prevents withdrawal. It;s a nuisance and I still want to quit but it is hard even though I don't get high on it or stoned in the least. I have also had Hepatitis C for 40 years which has given me a cirrhotic liver. If anyone is thinking of trying heroin, please be cautious. If you know you are easily drawn into repetitive behavior if something is pleasurable then you are highly likely to want to repeat your heroin experience...especially if you smoke or inject it. I lived for the rush of injection....like a rat clicking a lever for a cocaine rush. Two weeks of keeping yourself topped up and you will be habituated enough to have, admittedly very mild, though naggingly irritating withdrawal symptoms and that coupled with missing the rush and high is very likely to have you go out and score. Things will only go downhill!

Anonymous said...

I turn 19 in august and I have been using herion since the age of 17. I came across your blog 'shane' as I was searching for ways to gain weight as I use heroin daily and find it very very hard to put on the pounds!
I found your blog to be truthful, but there are bits of it that I find vary depending on the amount you use, such as washing. Also depending on what money I have, I usually smoke up to eight (sometimes more) bags a day. But eight bags costs me £80.
But I just wanted to say, I have been using herion now for near 2years and the impact it has had on my life in that short period of time is unbelievable! I am stuck in a rut of smoking to feel normal, I mean I don't smoke to get high anymore I smoke because if I don't, I'll hardly be able to move!
Its about 6am and I haven't slept a wink because I have no money to score in the morning so I am worried sick about rattling. I fucking hate it!!
But anyway,I just want to say. I hate being addicted to herion, it was a process that I didn't even know was happening, until I had none. And then I realised that my body couldn't function properly without it.
I am depressed, my life seems to have the same routine day in day out and I would give anything in the world right now, to be able to beat this addiction!!

tracy said...

your truthfulness is admirable,i also like your dark humour,but i feel for you terribly trapped in this never ending cycle of choice,i have no answers and wouldnt offer any, and i certainly would never judge,i just wish you well x

Anonymous said...

i live in australia and heroin is expensive here no greater then any other drug compared to meth or cocaine. heroin can get expensive i use 200 dollars a day and some days i use up to 450 dollars a day but 450 dollars will get you about a gram. so i say i could use up to 1000 dollars a day but that i cant afford!

Anonymous said...

My 21 yr old daughter has been using heroin for 3 years. She has been in rehab 4 times and in jail twice. She has stole money or things from every relative of ours. She has been to the ER twice for overdosing. She was clean for the last 3 months because she had to drug test twice a week to stay out of jail. I just found out she is using again. I dont know what to do anymore..I dont know what to say....

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey Anon (21yr old daughter)...

It's hard, I know, and the sad truth is there isn't anything you can do. Nothing is your fault... there's no single reason someone turns to heroin. X

Anonymous said...

Myth- Heroin users only hurt themselves. How bout you ask your wife, children, friends, etc how they feel everytime you come down off the shit, lying, manipulating, quite OBVIOUSLY living in some delusional world, and raging violently taking your shit out on those around you, without explanation, and then shooting up and then pretending none of it happened and things are fine...forcing those that care about you to deal with your addiction, YOUR problem.. show me a doper thats conscientious, kind, considerate, thoughtful of others, quiet, minds his own business (not the same as selfish detachment from the world) cares about peoples feelings as much as they care for their dopers health and wellbeing.

ask the people that care about you how they feel living with a ghost, a vampire, a shadow?

dont justify HEROIN by pointing out addictions in others. dopers love to talk about glass houses, when they can never see themselves in the mirror. HEROIN in particular is a soul stealing, emotion repressing, -like why dont you willingly open yourself up to be possessed by the negative energies in these worlds, or be raped by demons and the absolute most desperate and enslaving entities? (symbolically speaking) DOPE is a narcissistic CHOICE.

why is sex even mentioned along with dope? it should be "lack thereof". What doper appreciates their lives enough to fully enjoy sex? heroin has NOTHING to do with the sacred act of creation, of bonding. If you have any form of what you think is sex, i am thoroughly amazed that anyone can place themselves in a situation that takes trust, solely for ulterior purposes.

it boils down to survival of the fittest, i suppose. i truly believe in choice. heroin is the stupidest substance (including coke, hard liquor and general ignorance) - i guess we need delineations in humanity, we have survivors, and we have escapers.

btw- no offense, thanks for letting me rant- hope you see the light one day.
peace

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Anon, i've only read the first two lines of your commentand immediately tagged you as a sad arse bitter piece of shit.

Seems you've had a bad experience, lol.... and now can't distinguish between subjective and objective reality. You bitter fuck... grow up. I'd rather be a smack head than a fool anyday.... at least the chance is mine... you was born as you are and can't change a thing.

Get a life you fuckwit. X

Art said...

I am wondering about the nature of addiction and based on my own experiences I do not buy your explanation which is centered on withdrawal sickness.

I have been taking various substances for decades without ever becoming addicted. Not that I never form a habit or a physiological dependency.
From time to time I do. But whenever the substance starts interfering with my life, giving it up (at least temporarily) is an objious and easy choice.

With heroin after several months of daily use it stops being pleasurable. At some point you start waking up sick every morning. You no longer take it
to feel good but rather to stop the pain. Loss of motivation and bad sleep habits make it difficult to hold a job, and without a good job sustaining
this habit is a daily challenge. For most it must be a miserable life which is probably why you say most junkies want to quit but can't.

The question is why can't they?

You seem to say it is the pain of withdrawal and I find this hard to believe.
I know what withdrawals feel like. It is a painful but short sickness that really does not require a heroic effort to endure.
Besides I am sure that from time to time every junkie is forced to abstain due to circumstances for several days or perhaps even full week or more.
Therefore I don't see how withdrawal pain can be the reason.

Another possibility is that heroin makes them feel so good that it is worth the heavy price - that to them miserable life on heroin is rationally
preferable to a regular life without it. That's what I would like to believe. The problem is that as I have already explained after a while heroin
no longer makes you feel good.

Hence the puzzle.

Thoughts???

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Art, I don't know what bollocks you've read or how your mind has interpreted the words your eyes have seen but I've never said or hinted that addiction is centered on withdrawal symptoms.

Also, if you come here, amongst real long term addicts, don't come with the bullshit that you've ever experienced addiction to this drug... your words and ideas betray you and that'd be obvious to any heroin addict reading the crap you'e written. You are trying to talk about heroin addiction based on your recreational experiences with various other substances.... and no other drug has anything in common with hroin dependency. You're like the arsehole who drinks and then thinks he can relate every other addiction to that of alcohol... that the substances a&re different but the pulls and strains on the body are still the same. You may not realize how naive your comment is, but it's very very clear you have never experienced the ills of heroin withdrawal. You're a fraud and your words betray your extremely limited experience. Take the lesson: don't open your mouth when you don't know or have no experience off what you're talking about. And sure, you'll now be on the defensive, goping out your mind to try and somehow prove you have experience with heroin, but your words are too damning and I'm sure you are so naive you will not even understand what gives you away. I won't tell you... but I'll tell you it is obvious throughout the entirety of your comment.

You also seem to think you can judge how heroin makes evry addict feel based on how you claim (lie) it made you feel. Do you realize how narrowminded that is? Projecting your own experiences onto every other addicted and believing it as an absolute truth. I suggest you go away and forget the nonsense you've asked here today as you've done nothing but show yourself up as a complete and utter arsewipe.

There's my thoughts. There is no puzzle... at least not the puzzle you imagine. Read very carefully what you've written... you keep slipping into the third person and talking not of what you've experienced but of what you claim other addicts may experience. Your idea that heroin somehow makes people feel fantastic isq also false and again shows you've rarely (if at all) touched this drug. You're repeating things you've heard or read about... repeating commonly held myths which most junkies would never entertain as anywhere near the truth. That you seem to believe them says you've not the personal experience to know better. I cannot answer your naive questions... and just the idea on which they're based, that I've somewhere said the pain of withdrawal is responsible for continued addiction is absolute nonsense your side. Read with your eyes open in future, and maybe keep your words for things you know at least a little of.

With no respect for you at all, Shane. X

Anonymous said...

Dear HH,

I came across your blog while looking for answers that aren't ever there. Your poetic yet straight-forward articulation on this confounding drug drew me in and kept me reading. I am not an addict, but everyone has some form of addiction in one way or another. For instance, I must shower twice a day or life feels sideways. Call it whatever. But I am a mother of a young addict. We live in an affluent community. The profile of a heroin addict is rapidly changing. Heroin is used now by entitled urbanites and getting younger and younger as the drug is cheaper than weed. Here in Southern California anyway. It caused him to drop out of his first year in college. We didn't know what was happening until the police called. Fast-forward 3 years, and he's now 20 and in his 3rd rehab. I don't know if he's done with the drug scene yet. He certainly is tired of having nothing to his name, and having the police on his tail. Heroin took his friends, his school, his value system. Heroin destroyed for a time our family.

This is what prompted me to write. Don't be so hard on the writers who are angry about the addict. It is not a problem confined to only the addict. Where there is love, there is pain. It makes me violently ill to see my son on dope. There are many functional addicts, but the ones who aren't, the drug takes everything. From a happy, fresh-faced, very smart kid to a dirty, 110 lbs, sickly guy with blackened fingers, mindlessly swaying to some inner music in his head. And then he pours out his heart because the drug takes the anxiety away. But come the light of day, he is sullen, angry, and blames the world for his plight. Wants a job, can't get one. Yes, he's still smart, and articulate on dope, but he can't get out of his dreamworld to make life happen. It is unbelievably painful to watch, and we watched and suffered and loved him still. Not always without anger.

I hope this time he can make the leap to freedom. And I thought about your point on using as a choice. What if there's no stigma, no illegality, no monetary barrier to using heroin? If you can chip and still have a normal life, then I say, that's not so bad. But most can't. And for those with ruined lives, the hurt expands to others who love them. And it is a dreadful pain to bear. And we, who don't use, do not have the solace of this soul-stealing magic.

Peace be with you, dear Shane. No judgment here. Only good wishes for the rest of your life. And thank you for the blog.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey anon... So as I can reply with thé respect your comment deserves you'll have to bear with me a day or two. YOU can subscribe to thé comments for the post and you should receive my reply to your email.

All my best, Shane. X

Anonymous said...

I like how you put an x after your name. I became friends with an addict a little less than a year ago, x and o seemed to come to mind after texting or journaling about or to him. I think of him being x and myself o, but I'm sure it can go both ways. Anyway, I like all the blogs, though you to me seem to be the brightest star, though just my opinion for the moment. I've had experience with H, and visited this site to review my experience. it's been very helpful as I now have special interests to H addiction. I am not using currently but of course have interests, though my experience seemed to cover allot of what I've read and I may be content with what I already know. I harshly and pleasently enjoyed my on and off experience for the seemingly long time it lasted (6 Months), and it is listed up there in dramatic times. I cant speak much for my friend, but I think that I got a pretty accurate bittersweet taste. Part of me would like to join the club for keeps (better or worse) but
that depends on destiny. All I know is that after my experience I will always have a special interest that relates to H, obviously a passionate thing to many. As I say, "it just is". I never thought I'd be lucky or cursed enough to get the chance at this experience, my fiend you see,,, he's an x, not quite like you, but enough to have taught me some things I wanted to learn. Your memoires. Thank you for your thoughtfully emotionally awesome human findings and proceedings. with care.
love, Joe. o

Anonymous said...

My son is a heroin addict of 10 years. 45 minutes ago he jumped out of a moving car after violent behavior upon the people taking him to a new hospital (he was kicked out of one today for being violent and screaming for heroin). there is the normal person and then there is the monster. Don't believe these myths/truths

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anon05 said...

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Shane Levene said...

Who the hell is 'me'? Please don't let it be Jesus this far into my descent! X

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

Hallo Shane, read this looking for info on heroin addiction. Good friend in trouble with addiction - to the point of sexual favours to score. Strangely this act itself does not bother me in itself - it is the total lack of boundaries that i find most concerning. From houseproud mum to miserable old hag in under a year. Belongings gone - either pawned or stolen by her ratfaced "friends".
When i see her, she talks the same stuff from years ago, over & over, regurgitating incidents that really dont matter now - to reinforce her need to "use".
The other day i answered one of her repetitive rhetorical questions "why is my life so shit?" with a simple "because you are injecting shit into yourself".
And incurred such wrath, that i am now wondering if/why i care.
How dare i criticise The Drug. How could i possibly know how she feels or why she does it? I try to understand. But with an addiction to H, there is no attempt on her part to even try to understand my feelings, as i watch her destroy herself & turn from her present passive/aggressive norm into someone really quite nasty.
On the outside looking in, a horrible situation. And a horrible, horrible drug.
Take care, Harry.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Hey Harry, even though I dispel myths here I also tell the truth and the picture you paint I have seen myself and freely admit heroin addiction can easily descend into such a state. It's very difficult, I know, looking in I mean. In fact it's probably more frustrating for you watching that with a logical head and without her problems than it is for her. You must ask yourself though: what has gone wrong with a person to have them descend so low and rather continue doing it than face their life? Because that's the real problem, and it's a hint that maybe there is some very dark and terrible trauma below. You know as well, often manically repeating oneself is a way never to have to think and face TODAY... it's a way to keep focussed on yesterday so as you remain blind to here you are just now. It's not an intentional behaviour either, and i'm quite sure she's even unaware she does it.

I think no drug is 'horrible'. A drug is just an inanimate powder or liquid from some plant or other and is neither good or evil. It doesn't get into the body on its own accord but is administered. So we must avoid putting the blame on the drug: addicts do that. They curse the drug as if it's the drugs fault, but that is just a way to escape blame for our own actions. In a way, when you damn the drug you are defending your friend and allowing her to believe more this is something out of her control. Also heroin is a very useful drug, not horrible at all.... just ask a terminally ill cancer patient being drip fed it in hospital or a soldier with his leg off from a mine explosion. It's a very strong and useful painkiller.

Te thing is Harry, and I know it'll be difficult to accept, there's just nothing you or anyone can do to help an addict. No matter how much love or care there is. There's no point arguing;... no point being logical.... no point trying to convince someone to get clean.... no point getting frustrated or angry, even. only thing you can do, as a friend, is just be there (even at a distance if you have been robbed/abused by this person or cannot lend money, etc) and the day she comes to you herself and says she's getting clean, and it's totally her decision and she's serious, to support her then. Any support outside of that moment will be a waste of your time anyhow. Yes, theres a chance she'll be dead before she ever gets herself together enough to want to get clean, but even if that happens her addiction is so far out of your control that you'd never have changed that outcome no matter what help you'd have given her.

Harry, your saving grace must be in knowing that even though you are helpless to do anything you honestly would if you could and your desire for her well-being and that she gets better and heals is a sincere and honest one , and that outside of anything else you remained a friend and was loyal to yourself in only wanting her to be well. .And if the worst should ever happen you will have that and know your love was sincere and will not have to go through any guilt complex such a tragedy may try to push your way.

All My Thoughts and Wishes, Shane. X

Anonymous said...

Thanks Shane, good advice - step back. You are right, there is nothing I can say or do, in fact the more I see (& then have an opinion on), the more she will rebel anyway ! So, yes, detached with love it will be, at least until the next drama.
I take your point about H not being the problem; my anger should actually be directed towards the low level street grade stuff she is injecting - however many hands this passes through before she gets it, i do not know, each time adding some extra shit - in fact the worst times are when she has spent all her money & never got high ! Man, that makes for some tedious listening ! I kind of agree that a purer drug wouldnt cause as many problems, goodness knows how much brick dust she been getting through !
Thanks again Shane & all the very best, Harry.

Anonymous said...


Hi Shane,
I've read your blog and there are few things I wanna point out. My partner is a heroin addict, he's been in and out of prison since he was 16 yrs old. I've met him just after he was released from prison. Okay, yes, heroin addicts are not violent at all like what others perceived, even if he doesn't get the fix. For hygiene thingy, he actually showers more than thrice a day because he said that it's really making him sweat. He brushes his teeth every after he smokes heroin. He doesn't want to inject because he is afraid to contract diseases, so not all heroin addicts are mental... they still think about what will become of their bodies and health it's just that they are dependent on the drug. I am not tolerating him since he can not find a decent job, but for me it is his choice to quit the habit of his. It is no use if I force him to quit. I am not tolerant about his drug habit but I know someday he will try to quit again... for the nth time... and be successful... well, i just to point out that NOT ALL HEROIN ADDICTS are bad people as most of non users perceived.

Anonymous said...


Hi Shane,
I've read your blog and there are few things I wanna point out. My partner is a heroin addict, he's been in and out of prison since he was 16 yrs old and now he is 41 yrs old can you imagine how long he's been using? I've met him just after he was released from prison his latest. Okay, yes, heroin addicts are not violent at all like what others perceived, even if he doesn't get the fix. For hygiene thingy, he actually showers more than thrice a day because he said that it's really making him sweat. He brushes his teeth every after he smokes heroin. He doesn't want to inject because he is afraid to contract diseases, so not all heroin addicts are mental... they still think about what will become of their bodies and health it's just that they are dependent on the drug. I am not tolerating him since he can not find a decent job, but for me it is his choice to quit the habit of his. It is no use if I force him to quit. I am not tolerant about his drug habit but I know someday he will try to quit again... for the nth time... and be successful... well, i just to point out that NOT ALL HEROIN ADDICTS are bad people as most of non users perceived. Just to add more, he doesn't have the typical addict look you see in the movies, he is actually fit, very fit. He doesn't steal just to get his fix, but he will find a way to get money by selling the stuffs to other addicts, which is really scary for me and our child. From where we were, If he get caught selling, his sentence will be death penalty. I know that drugs is stealing his life away, but still I got no choice I couldn't just leave him alone he will get deeper into drugs. Addicts needs our support and not our judgement and I think the society should know that.

Anonymous said...

"Shovelling bricks or waiting tables or cleaning toilets 9 hours a day is also a waste of life."

I clean toilets. I wait tables. My life is not wasted. I make others more comfortable and well fed. It pleases me to know the world is better because I make it better. On purpose. From choice.

You are not a good man to choose to steal your grandmothers eyeballs. Even if you give them back later. Nobody believes that.

My daughter had her morphine stolen after surgery by morphine addict nurse. This is devil. Not human. Devil. Deliver us from evil. And heroin addicted. Same.






Shane Levene said...

Anon.... you're obviously severely mentally retarded. That's about as polite about it as I can be. I hope your faith serves you well through the tragedy of your life. X

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Anonymous said...

My beautiful 29 year son who is the apple of my eye is lost and ruined through not just heroin but every substance he can lay his hands on, I have loved and supported him every day of his life and continue to stick with him even now because I cherish every moment I spend with him in case it is my last, I know I can't make him stop, but I pray and pray every day for a change in his heart that will make him find peace.....it's hard watching your loved ones slip away but I accept that sometimes the pain inside is just too much ......big love and many genuine blessings to you all today who struggle and long for peace ��

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Thank you Dr Ativie you are the best spell caster that i have ever seen in my life the spell you casted for me have work very perfectly my ex gorlfriend who live me for over 3week now is back and apologizing for me to come back to him that she is very sorry for the pain she cost me and i am so happy. Doctor your spell is nice and make me fill alive again i will keep sharing you good work all over the world about the good spell you cast for me to get Annabella back and i will also give your email address to everybody who is in need of help like you told me that you can cast a spell to bring ex back, Money spell, Protection spell, lotto spell, Good job spell, pregnant spell, Love spell, and many other spell you told me you can cast for me if i need them i hope you will find a place to help other so they can give testimonies like me Doctor Ativie please help others many people are having problem try to get help from people but they is nobody like you to help them solve there problem like you do Dr Ativie if anyone need the help of this nice man contact him via this email ativiehealingspellhome@gmail.com best regards to Dr your child Frank Silver from usa

melisa said...

I thought it was the best for me until I realize that I was destroying myself and my future I took it as if it was some thing that is part of me. i was enjoying it that was what I thought little did I know that I was killing myself. Drug that is the general name for it but it has it brand depending on the one which suit you, i have been taken it for the past 7 years and I thought I was in control of it until I started behaving unusual. I was refer to rehab center after some while I found out that I was not getting better so I have to look for solution else where. That was how I was introduced to Dr Alaska when I meant with him I told him all my problems and he just advice me that all was going to be well I thought it was a joke. After treating me and telling what to do I was fine I could feel it both in my body and in my heart. What I thought was impossible became possible that is why I have took some time out today to say thank you to him for all his help. He is a simple man you can reach him on dralaskajohn@gmail.com or you can call him +2348169591194

Laura said...

Hey Shane,

Very interesting and true article you wrote.. really enjoyed it.. but really confused about the logging on 10 times bit can you explain that bit to me =)

Thanks,
Laura

Anonymous said...

Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name shannon i live in United State,and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring husband,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my husband so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce he said that he never wanted to stay with me again,and that he did not love me anymore So he packed out of the house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get him back,after much begging,but all to no avail and he confirmed it that he has made his decision,and he never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my husband So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my husband back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(drakugbespellhome@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my husband back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my husband who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that he was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how he came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website {drakugbespellhome@gmail.com},i f you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to "bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Ukaka for bringing back my husband,and brought great joy to my family once again.(drakugbespellhome@gmail.com}, Thank you once again dr ukaka for your help, you can contact him for your own help

Anonymous said...

Hello to every one out here, am here to share the unexpected miracle that happened to me three days ago, My name shannon i live in United State,and I`m happily married to a lovely and caring husband,with two kids A very big problem occurred in my family seven months ago,between me and my husband so terrible that she took the case to court for a divorce he said that he never wanted to stay with me again,and that he did not love me anymore So he packed out of the house and made me and my children passed through severe pain. I tried all my possible means to get him back,after much begging,but all to no avail and he confirmed it that he has made his decision,and he never wanted to see me again. So on one evening,as i was coming back from work,i met an old friend of mine who asked of my husband So i explained every thing to her,so she told me that the only way i can get my husband back,is to visit a spell caster,because it has really worked for her too So i never believed in spell,but i had no other choice,than to follow her advice. Then she gave me the email address of the spell caster whom she visited.(drakugbespellhome@gmail.com}, So the next morning,i sent a mail to the address she gave to me,and the spell caster assured me that i will get my husband back the next day what an amazing statement!! I never believed,so he spoke with me,and told me everything that i need to do. Then the next morning, So surprisingly, my husband who did not call me for the past seven {7}months,gave me a call to inform me that he was coming back So Amazing!! So that was how he came back that same day,with lots of love and joy,and she apologized for her mistake,and for the pain she caused me and my children. Then from that day,our relationship was now stronger than how it were before,by the help of a spell caster . So, i will advice you out there to kindly visit the same website {drakugbespellhome@gmail.com},i f you are in any condition like this,or you have any problem related to "bringing your ex back. So thanks to Dr Ukaka for bringing back my husband,and brought great joy to my family once again.(drakugbespellhome@gmail.com}, Thank you once again dr ukaka for your help, you can contact him for your own help

Claudia said...

Dear Shane,

I've spent the last two days reading your blog. It is amazing! And I think you are an amazing person!

I would like to share my view with you and your readers. Please let me know if you think I am not right.

I think that there are some things people don't understand about addiction in general.

First, by the time you become addicted your brain changes, you become somebody else. You become somebody that in order to function properly you need something more than you needed before.

Everything feels so physical because it is biologically hardwired in your brain. Telling somebody to give up is like telling somebody to hold their breath after they ran out of oxygen. Everything in your body struggles to survive.

That particular substance is seen by your new brain as indispensable for surviving, and in a way it actually is.

Second, the importance of reward for all social human beings plays a really big role in the psychological addiction and relapse.

In order to even considering going back to your old you, you need to be able to find reward somewhere else, which, in my opinion, I think is the biggest challenge.

Take care,
Claudia.o

Anonymous said...

Shane,

I am on day 17 of Heroin detox... Alongside my partner... We got into it because we are (like every other New Yorker) stressed out recreational party favor users... It is unfortunately SO common that I have even had drug discussions with my BOSS... One of his friends brought H a year ago to our home and although I BEGGED that we NOT even try it (because I had hear it was So addictive) he still did and I went along... Snorting that is.... It was the MOTHERLOAD! We drank no booze to unwind after out 12hr typical work day, we passed out like babies AND we were cuddly and more emotionally connected than EVER in 4yrs.... AND we woke up at 7am w no hangover.... THE ONLY ISSUE I HAVE W YOUR BLOG is that I disagree it takes weeks to create a dependency.... I strongly believe it took us THREE days... We stupidly did NO research on it and did it three days in a row (again because it seemed to be the HEALTHIEST of the drugs/alcohol we had ever done to unwind) and on day four we started feeling the pain and HOLY FUCK?! WHAT DID WE DO!!!! Now had we stopped right then and there we would have probably just had bad aches foe a few days and that's all but we kept doing it to cure the pain and cause we wanted to sleep and be cuddly (what a fucking dumb idea! Sex was completely unsuccessful on top!)
I do NOT want to come across as a righteous, judgmental or obnoxious person.... I am in the clear from opiates... but my partner isn't and the toll has been TERRIBLE and even though we only snorted it as you know very well (although YES HEROIN IS A TOTALLY DIFF DRUG AND ANYONE WHO DARES TRYING TO RELATE IS FULL OF IT) the actual drug is not the issue once you pass the physical withdrawal side effects/pain, it's the ROOT of the issue.... What are we trying to mask? Running away from? My POINT is I would HATE for some experimental FOOL to read this blog and think he can run off to try Heroin in ANY form and that he will be able to control it and end up where we all have... I consider BOTH of us STRONG people! Both successful, highly educated, strong family backgrounds, both fit and blessed w great looks and could have ANYONE we wanted (sorry if I around arrogant but trying to make a point)We live a SEVEN figure life and live in probably the BEST building in one of the best hoods in Manhattan.... We HAVE/HAD it ALL!!!! AND MY POINT IS - Heroin TOOK OVER OUR LIVES.... I am a beautiful woman and I have not left my flat in months or put a nice dress on or a pair of heels; not to mention my SEXY HANDSOME bf hasn't as much as french kissed me in over a month.... HEROIN IS NO JOKE!!! It kills you from the inside out... I am sorry if I went overboard but I felt VERY strongly that your point about how long it takes to get addicted could mislead some CURIOUS moron and RUIN heir life so thought it was worth mentioning and even am begging you to perhaps edit it because it truly does sound like something that would give a curious mind reassurance to TRY it and you and I both know how that ends.... Otherwise I appreciate your writing and again please I mean no disrespect just PURE and honest concern for those out there that still have a chance to NOT get into this HELLISH DARK PIT! Love & Light and blessings and strength to you ALL!!! THERE IS A LIFE WORTH LIVING AND YOU CAN COME OUT THE OTHER END SUCCESSFUL! AND WE ARE ALL WORTHY OF A BEAUTIFUL HEALTHY LIFE!!!!

NYC GAL said...

Just something I wrote

Just took 3/4 bag of heroin and 30mg Oxy about 60 sec ago. Amazing the power this stuff has over our body and mind. In a diff person already. Unbelievable. To think it is all derived from something God put on this earth NATURALLY. It's mother natures course of maintaining us in balance. Something or someone had to be powerful enough to kill man. Every plant and animal has its predator and the only predator he created that could take over man was man himself but then man created the law and there was no longer the ability for us to naturally maintain an organic balance. Aren't we overpopulated? That HAS to be a major design flaw.... Unless the plan all along was that man would discover these hidden little tests that he left for us. To temp and see if we were weak and flawed enough to not learn to make the right choice from he beginning OR maybe it was part of his master plan. He was expecting us to find these tiny little harmless looking beings that he too created to coexist with and amongst us and he knew that we would be curious enough to try them and that either our uncontrollable carnal desires and lack of moral control or our hunger for power and our constant arrogant need for owning our own creative entitlements would drive us to test these little innocent appearing wonderful neighbor pleasuring plants and turn them into something so small yet so powerfully toxic that it would destroy man himself. We are so hungry for power that we push and push, we prey on each others desires and insecurities and we KILL our own kind. Isn't that the biggest joke of all times? We are his biggest accomplishment or his biggest shameful failure. A being so strong yet so weak that we search through the farthest most imaginable regions of the earth to find the smallest most innocent looking cohabitants only to engorge our egos and to feed our carnal pleasures. To fill our mental and spiritual voids and deficiencies and to ultimately destroy our own kind making us in essence the smartest and biggest carnivore of all of his creatures.

Anonymous said...

I never tried heroin thank God. I am certain I would have become addicted very rapidly. That is my personality type. Unfortunately I'm afraid someone in my life is doing it. He has become very desperate for money, his looks have changed dramatically (bloated) He may have been doing this for a while, but his funds ran out. He stole a large amount of money from me. It is very sad, and I haven't a clue what to do.

Anonymous said...

who ever is reading this testimony today should please celebrate with me and my family because it all started like a joke to some people and others said it was impossible. my name is Michael i live in Chicago i am happily married with two kids and a lovely wife something terrible happen to my family along the line, i lost my job and my wife packed out of my house because i was unable to take care of her and my kids at that particular time. i manage all through five years, no wife to support me to take care of the children and there come a faithful day that i will never forget in my life i met an old friend who i explain all my difficulties to, and he took me to a spell caster and and the name of the temple is called, DR Okundonor, i was assure that everything will be fine and my wife will come back to me after the wonderful work of Dr Okundonorgreatspell, my wife came back to me and today i am one of the richest man in my country. i advice you if you have any problem email him with this email: dr.okundonorgreatspell@gmail.com and you will have the best result. take things for granted and it will be take from you. i wish you all the best.

Contact:( dr.okundonorgreatspell@gmail.com), or call he with this phone number, +2348137828640

Jim said...

I agree with what you said about most heroin addicts WANTING to live instead of die or live a life of misery due to "treatment resistant" depression, horrific past trauma, etc. I would rather live a shorter peaceful life than a long miserable one. Who would want to "clean up" just to go back to a living hell ? I noticed the ones who find other legal treatment or meds like to get all high and mighty with the it worked for me it should work for you bullshit. Well it didn't work for me and I will continue to go with what does. No apologies here.

Patent Agent said...

Lots of misconceptions being re evaluated here, and it's incredibly important that you're doing it! It's especially interesting to hear that 'Heroin chic' is purely a media invention!

Sevda Gulea said...

Have been all over looking for solution to my Marriage until i tried out the internet, I found Dr. Zexta Gio whom people talked about and shared good testimonies about him, My Husband has decide to leave our marriage, because he said he can't stand my mom, But i love my Husband so much that i can let him leave after 8years of marriage. So the Dr. Zexta Gio did changed the whole problems and issue to testimony, He did a spell to calm and reconcile my mom and my Husband and then carryout a spell to make my husband love me more and remain in our marriage. I saw results after 2days and to be frank and sincere, this Dr. Zexta Gio is a God sent. My family is as peaceful and lovely as i asked for. I'm grateful friends in case you need the help of Dr. Zexta Gio kindly mail him on (airehobhuanuagbontemple@yahoo.com). Sir, i will forever recommend you all over the world.

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taking my medications buy I was not myself. Until last two weeks. My friend came to me and told me that he saw

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"seen is believing" I took his name and searched it on GOOGLE, I saw many testimonies myself. Quickly, I copied

his email dr.zakiherbalhome@gmail.com I emailed him, he gave me a form to fill which I did, then he called me and

told me that his gods required some items in which he will use in casting a curing spell on me. And di told him

to get the listed items needed to prepare my cure because by then i have little faith in him, few hours later he

called me and told me he is through preparing the cure. so he send it to me I got my parcel, it was a herbal cure

as described by Dr. Zaki. I took the herbal cure and after taking it for a week and some days. He told me to go

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Anonymous said...

I'm Davis brown from USA. My wife left me for no reason on 13th of June 2010. She moved in with another man, I felt like killing myself and I've tried so many spell casters but all to no avail. My life was very bitter and sorrowful. Then one day, a friend of mine told me about this spell caster called DR OGBIDI who helped her on her own situation when her husband left her. But at first i didn't believe it because i' have tested so many of them and it didn't work. she begged me further so I decided to try this spell caster called DR OGBIDI . I contacted him and i told him my problems and gave him all the necessary information he required. He just laughed and told me never to worry that my WIFE will call me back in less than two days and i believed, and after he has finished casting the spell my WIFE called me and started begging. She apologized and came back to me crying for a second chance. Today i and my wife and my two lovely kids are living happily like never before. I can really say that this spell caster is powerful because of his work my wife is home again. I'm now a very happy man and ever since she has shown me love like never before. Thank you DR OGBIDI I will forever be grateful to you. You can reach him on his email:
drogbidisolutionhome@gmail. com or drogbidisolutionhome@yahoo.com he will solve any problem you are facing now. Just contact him and see his work. once again thank you DR OGBIDI

mrs linda wilson said...


I'm Linda Wilson from usa. My husband left me for no reason on 13th of June 2010. He moved in with another woman, I felt like killing myself and I've tried so many spell casters but all to no avail.You can reach him on hisemail:rivertemplekingdom@gmail.com My life was very bitter and sorrowful. Then one day, a friend of mine told me about this spell caster called Great Aliyu who helped her on her own situation when her husband left her. But at first i didn't believe it because i've tested so many of them and it didn't work. she begged me further so I decided to try this spell caster called Great Aliyu. I contacted him and i told him my problems and gave him all the necessary information he required. He just laughed and told me never to worry that my husband will call me back in less than 6 days and i believed with faith, and after he has finished casting the spell my husband called me and started begging. He apologized and came back to me crying for a second chance. Today i and my husband live happily like never before. I can really say that this spell caster is powerful because of his work my husband is home again. I'm now a very happy woman and ever since he has shown me love like never before. Thank you Great Aliyu I will forever be grateful to you. You can reach him on his email: rivertemplekingdom@gmail.com he will solve any problem you are facing now. Just contact him and see his work. once again thank you Great Aliyu.

SpockEaredIdiot said...

I am an actor, in New York City, so heroin addicts have been on my radar, but never in my life. Many of my mother's cousins were addicts are died from their disease, or caught something worse besides which killed them.
Last year, a friend I was performing in Rocky Horror with introduced me to a friend of his from his old cast, on the West Coast.
After about four days of sneering at each other, we realized we actually really enjoyed each other's company. We had to go back to our respective coasts, of course, but we remained in contact through text / phone / Skype. I've been looking to leave New York, the city has a lot of personal tragedy for me and I'm looking to act, not get famous. I have awards and accomplishment and have toured my other work, I'd be happy to get a teaching job and remain acting on a smaller scale. She really wants me to come out there. I'm not the type who gets involved too immediately, I'd never move across the country for a relationship that will likely fall through. But since I'm looking around, I agreed to go visit her. Truth be told, I could no longer stand to put off seeing her again. Until I discovered that in the wake of falling out with the guy she had been living with, she started taking to some of her more self destructive habits. Yes, I'm talking about the "horn drug."
I'm grateful to her for being honest with me. I wish this relapse hadn't happened, but she's promised multiple times that for the one week I'm out there, she will do her best to abstain from using. She also knows that I understand what addiction is, and wouldn't fault her if she slipped, but that I personally just do not want to partake. Ever. I've told her that if she gets sharey I'm going to a hotel, and flying back ASAP. She says that won't be a problem. She also says she has been known to go off for months at a time, even did a year once. She says she doesn't like to subject people to physically being around her when she's high. Says she wants me to have a good time out there. I know that much is true, because she's put effort into planning my vacation. She even pulled strings with her cast to move the show date so I could see it.
And that's the thing, is so far she's been one of the most conscientious, considerate, and compassionate people I've known. She's talked me through a lot of really difficult times, when she could have just as easily let me slip from her life.
Like I've said, I appreciate the effort to give me a great trip. I appreciate the honesty, and the fact that I didn't even have to ask before she promised to abstain while I was there-- I would only have ever asked her not to share with me. I know that if she crosses that line, I will stick by my ultimatum. It makes it easier that I'd be leaving within the week anyway, nothing to sell my soul for. I intend to ask to get tested together should we decide that getting intimate is more than just banter. And I do that with every partner, regardless of the added risk. I'm a pansexual male, we carry fucking everything.
Are there other percautions I'd need to take? Aside from not packing anything she could sell for a hefty sum?
I want to believe that the girl I've been talking to all this time, who was introduced to me by a friend as someone who used to take care of him, really has the beautiful heart I've sensed in all our interactions. I'm open to being wrong.
My main questions are: If she says she's frequently capable of going off for months at a time, and that she WILL stay clean while I'm there
Can I trust her to, even if addiction takes hold, attempt to keep it away from me so as to not break her word and send me running?
Are there users who aren't addicted on a daily dependence scale?
What else should I watch out for, just in case I am wrong about her?
I want to be prepared, because I like everything else about her so much I don't want to let myself be blind.

Anonymous said...

Hi Shane,
I've noticed that anybody who does not have the same opinion as you is immediately called some sort of name or criticized. I am not judging but that is not right and I think you should try and help yourself and get some help. Cleaning toilets and waiting tables is an honest way to earn a living and I think you would do well to try it instead of comparing it to taking heroin. You are in complete denial and it's time people stopped pussyfooting around you and told you the truth.

Shane Levene said...

Anonymous, help with what? I don't understand??? I chose to take heroin and if i didn't want to for whatever reason, I wouldn't need 'help'... I'd just stop. You'll be trying to sell me Jesus next. So with all your fake insight into me you'll be able to easily predict my next line:

Suxk my cock or fuck off... but you can't do both! X

Shane Levene said...
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Shane Levene said...
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Shane Levene said...

Spockearedidiot: if you're not the same idiot who wants to sell me sobriety then email me and i'll give you a response there:

myheroinhead@gmail.com

X

Unknown said...

I want to share a testimony on how a spell caster (OGUN LOVE SPELL IS THE BEST) helped me in getting my EX lover back, I was married to him in 2005, ever since then I was living happily with him, but everything changed when I was unable bare him a child, so last year January I was sent out packing from his home, I went out from his house, I was in great pain, I looked worried, coz I loved him so much, I told my friend about whats going on, she introduced me to the great spell caster (ogun love spell), she gave me his email, I emailed him, he asked me to buy some items faithfully I did all he asked of me. He told me not to bother, that Im going to bear him children immediately he comes back to me, two days later my Husband came with his friends and started begging for forgiveness, and asked me to come back home, I forgive him, I went back to him, luckily I was pregnant, here I am today am now a mother, I gave birth to a set of twins, a boy and a girl, and we are living happily, DR.Ogun thank you very much, if you are passing through any hardship and you are looking for break through kindly email Dr ogun on ogunlovespelltemple@gmail.com, greatsolomonalter@outlook.com call him via +2347032286452

Unknown said...


I am Jung, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.SUNSHINE for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.SUNSHINE released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.SUNSHINE for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. sunshinspellhome@gmail.com that is his email address bye

Unknown said...


I am Jung, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank DR.SUNSHINE for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in two days after the spell has been cast. Three days later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 6 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. DR.SUNSHINE released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I`m writing this testimony right now I`m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my boyfriend is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that`s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to DR.SUNSHINE for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in any situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. sunshinspellhome@gmail.com that is his email address bye

Unknown said...

After being in relationship with emma for seven years,he broke up with me, I did everything possible to bring him back but all was in vain, I wanted him back so much because of the love I have for him, I begged him with everything, I made promises but he refused. I explained my problem to someone online and she suggested that I should rather contact a spell caster that could help me cast a spell to bring him back but I am the type that never believed in spell, I had no choice than to try it, I mailed the spell caster, and he told me there was no problem that everything will be okay before three days, that my ex will return to me before three days, he cast the spell and surprisingly in the second day, it was around 4pm. My ex called me, I was so surprised, I answered the call and all he said was that he was so sorry for everything that happened, that he wanted me to return to him, that he loves me so much. I was so happy and went to him, that was how we started living together happily again. Since then, I have made promise that anybody I know that have a relationship problem, I would be of help to such person by referring him or her to the only real and powerful spell caster who helped me with my own problem and who is different from all the fake ones out there. Anybody could need the help of the spell caster, his email: drobehiinegbedionspellhome@gmail.com you can email him if you need his assistance in your relationship or anything. CAN NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT YOU SIR HIS EMAIL
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Unknown said...

My name is johnsonl morgan, I am From U S A. I
wish to share my testimonies with the general public about
what this man called Dr okougbo has just done for me , this man
has just brought back my lost Ex husband to me with his great
spell, I was married to this man called Steven we were together
for a long time and we loved each order but when I was unable
to give him a child for 2 years he left me and told me he can’t
continue anymore then I was now looking for ways to get him
back until a friend of mine told me about this man and gave
his contact email drokougbospellcasterhome@gmail.com, then you wont
believe this, when I contacted this man on my problems he
prepared this spell cast and bring my lost husband back, and
after a month I miss my month and go for a test and the result
stated am pregnant am happy
today am a mother of a baby boy, thank you once again Dr
Okougbo for what you have done for me, if you are out there
passing through any of this problems listed below contact him
today drokougbospellcasterhome@gmail.com
1) If you want your ex back.
(2) if you always have bad dreams.
(3) You want to be promoted in your office.
(4) You want women/men to run after you.
(5) If you want a child.
(6) You want to be rich.
(7) You want to tie your husband/wife to be
yours forever.

(8) If you need financial assistance.
(9) total cure of HIV and AIDS
(10) total cure of breath cancer

Anonymous said...

I hope you are still seeing comments. Looks like you may have been spam hacked.
as an actual real person..I wanted to express my gratitude at finding this page today. Not just the blog post..but a few comments really resonate with me. Especially your admitting you have chosen your life....And being proud in defending the reality of your experiences. It can be hard to understand for many. Their knowledge of "the junkie" comes most often from negative media portrayal, or some thinly viewed personal situation. Accepting that the individual still impacts the reality of being an addict challenges most people. Thanks for sharing...I appreciate seeing a like minded expression. xo ~♡

Shane Levene said...

Hey Anon... yep, still seeing comments and double yep to being spam hacked. I can stop it by enabling comment moderation but a lot of readers didn't like that as you're never quite sure if your comment went through or got swallowed up. So I guess I'll ahve to just delete the african miracle doctors who can cure just about every physical and mental ailment and yet are spamming heroin addicts for business???

I think that it's not only the media that is guikty for the portrayal of addicts, but often the addicts themselves are just as guilty of playing up to certain myths of addiction. The myth of self-destruction and living on the edge and the kinda shambolic but loveable junkie rogue... the tales about hitting 'rock bottom' and ending up in some horrendous public toilet cooking up their only fix in piss water,... multiple best friends and lovers dying in their arms etc etc. S<ome tales and myths, the ones which give sex appeal and romance to being an addict, many users play to and actively encourage that portrayal of them. If you ever sit in an NA meeting for longer than about 3 seconds all the bullshit will start... cliché after cliché... often people blatantly retelling scenes from certain movies but with themselves put in as the anti-hero. But there are some of us who try to give a more realistic, normal account of life as an addict and who will say things that are not politically correct, sometimes embarrassing, but which are never-the-less true for themselves and for many others.

Anyway, enough of all that palava... thanks for your words and time... Shane. X

Unknown said...

My name is johnsonl morgan, I am From U S A. I
wish to share my testimonies with the general public about
what this man called Dr okougbo has just done for me , this man
has just brought back my lost Ex husband to me with his great
spell, I was married to this man called Steven we were together
for a long time and we loved each order but when I was unable
to give him a child for 2 years he left me and told me he can’t
continue anymore then I was now looking for ways to get him
back until a friend of mine told me about this man and gave
his contact email drokougbospellcasterhome@gmail.com, then you wont
believe this, when I contacted this man on my problems he
prepared this spell cast and bring my lost husband back, and
after a month I miss my month and go for a test and the result
stated am pregnant am happy
today am a mother of a baby boy, thank you once again Dr
Okougbo for what you have done for me, if you are out there
passing through any of this problems listed below contact him
today drokougbospellcasterhome@gmail.com
1) If you want your ex back.
(2) if you always have bad dreams.
(3) You want to be promoted in your office.
(4) You want women/men to run after you.
(5) If you want a child.
(6) You want to be rich.
(7) You want to tie your husband/wife to be
yours forever.

(8) If you need financial assistance.
(9) total cure of HIV and AIDS
(10) total cure of breath cancer

Anonymous said...



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3. CHILD BEARING.
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5. GETTING OF JOB.
6. JOB PROMOTION.
7. MONEY SPELL.
8. SPIRITUAL PROTECTION.
9. HERBAL CARE.
10. BEAUTY SPELL

Malcolm said...


I live in united state, Two years ago i married a lady called saline, we had two children together, we were very happy to be husband and wife, so when i travel on a business trip to Brazil, i spent a year in Brazil due to my kind of business, i and my wife talked on phone all the time, we chatted on the Internet, i never knew that my wife had started cheating on me by going out with her old school friend called Mark, i never knew something was going wrong till i came back from my trip, then i and My wife started having problems, she goes out and come back late at night, she changed in a strange way that i could not endure, i tried to do everything to please her but it got worst, so one day she left the house and never came back, i tried reaching her but no way i could reach her, i never knew she had travelled with her new lover which was Mark, i wanted her so much because of the children she left for me and because i loved her so much too, because of the heart break she has put me into, i went into search of a real magic spell caster though I was scammed twice by a spell caster, but I never relented in my search because I wanted a happy life with my wife, So one morning i saw a testimony about a spell caster Esango Priest, so i contacted him and to my greatest surprise this esangopriest@gmail.com made life manful for me again, my wife came back to me after 3 days of a love spell from this Esango Priest, i took her back and I am now settled with my wife by the magic power of Esango Priest .
Malcolm franks'

Anonymous said...

My ex-boyfriend dumped me 2 year ago after I accused him of seeing someone else and insulting him. I wanted him back in my life but he refused to have any contact with me. So after researching around I found this site and contacted Dr atiti. When I had my reading done, I was nervous and scared. I thought he said he wouldn̢۪t be able to help me. But in the end, he told me he could help me to bring him back. I was expecting to have to spend a lot of money because I saw his prices are expensive. So I was really really surprised when he told me all I had to do was to have two candles burned to bring him back. I ordered the candles that Dr atiti burns and had him do my candles. He sent me a prayer to say everyday and I did what he told me to do. Two and a half weeks after the last candle finished, my ex was calling me again and came over. He slept over that night and in the morning he asked if we could work it out and get back together, to which I said yes of course! And we have been back together ever since. Thank you Dr atiti, you and your Spirits, you are of great help in the community and I think you are the best. I will be back again to have you help me on a situation at my job. Dr atiti is really a wonderful, nice, kind and caring person. He really cares about his clients and I would recommend him to any and all who need spiritual help. atitilovespell@gmail.com

Anonymous said...

My ex-boyfriend dumped me 2 year ago after I accused him of seeing someone else and insulting him. I wanted him back in my life but he refused to have any contact with me. So after researching around I found this site and contacted Dr atiti. When I had my reading done, I was nervous and scared. I thought he said he wouldn̢۪t be able to help me. But in the end, he told me he could help me to bring him back. I was expecting to have to spend a lot of money because I saw his prices are expensive. So I was really really surprised when he told me all I had to do was to have two candles burned to bring him back. I ordered the candles that Dr atiti burns and had him do my candles. He sent me a prayer to say everyday and I did what he told me to do. Two and a half weeks after the last candle finished, my ex was calling me again and came over. He slept over that night and in the morning he asked if we could work it out and get back together, to which I said yes of course! And we have been back together ever since. Thank you Dr atiti, you and your Spirits, you are of great help in the community and I think you are the best. I will be back again to have you help me on a situation at my job. Dr atiti is really a wonderful, nice, kind and caring person. He really cares about his clients and I would recommend him to any and all who need spiritual help. atitilovespell@gmail.com

Anonymous said...

At last my happiness has been restored by a Man called Dr Believe ,, my name’s are Mrs Nikki Rose i want every one on this site or forum to join me thank this Dr Believe for what he just did for me and my kids . My story goes like this i was married to my husband for 5 years we were living happily together for this years and not until he traveled to Italy for a business trip where he met this prostitute who be witched him to hate me and the kids and love her only so when my husband came back from the trip he said he does not want to see me and my kids again so he drove us out of the house and he was now going to Italy to see that other woman. so i and my kids were now so frustrated and i was just staying with my mum and i was not treating good because my mama got married to another man after the death of my daddy so the man she got married to was not treating i and my kids well so i was so confuse and i was searching for a way to get my husband back to me and my kids so one day as i was browsing on my computer i saw a testimony about this MAN Dr Believe of authenticspellcast@gmail.com and authenticspellcast@yahoo.com shared on the internet by a lady and it impress me too so i also think of giving it a try at first i was scared by when i think of what me and my kids are passing through so i contact him and he told me to stay calm for just two days that my husband shall be restored to me and to my best surprise i received a call from my husband on the second day asking after the kids and i called Dr Believe and he said your problems are solved my child so this was how i get my family back after a long stress of brake up by an evil lady so with all this help from Dr Believe of authenticspellcst@gmail.com and authenticspellcast@yahoo.com i want you all on this forum to join me to say a huge thanks to Dr Believe and i will also advice for any one in such or similar problems or any kind of problems should also contact him for help you can call him on his mobile number +2349051496262

Unknown said...

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1) If you want your ex back.
(2) if you always have bad dreams.
(3) You want to be promoted in your office.
(4) You want women/men to run after you.
(5) If you want a child.
(6) You want to tie your husband/wife to be yours forever.
(7) How you been scammed and you want to recover you lost money.
(8)if you want to stop your divorce.
(9if you want your wishes to be granted.
(10) Pregnancy spell to conceive baby

Anonymous said...

My daughter is going into year two of heroin addiction. Today she was supposed to go into rehab, but, I suppose her fear of detox caused her to run off to her "friend", a fellow addict.
She has stolen from me to the point of financial ruin, lied to me non-stop, broken my spirit, all the classic shenanigans addicts do.
I had the misfortune of talking with an uninformed idiot who told me, "ah she only smokes it. Be glad she doesn't inject it, then she'll be a TRUE addict".
I've seen my "only a smoker" daughter try to go cold turkey, and it was horrible!
I guess I just wanted to come and say that I don't need to know the physical dependency first hand to understand the struggle addicts go through.
I don't know when, or IF she will seek help, but I do know I will NEVER give up on her!

Deborah said...
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Anonymous said...

I think that the instant addiction myth is probably one of the most counter productive of them. It greatly exaggerates the addictive nature of heroin and I can imagine most people thinking they've been lied to after taking it once and not feeling like they need more. This probably leads them to think they can use it a lot more and still control their use and eventually leads to addiction after weeks of constant use.

Anonymous said...

Personally to me it seems like you don't even know what the hell your talking about. Like these questions are the stupidest things ever. And your answers to most of them were so off it made me want to stick a needle in my arm & relapse

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

That's because you're a sadbitter cunt who fucked his life up, lost everything and is probably dying from some hideous disease as well (namely stupidity). Even here you're immediately trying to lay the blame of a relapse on someone other than yourself. You're also one of them terribly sad cunts who have quit but have so little life you spend all you're time around heroin sites!haha. If I were you I'd worry about getting a brain before worrying about relapse. You sad little cunt wipe. X

Anonymous said...

For everyone asking if a heroin addict will always relapse, the answer is no. I had a 6 year habit which included sleeping under a bridge, prostitution, and sneaking out of the hospital (with endocarditis due to shooting up) to use my direct line.

I have been clean for 10 years. I am 34f. I also just graduated law school. No joke. However, I am the only person I know who has been successful and getting and remaining clean. Many of my former acquaintences have died.

I just became disgusted with myself at one point. And I have an abnormally high level of drive and determination.

Unknown said...



!!! How I Get My Husband Back With The Help Of Dr.NICE !!!

“LOVE is the key to LIFE”. That was the word from Dr NICE when I consulted his powerful Love Temple. I married the wrong man; I realized that after four years of our unfruitful marriage. Everything was going from Best to Worst in our life, no child, I got demoted from work after our marriage, my husband was sacked a year after. His application for new job in various offices was constantly declined even though he was qualified enough. I was made to take care of my family with the low income I earn get that wasn’t enough to pay our rent. We keep praying a seeking for help from some people, my friends laugh at me behind because I was advised not to get married yet.It was one Thursday night that my husband woke me up and told me that has thought enough about our crisis, he said that our crisis is not ordinary and it’s beyond our spiritual level. He suggested we should consult Dr NICE from testimonies he showed me online about how he has been helping families. I was afraid, I don’t like evil or spell but I supported him to contact him if he can help us. We consulted him via professionallovespell@hotmail.com and he replied positively after 20munites with congratulating email that he can help us but he will need our pure heart and trusts in his work if he will cast the spell on us and purify our life. We agreed to his terms. He cast the spell and told us to expect results within 5days. I waited for three days nothing happened, so I started having doubt and blaming my husband for emailing Dr NICE. It was on the fifth day that my husband was called for an interview and he got a well-paying work, I was prompted to a higher position. I missed my period on the 5th day and it was confirmed that I am with a baby. Things have really changed for us for good and we now have our own house and cars. I will never forget what Dr NICE told us “LOVE is the key to LIFE”, this word keep me going. People that laughed at us are coming close for help and I am delighted to welcome them because my family is now blessed. Dr NICE is a savior and man that keep to his word even when I doubted his powers at the end of the spell. Thank you great Dr NICE and your Oracle for helping us via professionallovespell@hotmail.com and I will keep spreading this message to people in need of help. also contact him for help.

Unknown said...

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Anonymous said...

This is not true! Numerous studies show that a heroin addict will clean up for good without any type of program.. A large percentage do it on their own, so to speak. I will find the links and post them for you.

Also, for someone that's been an addict for so long, you are making so many sweeping generalizations in this post it's unbelievable. I'm an addict too.. One that got high in the bathroom the night of her masters degree ceremony among many other reckless things. I feel like this is all completely anecdotal and you shouldn't give advice that isn't backed up with evidence. It's dangerous to others and their families.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

Anon, you idiotic piece of shit who obviously hasn't ever had a fucking hardcore, years old smack addiction. Of course you'll find all rehabs quoting how successful they are and that they all have a magical cure because they want peoples' fucking money or government money! So post whatever nonsense statistics you fuckin like and spend as much of your cunting time finding them, but you'd look a little more serious if before you do that you check their facts and statistics and get names and addresses of all their 'successes' and see where they are today! I'll guarantee half are dead and another third are still on smack.

"I'm an addict too... One that got high in the bathroom the night of her masters degree ceremony among many other reckless things"

That line there just proves you're a total fucking bullshitting cunt! Oh, how reckless that was! a life of addiction and that was your height of depravity? You fucking idiot. It'll turn out you took a toke of a joint in the toilets and no more. You fool. Do you see the amount of hardcore longterm addicts here... in agreement with this post? All people fucked over by the substitution schemes and put onto other even more addictive drugs? And if you knew anything of this life of heroin addiction you'd know that this post is so far away from the generalisations which exist (the ones you are trying to support for you pathetic and idiotic conservative and religious ideals). Not only that, you'd have surely noticed there are many points which you'll read nowhere else online. What did you master in? General idiocy and copy & pasting! Listen, you disgusting religious minded fuck: post anything you do do research and back up and prove and it will be removed immediately. I will leave a comment saying it's removed UNTIL such a time as you can back it up and show what research you did to ensure its credibility. Having a 'masters' you'll surely understand that as you would have had to do the same with any facts/data in your Master's thesis/research paper. Apart from that an idiotic like you will get no more replies from me... i'll not waste any more time than one reply on social retards. Oh, and you do know that this is a literary site, don't you? You complete arse. X

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Anonymous said...

Hey mate, are you still there? having gone through your blog/comments "actually new into this" just wanted to raise a couple of comments if i may xxx no addict ever will be able to maintain his addiction in a good manner i mean will be able to control it and am not talking money wise though eventually millions will be lost and think you probably aware of that ... it's not how much you pay for the morning score .... having been there for almost 15 years can assure you there is a bottom wonder how you haven't reached so far and how you are keeping up with your desire to remain as an active addict ?!?! frankly this is odd, i mean am in love with Heroin !!! it's a fact more than any thing else saw / will be seen ... i tried to maintain my addiction in the active mode for years but it didn't work and this is the main fact i have seen all addicts sharing .... i even decided one day to set a big amount of money for my addiction after calculating how much will i need to spend for 10 years and all gone within months !! however, may be you are lucky wish i would have been able to take a similar decision of yours to remain using and declare it openly ... but heroin knocked me down ... so, i have tried to quit using all methods every thing just like any other addict and more on top ... nothing works but the program and when am saying program here am not talking about the boring NA meetings, but taking what i need and that's it .. being smart during active addiction managing your life, lies, .... makes you a smart recovered addict but only if you need to do it ... as going through recovery path requires much strength and will then what is needed before getting clean .... it's a continues fight that needs strong will, faith, personality all together makes you say am proud to be a recovered addict .. wishing you good luck in your life and enjoy mate, no one can ever say that heroin is bad ever .. so enjoy but you never know when will be the last fix and this is another concern ... you said you have been clean for a year before 2003/4 so you have done it before, try doing again and never mention that if you want to stop you will stop this is far beyond truth and you know it ... yes you can say it thousands time but you never act towards it though you have the intention .... take care and thanks for the blog it summarized every thing

Unknown said...

Thanks. Now my friend is looking in my ass for track marks.

Unknown said...

Two more questions please. 1: can you post a picture of yourself so I can see? After I see you can just delete it if want. 2: what site are you using ? I would like to start a site where I can also share stories but more so Id like to write about the wild and vivid dreams/nightmares I have each night.

Unknown said...

Also, wish me luck. I am doing a home detox starting tomorrow morning or I will lose the man I love.

Memoirs of a Heroinhead said...

hey gray... there's a picture of me in the sidebar of this site and many more on my facebook (which is public, so you don't need to have a facebook to look through).

The site I use is Blogger. It's created so as anyone can set up and start writing immediately, just be warned that it takes a bit of work to get even a single reader as noone will find your site if just opened and used to write on. If the words are just for you then that's all fine.

Good luck for tomorrow... not for the detox (I don't care if someone is clean or using) but for your man... we all need someone to love... someone to shit on and then beg to stay! So good luck with that... if you're a good guy he'll stick around. X

Unknown said...

I never knew people still have powers and make things happened this way. My name is Debby Patrick am from U S A. my Husband Williams John left me for another woman for three months' ever since then my life have been filled with pains sorrow and heart break because he was my first love who dis virgin me when i was 21 years old. about two years ago, A friend of mine Kate Pillps told me he saw some testimonies of this great Dr ogududu that he can bring back lover within some few days, i laugh it out and said i am not interested but because of the love my friend had for me, she consulted the great priest on my behalf and to my greatest surprise after three days my boyfriend is going to call me for the very first time after three months that he is missing me and that he is so sorry for every thing he made me went through. i still can't believe it, because it highly unbelievable it just too real to be real. Thank you Dr ogududu for bringing back my lover and also to my lovely friend who interceded on my behalf, for any one who might need the help of this great priest here is the email address drogududuspellhome@gmail.com OR you can call the great man on {+2348101197342}

Anonymous said...

This information you provided is so not true. You are an addict and YES you can become addicted to heroin. You are a typical individual on an illicit drug that is cloud-minded and do not know what you are saying. All I have to say is get clean and quit misinforming people about heroin. Thank you and have a wonderful life living in a cloud.

Esther said...


I have been in bondage ever since my ex Husband leave me for another woman, It was really hell for me and everybody told me to forget about him but i could not because i love him so much,I cried and sobbed every day, until it got so bad that I reached out to the Internet for help.And i saw a testimony of a spell caster who help a girl called cynthia get he ex boyfriend back, and i said let me give it a try,but I never believe because i thought all spell caster is fake,so i decided to contact him for help and he cast a love spell for me which i use in getting my Husband back and now i am a happy woman.For what you have done for me,i will not stop to share your goodness to people out there for the good work you are doing.Once again thank you Dr.Moon You are truly talented and gifted. If you need his help you can reach him on his email address:doctormoontemple778@gmail.com i believed him and today i am glad to let you all know that this spell caster have the power to bring lovers back. because i am now happy with my husband.Try the Dr.Moon today he we be the key or answer to your problem. Here's his contact email doctormoontemple778@gmail.com MAKE GOD JOIN YOU AND EMPOWER YOU Dr Moon...

Anonymous said...

Sent u a message by email saying ..lump in neck. Please respond!!

Anonymous said...

You only need to use heroin once to become addicted Myth. I would say and most will back me that you answer is wrong.
Three consecutive days would be the magic number for most if not all people. Everybody who uses three days in a row goes into withdrawal in day four or five. So 3 consecutive days is what it takes. You can use more then 3 times, shit even 1000 times just make sure its not 3 days in a row and you should be good.

Anonymous said...

hello every body my name is Karen Brown I just want to share my experience with the world on how Lord Alika help me, I got my love back and saved my marriage… I was married for 3years with 1kid and we lived happily until things started getting ugly and we had fights and argued almost every time… it got worse at a point that he filed for divorce… I tried my best to make him change his mind & stay with me because I love him so much and don't want to lose him but everything just didn't work out… he moved out of the house because it was a rented apartment and still went ahead to file for divorce… I pleaded and tried everything but still nothing worked. The breakthrough came when someone introduced me to this wonderful, great spell caster who eventually helped me out… I have never been a fan of things like this but just decided to try reluctantly because I was desperate and left with no choice… He did special prayers and used his power… Within 3 days my husband called me and he said he was sorry for all the emotional pains he had cost me, moved back to the house and we continue to live happily and our kid is happy too and we are expecting our second child… I have introduced him to a lot of couples with problems across the world and they have had good news… Just thought I should share my experience because I strongly believe someone out there need's it… You can email him through his lordalikaspelltemple@yahoo.co.uk or http://lordalikaspelltemp8.wix.com/http call him +2348072718865

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Susan said...

I hear that, there is no honor amongst thieves. Having being forced to deal with the stupid crap herion addicts do. I am thinking of moving and not telling my daughter where I moved too. I personally just can not deal with it anymore. They will lie and everyone knows they are lying but who wants to argue with someone about the shit. Really, I just try to never talk with her as much as possible. You can not have a normal conversation high or sober. It is always lies, stupdity and games or manipulation. I have never tried herion, never will. Have no desire to take anything that makes you act that stupid or treat people that way. There is no high worth that to me. It is drug addiction that makes people very selfish. I mean really, so what it feels good. What about the hell and pain everyone else goes through even with something as simple as trying to have a normal conversation, let alone the other crap.

Susan said...

Thank you for being honest. I have always said that is a choice. It is something I chose not get involved in at a very young age. If my daughter chooses to as a frigging adult,that is her choice. My choice as a kid was to not get involved. So, in order to get away from the crap. I am just moving and going on my life without herion being a part of it. I do love her but I really the person she has become. She is able to take care of herself when she works. I am tired of the lies, games, being used. Plus, I lost my guitars and artwork. When she makes plenty of money

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Shane Levene said...

Susan, you sound like you are in need of urgent psychiatric help... maybe a forceful intervention. Your naive conclusions based on the behaviours of one addict will hardly stand up to scientific scrutiny. People like you are the reason why racism and bigotry and ignorance prevails. "I knew a black person once and he was sent to prison for rape... ALL blacks are like that in my book!"

While you're away try to read a few books, any books. If you need help fingering out the letters and knowing how to pronounce them just mail. I've met 6 year olds who are more thoughtful than you. God luck. Even without heroin you are fucked. X

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all my thanks to dr zack balo for help me bring back my husband said...


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Unknown said...

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Unknown said...

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Shane Levene said...

Mariah, you sound smart... like you'd be able to hold a really interesting and intelligent conversation. X

rich f said...

I just wanted to say that I employ a guy with a habit that costs him between £50 / 100 per day.

He's the best guy I've ever had and even though he disappears every day for an hour (to walk his dog etc) he is a stand up guy and a top plasterer.

I'm the boss and I have a £100.00 crack session every month or so. My guy is a miles better tradesman and he 's honest as the day is long. It's all about the individual in my opinion. Some guys are cool, lots are wankers

Anonymous said...

and, he's honest with me about it. He lives to his means. In fact, He offered to not get paid for a few weeks if I was struggling. I paid him of course but he is such a top geezer. As he says, 'If you can afford it, it isn't an issue'. Totally agree with that x x x

Shane Levene said...

Hey Rich... can only agree with you. Most are wankers. The drug makes them wankers. But every so often a good soul blows its way in. If you'd like to employ another one let me know... am struggling to get back on my feet since returning. X

Anonymous said...

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Unknown said...

These myths were interesting.The one that surprised me is that it easy to overdoes. I've her the opposite multiple times. I kind of wonder where some of these came from. http://www.treatwithcare.com/

MONICA said...


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Comagirl said...

Most correctional facilities now have needle exchange programs. At least they do here in Canada.

Comagirl said...

A well worded response. Unfortunately many people who have not experienced the symptoms of physical dependence are quick to judge and lecture, thinking they must know better, yet in reality they haven't gathered enough knowledge to begin to empathize let alone be in a position to advise.
Your article is valuable and rings true. I have been on Fentanyl and morphine for ten years, detoxing 1-2 x per year to lower my medication intake. A few times I was unable to fill prescriptions on time due to my doc being away and had to supplement with heroin. Films do little to portray the reality of what true withdrawal feels like. For those who have not experienced it, it begins with rapid-fire sneezing, all over heaviness and body pain, feeling that you are carrying cement blocks on every part of your body. Your muscles stiffen, and then the precursor to "the kick" sets in: Your ankles and wrists feel like they are climbing out of your body, yet feel simultaneously, ferociously itchy. The pain this causes is otherworldly. You begin to shake, slam, compress, ice, heat - kick and scream and do anything at all in an effort to try and escape this part of withdrawal. I've crushed myself between my mattress and boxspring, beat my hands on walls, strapped my ankles with belts. Nausea and vomiting are welcome distractions, sleep near impossible. You freeze while you sweat. You become uncomfortably aware of what hideous shape you are in, paranoid and never feel more drugged out than when you are in withdrawal. And your bowels become a mess that I will not describe. I'll only mention that it can take more than a month for them to regulate.

Unlike in films, withdrawal does not last for a pert day and night in front of the toilet followed by a share in a support group. A full detox from heroin can last 11-21 days, and after that a person is left feeling like a babe in the woods, scared and abandoned. Committing to sobriety takes a great deal of free time and the willingness and ability to go through this hideous process. Once a strong opiod has latched on, it is not a choice: The body requires it to function normally. It's not as simple as just saying "No".

Comagirl said...

You clearly don't know what debauchery means.

Comagirl said...

I think all he's saying, rightfully, is that chances for lifetime success deriving from a first time detox are slim. Even when someone first goes to treatment the success rate for one year sobriety stands at around 4%. Anyone preparing for detox needs supports that suit them in place before they begin withdrawal; housing outside of trigger areas, job, social contacts, physical activity, groceries, and many more things to pleasantly replace the drug. Many people find support groups triggering because all the talk about the drug makes them want to do the drug, so places like NA aren't suitable for everyone. But, a recovering addict must have social contacts, must spend time with them. Isolation is a pitfall. It's very difficult because someone in early recovery feels physically dreadful, socially alienated from those not using/in recovery, yet they really ought to challenge themselves to step forward in order to break more comfortable retreat patterns. This (very natural) fear is what often leads to relapse and why it takes many trys at detox/treatment: The more a user learns about addiction and themself, the better equipped they become at being able to pull themselves out.

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Anonymous said...

I used to be addicted to this poison. There is no glamor in it. Stay away
from it or get help if you are on it. It never ends well and should not be
encouraged. Doing things on it that land you in prison is not something to
be proud of. Seeing how your " closest " friends will turn on you and each
other over this poison is disgusting. Seeing people become a shell of what
they once were is sad. I have no sympathy for addicts that excuse this, I
once was, decisions have consequences. My sympathy is only for those who
want to be free of this curse and change.

Shane Levene said...

Anonymous... why the hell would an addict want your sympathy? You come here preaching your shit, judging everyone by the disgusting things you did because you couldn't control yourself (or will you tell me you was 'one of the honest ones'?). You have thought so little about what you are saying it doesn't make no sense. So, you say: IT NEVER ENDS WELL. Then why should anyone end it? What you're saying is even if you go and get clean today you're gonna suffer anyway as this NEVER ENDS WELL. What better encouragement for people to carry on using then! If you have been an addict then you'll know that people end up in jail committing crimes when they do not have heroin... not when they are on it. When addicts have run out and are facing illness they become and do desperate things. Did you not observe anything?

As I always say:

The more moral someone is in recovery, the more immoral they were during addiction. You must have done some pretty disgusting things to want to redeem yourself this badly. I suppose you'll blame heroin for your behaviours... blame an inanimate powder! No, you behaved so appallingly because that is at the heart of your character. To disassociate from your actions, say "it wasn't really me" you blame it on a powder! You need to show some accountability... start to admit you have a rotten soul and you are a piece of shit on or off heroin. X

Anonymous said...


My ex and i were together for Two years and 4 months, we were very happy to be husband and wife, last month we went to California and stayed with his family, after we got back he started acting distant, then he started hanging out with a girl, and kept sneaking off to go hangout with her, so i got upset, i could not endure, i tried to do everything to please him but it got worst, one day he left the house and never came back, i tried reaching him but no way i could reach him, because of the heart break he has put me into, i went into search of a real spell caster but I was scammed several times, but I never relented in my search because I want a happy life with my boyfriend, when i saw testimony about spell caster on the internet, so i contacted him and to my greatest surprise (((manifest spell cast@gmail.com))) restored my relationship, my boyfriend came back to me, i took him back and I am now settled with my him by the magic power of Dr. Todd the genuine spell caster.

Jessy moon said...

Basketball.... I really like what you said. I'm actually heroin addict crack addict anything really but. Have been clean for seven months now n I do see hope. Everyone always would tell me recovery is spiritual n. Couldn't see that...I would say but I can get clean of I want n everyone III had gotten clean which I can't even count I never made it past 2-3 months... I believe this time I really wanted it n I prayed and I have a relationship with heavenly Father... After seven months clean seeing the light at the end of the tunnel I still want to use really badly. And sometimes I am scared I will. But I really liked what u said and after reading a lot of the comments I actually thought about using as sick as it sounds but... I got to yours n turned my mind around thankyou ��

Anonymous said...



Todd did an amazing spell for me to help me deal with a really difficult boss who was abusing me at work. I didn't know what to do until Michael promised that his spell would fix this abusive situation so I would not have to deal with my boss again and feel safer and less stressed at work! Only a month later, I saw really amazing effects, my boss was finally starting to get what she deserved and not get away with things anymore...it's still continuing so good things are coming out of manifestspellcast@gmail.com and now I can go to work with peace of mind and concentrate on my job without getting harassed!

Thank you Dr. Todd you are an angel!

Anonymous said...


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SLO Recovery Centers said...

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Anonymous said...


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